Let go the Past ✔

LET GO 1

-JANE-

"Laila? Come here baby, don't go that way..."

I tried to reach for my 3 year old child but it's hard specially that I am carrying bags of groceries.

She just chuckled, maybe thinking that we are playing. I heaved a sigh.

"Gotcha!" I heard a familiar voice and when I look at the person she already scoop Laila up and that made my little girl giggle more. When I clearly see who is it, my hunch got answered.

"Liza? What are you doing here?" I confusedly asked seeing my best friend.

Laila currently nibbling Liza's jaw making Liza chuckle.

"Aww you hungry baby?" She ignored my question and asked Laila instead.

My baby nodded.

Liza walked near me and reached for the grocery bags for her to carry using her other free hand.

"It is purely coincidental Ms. Hale." She responded smirking.

"Its Mrs." I corrected her.

Her face saddened for a brief second but recovered afterwards.

"Yes, I am all aware." She scoffed.

"Come on, let me treat you for lunch." She stated leading the way. I have no choice but to follow.

***

She put Laila on her lap.

"What do you want to eat, princess?" Liza asked as she open the menu and showed it to Laila.

"Shiken (Chicken)." My baby answered.

Liza laugh then kissed Laila's temple.

"I should've not asked." She said looking at me smiling playfully. I shook my head in disbelief, smiling as well. I will not get used to this sight. I can't stand Liza's stare so I look down to check the menu myself.

After a couple of minutes the waiter approached us.

I ordered for the three of us not even asking Liza's consent and when I realized what I did I immediately look at her only to find out that she's looking at me too.

"Liz, I'm sorr..."

She chuckled making me stop to what I am about to say.

"Jane, relax. You act as if you're not doing that our entire lives." She joked. Well, she's partly right, okay maybe not partly, she's right. Liza is my best friend since childhood so we know everything about each other even the food we prefer.

I avoided her stare once again.

"I'm sorry, Liz. I mean, ah, these passed years I'm not deciding on my own without asking Tim's consent so maybe it became my habit now." I honestly stated.

I flinched when I felt her hand hold my hand that resting on the table. This made me look at her face.

"No need to explain. I totally understand." She said genuinely. "So where my favorite girls go after this?" She asked with a more lively voice, looking back to me and Laila.

"Go home?" I answered unsure, even though I know that I have no other errands than doing the groceries.

Liza hummed.

"How about we go to my place first?" She offered. "I can ask Tim?" She even added.

"Tim is not around." I answered. "He's out of town for business conference." I explained.

"Oh! Then much better, I'll kidnap the both of you." Liza said happily while wiggling her brows. "Is it okay princess? Will you come to Mama Liza?" She talk to Laila who's busy playing with her collar. She is Laila's godmother by the way so when Liza asked me if Laila can call her Mama, even I know Tim is against the idea, I still agreed on it.

My baby just look at Liza then goes back to what she's previously doing.

Liza chuckled.

"See? She agreed." Liza told me.

I chuckled too.

"Yes, she seems very excited." I agreed to her silliness.

The whole time we're eating Liza is the one who took care of Laila. She fed her and made sure to attend her needs. Just like when we're still young, Liza never failed to make my life better.

We're now walking to where Liza's car is. She's still carrying Laila with her right arm and her other hand holding the bag of groceries. I told her I can carry the groceries or Laila but she insist of carrying it both.

"Aww that's so sweet. If my future will not be the same as the one with bangs then no thanks, I will rather stay single forever." We heard someone said and when I look around I see group of girls eyeing us, or more of Liza.

"Yeah, she's so gorgeous as well, her wife too..."

"...and their baby. A perfect family indeed." The 2nd girl agreed.

I know Liza heard it too so I restrict myself from looking at her face cause I know she'll just tease me.

"Let's go wifey."

I heard her say louder for my liking. See what I mean? She's loving it and I'm right when I look at her face she's grinning.

She already put Laila on her toddler's safety seat then open the shotgun for me. I have no choice but to oblige, but before I successfully settled she whispered first.

"See? Even them can see our chemistry, Jane."

Of course, I ignored her.

***

-LITTLE JANE-

FLASHBACK

"Stop! I'm not cheating! He's just my colleague!" I heard my Mom screamed downstairs. I know this will happen the moment I saw her got out from her co-worker's car. "You're hurting me, Dan! Let go off me!" She added.

"Hurting?" I heard my father asked in disgust. He even scoffed. "You think I am i***t? This is the reason why you want to work, right? So you can flirt freely." He accused.

I can stand it so I turned on the music. I didn't notice that I am already crying until I saw droplets of tears on my phone's screen.

I was brought back to reality when I felt someone hugs me tight.

"Shhhh. It's okay Janey, I am here."

When I look up I see Liza's beautiful face.

She's my neighbor and my room's window is just facing her room's window so maybe she saw me. We used to go at each other's room through our window, for sure she climbed going here.

"I promise I won't be like them, Liz." I assured more of myself than Liza.

She gave me a sympathetic smile then nodded. She even kissed my forehead.

"We will make sure of that, Jane." She agreed.

END OF FLASHBACK

That's why i didn't choose you Liza

***

-JANE-

"You really carrying that portable safety seat around Liz?" I inquired once I'm settled inside Liza's car.

She smiled looking to her rear view mirror to check Laila, who's already sleeping peacefully at the back.

"Of course, it's better to be ready all the time." She said cockily and even winked at me before starting the engine.

I just shook my head in disbelief.

"What will your date think if they saw that, huh?" I challenged Liza making her laugh.

"That I'm a wife material?" She answered.

I scoffed.

"More of, that you're already has a child or something." I countered. "It may drove them away, turn off? Disappointed? You know, the typical." I added.

"Then they're not worth it and what's wrong in having a child? Just in case I'm indeed a mother already? That is the first thing I will say to someone I plan of dating. If that person don't accept that, then maybe we're just wasting each others time." Liza said seriously.

I stayed silent, I don't know what to say. All I think at the moment is that, to the person that will end up with Liza? She is lucky.

***

-LIZA-

I look at myside only to see a sleeping Jane. I noticed how tired she is the very moment I laid my eyes on her after 2 months of not seeing each other.

I heaved a sigh.

"When will you going to see your worth, Jane?" I asked her despite the reality that she can't hear me.

***

-JANE-

I followed Liza towards her room, she carefully put Laila down on her Queen Size bed.

"Until when Tim's business conference?" Liza asked not looking at me but Laila, she's securing the pillows around my girl.

I'm leaning at her room's door frame.

"Until Monday." I simply answered.

"Great. Why not stay here during the weekend?" She's now facing me with a wide smile.

"I don't know..." I answered hesitantly.

"Come on Jane, don't be like that." She walked near me. "Didn't you missed me?" She even added.

I sighed.

"Fine. I'll tell Tim." I answered. I was startled when she punched the air happily.

"Yes!" She exclaimed.

"Such a kid." I teased.

She laugh and I joined her and when our laugh subsided she spread her arms.

"Come here." She invited with soft smile and like a lost kid I rushed to her. I really missed Liza. I don't know how I control myself not bursting out earlier when we saw her.

I'm already crying being wrapped inside her arms. Of what reason? I don't know. Maybe I just miss her that much.

She hugs me tight and I reciprocated it equally, if not much tighter.

"Yah? Why are you crying." She cupped my face. Maybe she heard me sniffing.

I shook my head.

"Nothing. I just missed you. Where did you go? Why didn't you tell me? Why you're not answering my texts and calls? I'm so worried. I'm not used not seeing and talking to you Liz." I said non stopped.

"I missed you too so much Jane. I'm sorry, I just fixed somethings." She answered. I know that's not the real reason but I'm afraid to demand for more. I no longer have the right. So I nodded and return to my previous position, hugging her. My face pressed on her chest. We stayed in that position for I don't know how long until she broke the silence.

"By the way, I talked to Tim when you're asleep." She informed.

I froze. I pulled away and put my hands on her shoulders.

"Why? I mean how?" I asked worriedly.

"Relax. He called when you're asleep so I have no choice but to accept the call and talk to him. Don't worry I told him you and Laila are with me. He just said that when you wake up to call him." Liza explained calmly.

I look at Liza intently. Something shifted, I know something changed. Before she can't even finish saying her sentence with Tim's name casually.

"What?" Maybe she noticed the way I stared at her.

Again I shook my head.

"Nothing. If you'll excuse me. I'll just call him." I informed instead and she just nodded.

After the call, I returned to her living room only to see a stunning lady sitting on Liza's couch.

I'm about to return back to Liza's room but too late. She already noticed me.

"Oh? Hi! You must be Jane?" She inquired. My back is facing her so I subtly check my clothes. I'm nothing compared to how elegant she is but still I tried to straighten my shirt. Laila's milk stain is still visible though. I even sniff myself. Yup, not that lovely smell.

My eyes widened when I see Liza looking at me. Don't tell me she saw that? That's so embarrassing.

The girl cleared her throat and that's the only time I turned to face her.

"Ahm, yeah. I'm sorry about that. Yes, I'm Jane. Me and my daughter just visiting Liza." I stated non stopped.

I extended my hand for a hand shake but this girl has different plan. She pulled me for a quick hug. She smells so good, again my insecurities kicking in.

"Nice to meet you Jane, I'm Nathalie." She introduced.

I flinched when I felt an arm on my shoulder.

When I look at my side, of course its Liza.

"So you guys already met?" She inquired despite seeing the obvious.

"Duh? Didn't you see it yourself?" Nathalie stated savagely.

"Yah! You're so mean Natty. I'm trying to be cool here." Liza whined. She already removed her arm on my shoulder cause she's already pinching Nathalie's cheeks.

"Ouch! Liz!" Nathalie said trying to remove Liza's hands on her cheeks.

"Aww sorry baby." Liza said and her next reaction shocked me. She kissed Nathalie’s cheeks non stopped.

Okay I'm out of here.

I guess this is the answer of why I feel something change about Liza.

She already moved on.