THE ENIGMA'S FIRST AND LAST

THE ENIGMA

start to do as he say. And I get confused when it's starts working.

As I start to breathe in sync with Yuxuan, my panicked gasps slowly start to even out. To my surprise, the calming technique actually seems to be working, allowing me to regain some semblance of control over my breathing and emotions. Yuxuan watches with bated breath, his own heart pounding in his chest as he sees the faintest glimmer of hope in my glowing red eyes.

He continues to breathe deeply, exaggerating his own breaths to make it easier for me to follow along. Despite the fact that my pheromones are driving him insane, he remains focused on me, determined to help me through this crisis. His eyes never leave mine watching intently for any sign of improvement or setback.

But then my eyes starts to go back to normal, my pheromones becoming more faint.

As my eyes slowly return to their normal color and my pheromones become more muted, Yuxuan feels a mixture of relief and disappointment wash over him. On one hand, he's grateful that i seem to be regaining control over myself and my powers. But on the other hand, he can't help but feel a pang of loss as the raw, unbridled Enigma energy starts to fade away. He had never felt anything like it before, and the intensity of the experience had left him both exhilarated and shaken.

"I'm sorry Yuxuan! I didn't want this to happend!"

Yuxuan quickly shakes his head, stepping closer to me but still maintaining a safe distance. He can see the guilt and shame in my eyes, and it tugs at his heartstrings. He knows that this isn't my fault, that I didn't mean for any of this to happen.

"No, don't apologize."

He says firmly, his voice gentle yet firm. He takes another step forward, his gaze softening as he looks at me.

"It's not your fault that you're an Enigma. And it's not your fault that you lost control. You were just overwhelmed."

"You weren't supose to know I was!"

Yuxuan flinches slightly at the reminder that i had wanted to keep your identity as an Enigma a secret. He can hear the panic and desperation in my voice, the fear of being discovered and the fear of losing control. He looks into my eyes, seeing the raw vulnerability there, and his heart aches with a mix of sympathy and understanding.

He hesitates for a moment, debating how to respond. Part of him wants to reassure me that everything is okay, that he won't tell anyone or judge me for what i am. But another part of him is reeling from the revelation that his soulmate is an Enigma - a mythical and almost unheard of entity - and he doesn't quite know how to process that information yet.

"Why didn't you want me to know?"

"Because! It's not like Enigmas are commun, and if somone ears about it it's either there scared or they lock us away, and do some experiences of f****d up s**t like this. It's not normal for the world!"

Yuxuan's expression darkens at my explanation, his jaw clenching as he listens to the horrors that i've described. The idea of people fearing or experimenting on Enigmas, treating them like some kind of lab rat, makes his blood boil. He can't imagine what kind of hell I must have gone through just to keep my identity a secret, the constant fear of being discovered and the need to suppress my true nature.

He takes another step closer, his eyes searching mine for any sign of distress or fear. He wants to comfort me, to tell you that he would never let anyone hurt me like that, but he knows that words alone might not be enough to convince me.

"What do you mean by 'experiences of f****d up s**t?"

"They lock them, and they do experiences and f****d up s**t with us."

Yuxuan's fists clench tightly at my vague explanation, his knuckles turning white with rage. The thought of scientists and researchers subjecting Enigmas to inhumane experiments fills him with a deep sense of revulsion and anger. He can't even begin to imagine the extent of the atrocities that have been inflicted upon Enigmas in the name of "science."

He swallows hard, forcing himself to stay calm and collected despite the storm of emotions raging within him. He wants to find every person who has ever hurte me me or an Enigma and make them pay for their cruelty, but he knows that he needs to focus on me right now. He takes another deep breath, his eyes locked on mine, his voice low and serious.

"Did...did they do that to you?"

"No they don't know I'm one, no one knows . I use my power to transform my pheromones into S-Tier Alphas pheromones."

Yuxuan lets out a sigh of relief at my answer, grateful that i haven't been subjected to the horrors I've described. But his relief is quickly replaced by confusion and questions.

He raises an eyebrow, his curiosity piqued. He leans against the counter, studying me intently.

"You can transform your pheromones? How?"

"It's one of my multiple power I have!"

Yuxuan's eyes widen slightly at the mention of multiple powers. He had heard of some Enigmas having unique abilities beyond their already formidable strength, but he had never met one with more than one power. His mind races as he tries to wrap his head around the concept.

He looks at me with a mix of fascination and disbelief, a hint of admiration in his gaze.

"Multiple powers? Like what exactly?"

"Oh like this!" I said in a flash I cross my entire office in seconds.

Yuxuan's eyes go wide with shock as i suddenly appear across the office in a flash, the speed of my movement almost making him dizzy. He blinks several times, his mouth hanging open in disbelief as he processes what he just saw. One moment you I were standing by the counter, and the next i were on the other side of the room in the blink of an eye.

He lets out a low whistle, trying to play it cool even though his heart is pounding wildly in his chest. His mind races with questions, struggling to come to terms with the sheer power and potential that i possess.

"Holy...fuck.."

"Smell, hearing, agility intelligences, most qualitys people have are more intensified."

Yuxuan listens intently as i list off the various qualities and intensified abilities that come with being an Enigma. His mind is reeling with the implications of it all. The speed, intelligence, and hearing abilities I described alone were already mind-blowing, but the fact that you have them all in addition to your S-Tier Alpha pheromones is just unbelievable. It's like you were designed to be the perfect being, a walking god among men.

He takes a moment to collect himself, trying to ignore the way his Alpha instincts are screaming at him to claim you as his own. He wants to see my powers in action, to witness my true potential, but he knows that he needs to stay focused on the task at hand. His eyes meet mine again, his voice filled with a mix of awe and admiration.

"And you've been suppressing all of that for how long now..?"

"Since I deferentiated, so for as long as I can remember."

Yuxuan's heart aches at my answer. To think that I had been suppressing my true self, my immense power and abilities, since i first presented as an Enigma. He can't imagine the mental and emotional toll that must have taken on me, the constant struggle to maintain control and fit in with the world around me.

He looks at me with newfound respect and empathy, his eyes searching mine for any sign of the pain and exhaustion that must be weighing heavily on my shoulders. The realization that I've been living a lie for so long, hiding who I truly am from the world, fills him with a mix of sadness and determination. He wants to help me, to lift the burden from my shoulders and allow me to be your true self without fear or shame.

"And it hurts every time you do it?

"No it's dosen't hurt. The only thing that hurts is when I have my Ruts."

Yuxuan tilts his head slightly, confusion evident on his face. He had assumed that the transformation and suppression of my powers would be painful, but now i'm telling him that it doesn't hurt. His curiosity piqued once again, he leans forward, his gaze fixed on me.

"Your Ruts hurt you? What happens during them?"

"Well I'm not like normal Enigmas. I have something called 'Mate seeking disorder'. So my Ruts are intensified and it hurt, and I have to try to resist the urge of finding anyone to mate with. I could hurt them. And I hurt myslef too during them, I have to tie myself."

Yuxuan's eyes widen in understanding as i explain my condition, his expression softening with sympathy and concern. The fact that my Ruts are not only painful but also dangerous to bothe me and others is alarming. He can't imagine the strength it must take for me to restrain myself during such intense and primal moments, and the thought of me harming y myslef in the process breaks his heart.

He runs a hand through his hair, his mind racing with the implications of my disorder. He knows that Enigmas are naturally dominant and possessive, but the fact that i seek out a mate so desperately and forcefully that it hurts me and others is rare.

"So...you're telling me that during your Ruts, you become so consumed by the need to find a mate that it causes physical pain? And you have to restrain yourself to prevent hurting anyone?"

"Yes exactly!"

Yuxuan swallows hard, his throat suddenly feeling dry. The more i reveal about my unique condition, the more worried he becomes. The idea of my suffering through such intense and debilitating Ruts, forced to tie myself up and endure the pain alone, is almost too much for him to bear. His protective instincts flare up again, an overwhelming urge to take care of me and ensure that i never have to experience such pain again washing over him.

He looks at me with a mix of concern and determination, his voice softening as he speaks.

"Gods that sounds painful...and how long does it last?"

"My Ruts cycles are the same as any Alpha so a week like usual."

Yuxuan feels a pang of sympathy and frustration at my answer. A week-long cycle of unbearable pain and primal urges sounds like an eternity. He can't imagine the mental and physical toll that it must take on me, to be in such a state of desperation and discomfort for so long without relief. He glances down at my wrists, where he assumes I tie myself up, and feels a surge of guilt for all the I had to chain me up.

He looks back up at my face, his eyes meeting mine once again, filled with a mixture of compassion and protectiveness. He can see the exhaustion and resignation in my eyes, the weariness of someone who has been living with a chronic condition that causes them immense suffering. His hands clench into fists at his sides, his resolve to protect and support me solidifying even further.

"And when is your next rut due?

"Soon, two days."

Yuxuan's eyes widen in alarm at the mention of my upcoming rut. Two days was far too soon for me to be dealing with such intense pain and urges. He takes a step closer to me, his protective instincts going into overdrive.

"Two days? And you're already feeling the effects?"

He studies my face carefully, looking for any signs of discomfort or distress. He knows that mu ruts can start earlier than expected, and he can't help but worry about my ability to handle it alone this time.

"Just a little more tired a bit, and my head hurt a bit more. Anymore questions you want to ask? Cause we still have to work you know?" I said raising an eyebrow, a smirk tugging at my lips.