Forced to hurt you

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Eva's POV

I am laying beside him. He was sleeping and I was awake. I didn't want to sleep, because I feared of having nightmares and scare James out of sudden. The nightmares. The unreal ones.

He doesn't know. He doesn't know what Aiden did to me. And it's better so. I want a new beginning. With him. Hand in hand. As a married couple. I think he told me everything that I needed to know. I now have my memories back. All of them. Thanks to him. Even what happened that one year. That one year. I remember all of it. Now that I have my memories back, I somehow want to forget a few. These few are that I needed to get back, I just want to forget them now.

I looked at James and raised my eyebrows. He is so beautiful. His hair now all messy, his lips parted and his hands not letting go off mine. He wanted me to stay here, beside him. Our faces so close, our foreheads touching and my heart beating loudly. He is breathtaking.

As I was admiring his features and started to touch his cheek lightly, he slowly opened his eyes. I gulped. I looked away for a few seconds and then when I looked into his eyes once again, his expression was intense, almost threatening. So...light.

"Can I?" He whispered and I lightly nodded, allowing him it. He asked for permission. And I gave him it. He leaned in towards me and kissed my cheek, then the corner of my mouth lightly. I closed my eyes as I saw him closing his, waiting for his lips to get in contact with mine.

And he kissed me. He pulled me closer from his right hand by my neck and his left arm was on my waist. He kissed me so passionately, it even made me teary. He suddenly pulled back from the kiss and hovered above me, his hand traveling down on my thigh, squeezing it.

He bit my lower lip harshly and I opened my eyes, meeting his now dark ones. I couldn't recognize him.

He smashed his lips roughly on mine and I gasped between the kiss when his hands started to part my legs wide for him so that he can be between my legs.

I wanted it to stop. I wasn't ready for it. Worst ever. We are not married.

"J-James! S-stop!" I tried to push him away, but he didn't move at all. And that's when I found out why he behaved this way. His lust took over him.

But was it really his lust?

"I waited for so long. Just a little bit. I won't do anything. I promise. I missed it." He said as he pulled back and looked deeply into my eyes, I shook my head.

This wasn't him.

I felt weird. I felt a weird feeling inside me. And that made me feel angry and mad. I felt like something tried to tell me that I had to protect myself. My neck started to stinging.

"Stop!" I pushed him with all my strength and for my luck, he stopped and lay beside me again. I quickly turned around to the other side, closing my eyes tightly.

"I-I am sorry."

Back then, I didn't know that a monster was living inside him.

-

4 days passed and I was sleeping alone again. It's better so. For both of us. I don't wanna experience it again. It was terrifying and scary. But I forgave him. How couldn't I?

-

"You won't go to work? Why? I can stay alone here. You don't have to worry. Lucas will be here too." I pouted as I crossed my arms, he looked at me and chuckled.

"Lucas already left to meet with someone. And I am sure that he'll come late today as well." James shrugged.

Uh ... my brother? Well ... he meets with someone lately. When I asked him with whom, he just started to blush. He covered his face and ran away.

But once, Lucas didn't answer. He just smirked. Smirked evily.

"It hurts. You want me to go." He whined as he walked closer to me with a very cute and sad expression.

"Just go. I can stay alone. Really. And you already are wearing your suit and your bag is ready. Just go." I said and he pouted.

"Help me with my tie." He tilted his head to the side as he flashed a smile.

"Could you help me, my love? You used to do this for me." He shyly giggled and I chuckled. He was struggling with his tie.

"How did you survive these years? I am sure you know how to do it." I teased and he scratched his neck. I

"Yeah, but I want you to-"

I cut him off by pressing my index finger against his lips, keeping him quiet.

"I'll do it. Just be quiet."

I draped the tie around his shoulders. I then crossed the wide end over the narrow end, then looping the wide end under the narrow end. I looped the wide end back over again.

(A/N, I got it from wikihow btw.)

I looked into his eyes and blushed. He was looking so amazingly at me. I can't describe it. Simple words won't be enough to describe it. His light brown eyes were looking into mine so innocently.

"Don't look at me ... please. It makes me weak. It makes my heart race and I suddenly start to feel nervous. So stop." I blinked a few times.

"I am lucky to have you. My soon to be wife." His right arm on my hips, making my heart skip a few beats. I do like his sweet words. A lot. It's just that he sometimes does it on purpose because he knows that it became my weakness.

I have to focus on his tie. Only his tie.

I pulled the wide end up through the neck loop. And I smiled brightly as I almost finished it. I tightened the knot and looked at him.

"I want to spend time with you. Can I just stay-"

I started to push him and he started to cry. More like fake crying. What? He won't leave if I don't force him. I started to push him and push him, now pushing him lightly down the stairs.

"Don't push me, my love." He sighed and turned around, this making me push the air and nearly falling down. But he caught me, his arm around my waist. He smirked.

"I'll go. But I want a kiss." He pointed at his lips and I rolled my eyes. I kissed his cheek instead and he whimpered as he shook his head cutely.

"Kiss me on the lips, Eva." He licked his lips, not trying to reach mine. I sighed and kissed him. But quickly pulled back.

"Go now. You'll be late for work." I sighed and he nodded, making his way to the door. He turned around and smiled at me.

"Bye, my love." He waved with his bag. I chuckled and waved back, but with my flip-flop. He left.

Silence ... pure silence.

Wait! So, I am alone now? Meaning I can do whatever I want...

(20 sec later ...)

"Whatever ... I ... want."

I quickly ran to the kitchen and decided to make a cake. A chocolate cake. After I wore an apron, I searched up in google how to make a chocolate cake.

Wikihow: 1 cup oil, 1 cup caster/superfine sugar, 1/2 cup flour,1/2 cup cocoa, 1 teaspoon baking powder ... uhm and 4 eggs.

"It's easy ... haha." I took all the ingredients I needed and put them on the table.

"A mixing bowl! Where is it?" I started to open some shelves and easily found it. I then started to read how to make the cake.

Wikihow: Pour the oil into the mixing bowl.

"Alright, boss!" I chuckled and took the oil bottle. I sure had a had time with opening it. I sighed and tried harder as I started to walk around.

"What the heck?!" I rolled my eyes. I thought I was different from others? I thought I was stronger? Why can't I open this freaking bottle?!

I sighed and used my whole strength while closing my eyes. And suddenly, when I made it ... I dropped the bottle.

"The oil!" I gasped and picked it up. But it was too late. Oh, s**t.

"Kawnakkwq ..hu-" I nearly slipped.

I looked down and bit my lip. "You gotta be kidding me." I facepalmed myself and ruffled my hair out of frustration.

"I will have to clean up later." I sighed and walked with very small and strong steps to the table again. What? What if I slip and fall on the floor?

I poured a little oil into the mixing bowl and then took my phone out, continued reading.

Wikihow: Add sugar to the oil. Uh.

"This is easy!" And it really was easy, I easily added sugar to the oil.

Wikihow: Add the cocoa, flour and baking powder to a separate mixing bowl.

I added cocoa and picked the flour package. It was unpacked. I sighed and scratched my forehead. There it goes again. I tried to open the package, but couldn't.

Why?

Why?

Why?

Why?????!!?????

WHY IS THIS SO HARD?!

I sighed and tried harder. I giggled when I finally made it.

"Eva, my love."

???

... James? James Collin? What is this bunny doing here? He didn't go to work?!

I rolled my eyes as I saw him running happily around, trying to find me.

"Eva, my love. Where are you?? Are we gonna play hide and s-"

He found me. Ugh.

"I found you." He giggled weirdly and walked to me. As I was looking at him, he disappeared in a blink. No. Really now. For real. He just disappeared from my sight.

"WHAT IS THIS? WHY DID I LAND ON THE FLOOR? AH, I THINK I BROKE MY NECK." He whined and I looked down. I gasped when I saw him laying on the floor.

"James, my bunny!" I ran to him, but that was a very ... a very bad idea. I was still carrying the flour package and the oil on the floor- Well, let me explain you.

Let's start from the beginning...

"James, my bunny!" I ran to him, but I slipped. The flour package flew from my hands and landed on my clothes and face. I fell above James and started to cough.

"AHHHH! JAMES! I CAN'T OPEN MY EYES! IT LANDED ON MY EYES! IT'S IN MY EYES!" I screamed and started to panic. One thought that crossed in my head: Will I ever be able to see again? Ever?

"I WILL HELP YOU, MY LOVE!" He said dramatically as he tried to stand up, but failed. He tried over and over again. And so did he slip over and over again.

I rubbed my eyes and tried to open them, I blinked a few times and started to cough again. I started to crawl to the table and with the help of it, I stood on my feet then looked at James, who was now also covered with flour.

"What are you doing here???" I yelled at him and he sighed, still trying to stand up.

"Your brother called me and told me that someone important will have dinner with us." He shrugged and I sighed as I saw the mess. The kitchen was a mess. We were a mess!

"What were you even trying to do?" He asked me and I gulped.

"A cake." I looked away and he chuckled.

"What about this: I'll call someone to clean this mess up and we'll take a quick shower. Then I'll help you with making the cake." He winked at me and I sighed.

"When will Lucas arrive?" I asked and he hummed, then smiled at me.

"In 1 hour. Maybe 2 hours. The only thing I can say that the person, who he will bring is very important to him." He said and I smiled a little. I think it's a girl.

"And what about this: We'll make the cake and clean this up. Then we can take a shower?" I asked and he looked blankly at me. Well, I had to go with James's suggestion.

A girl came over and cleaned the kitchen while we took a shower (Not together. Calm down.) The cake is also done.

But let me tell you this: I put something in the cake, for revenge of course. I mean, I could make the cake on my own. But oh well, I will make sure that only James will eat that cake.

-(1 hour later)-

I was sitting with James on the couch, we both were looking at Lucas. Who was blushing a lot?

"And now ladies and gentleman-"

"It's only James and me though. Or do you count yourself as a lady?" I rolled my eyes and James giggled after he saw me getting more annoyed. I mean, Lucas has been staying and hesitating a lot. He wanted to introduce someone to me. Well, to us. Although I think James knows who Lucas wants to introduce.

"Ok, she'll come in. Like the wind. I mean like an angel." He sure did weird poses while saying that. No wonder I am his sister. We do resemble each other. A lot.

"Ehm, I have to go to the bathroom. I knew I shouldn't drink that much water. I have been holding it too long. Just let her come now." I crossed my legs and James moved closer to me, our bodies touching.

"His girlfriend." He whispered and then kissed my cheek. Ugh. Why does he always has to kiss my cheek? It makes me feel uncomfortable. In a good way. I mean, it makes me blush and my heart isn't in a good state anymore, because of this cheek-kisser. He just takes every opportunity to kiss me.

"Can I come in? It's cold outside." A voice said behind the door. Lucas then quickly opened the door and gave her his jacket. Wow.

Anyway. He cares about her.

He then held her hand and walked to us, with a bright smile. I looked at the girl. Aw, she's so cute and so beautiful. I stood up and was about to hug her, but James pulled me back down, on his lap.

"I'll just cover your eyes babe. You're too innocent." Lucas covered his girlfriend's eyes and I sent James a death glare and moved to the side. He also didn't plan it. He didn't, but he did it. I quickly sat next to him.

"I am sorry. I just felt really cold when you stood up." James said shyly. Well, I have to forgive him. He's so cute ... and innocent!

"This is my girlfriend. It was love at first sight." She hit his chest with a very cute smile. James held my hand and giggled.

I felt weird. It looked like Lucas was introducing his girlfriend to his parents. Although he is my big brother. I feel bad. He was a guy, who would look for a girl. Not because of his money, but because of his personality and him himself. He didn't find any. And now, he's standing here with such a cutie beside him.

"Hello, I am Sara Baker. Lucas´s girlfriend. Nice to mee-"

"Oh my gosh! You're so cute!" I ran to hug her. She's a baby. An angel. I didn't even hear James groaning when I let go of his hand.

"T-Thanks?" She chuckled and hugged me back. After a while, I pulled back from the hug, looking at the couple in front of me with fake tears in my eyes. I mean real tears.

"You have my blessing. Marry her. Marry each other."

-

We had dinner with them. Sara is really the perfect girl for my brother. She's kind, nice and talks well. She's so pretty and so cute. My brother is so in love with her. It's my first seeing him being shy in front of a girl.

I made sure that they ate a lot. Lucas and Sara were full, there won't be any space for the cake.

"Who wants a cake?" I asked softly and they shook their heads. Great!

"I can't anymore, but thank you." Sara giggled and I looked at Lucas. He also shook his head. I smirked and looked at James.

"And what about you?" I asked him and he groaned. Why is the groaning? He didn't eat that much.

"No, I am sorry. I really am full." He said and I pouted.

"But I want you to taste it. We made the cake together. I will get hurt." I whined and he scratched his neck.

"Fine." He sighed and I smirked once again, heading to the kitchen.

-

"And now the cake." I walked to them, carrying a plate with only one piece of cake. I sat on my chair again, waiting for him to eat it.

He looked suspiciously at me. "After you." He smirked and I gulped. Huh?

"I am already full. I really can't. You have to taste it." I smiled innocently at him ...

"No no no ... I want you to have the first bite, my love." He said with a very suspicious smile.

"No." I pushed his hand, which was holding a spoon. He was ready to feed me.

"C'mon sis. Just one bite." Lucas giggled and Sara nodded.

"Well, I really don't w-" James forced a piece of it inside my mouth as I was trying to say that I don't want to eat it.

"Swallow it, my love. Just like spaghetti." James smiled and I glared at him.

What I put inside the cake? Vinegar.

"JAMES COLLIN!!!!!!"

(10 sec later.)

I was haunting him, running after him. I will kill him.

"You knew! How did you know???" I yelled at him and he started to run faster.

"I saw you put it, my love. I was sure that it was poison. You put poison!" He shouted.

-

"Birthmark?" He asked me and sat next to me on my bed.

"Yes. Aiden told me that I have a birthmark. He said that only the president's daughter has it." I said and he looked confused at me. Don't tell me it's another lie.

"You don't have- I mean I don't remember your dad talking about it. No one did." He said and I sighed.

"Maybe ... he lied to me." I smiled at him and he tilted his head to the side.

"And where is this birthmark?" He asked and I moved my hair to the other side, pointing at the back of my neck.

"Here. Well, he said that it's there. But I never really took a look at it." I said and Jame sbecame silent. Why?

"James?" I looked at him and saw fear in his eyes. And now I start to get scared. That look in his eyes, it makes me feel worried.

"Why? What? Is there something? A mark? Talk to me! James? Is there something?" I asked.

"So that's what he meant."

James´s flashback

She collapsed and I quickly carried her in a bridal way. I was about to take her with me but stopped when I saw him. Aiden.

"Let go of her." He smiled as he glared at me. He just is a psycho. Then ... he really was right about him.

"I won't. She is mine." I gritted my teeth, tightening my grip on her.

He then suddenly laughed loudly as he put his one hand in his pocket and scratched his forehead with his finger, his other hand now in his pocket too. He looked around and hissed. Now looking at me, he tilted his head to the side and was death glaring at me.

"She was promised to be yours. But I marked her as mine."

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