Forever Mine

AMYRA

AMYRA's POV :

"please please,Tell me this is not true."Amyra is screaming while tears are flowing down from her eyes."Hahhhaa Hahhhaaahaa"everyone is laughing at amyra."N-Noo..No,This can't be true,I can't bear it,please don't do this to me,I beg you shanaya,please tell me this is not true.."Amyra is crying,sobbing uncontrollably.

"Amyra..Mithudii why are you shouting?what happened Mithudii?wake up Amyra"Ammi shooked me to wake me up,then I realized that I was dreaming till now.This is mostly my everyday dream,it haunts me daily in my dreams,I wish I can delete that chapter from my life.

I took a deep breath "Nothing Ammi,it's just a bad dream"I said to her as she is looking at me worriedly,"okay then,it's already late so wake up and get ready,Today Zareena is coming with Sohel beta"Ammi said with a huge smile on her face,"really!that's great.I will go and get ready as soon as possible and then will join in kitchen to help you Ammi"I said with a smile.

Birds chirping sounds,sunlight peeking from windows,ammi's unstoppable trials of waking me up,waking up from bad dream most of my days,screaming due to the nightmares,waking up with a heavy heart,later the whole day acts infront of everyone like nothing happened.

This is my daily Life.

Iam AMYRA and Iam 23 years old,I have completed my graduation in my home town Lucknow,Iam from Lucknow.I completed my masters degree from Delhi university as our whole family shifted to New Delhi.I completed my exams and waiting for my results, which will be released within a week or two.I don't like to do Job,in fact I want to read academics more.So,that i can gain more and more knowledge.So iam thinking to go for M.Phil in Modern Physics after results.

But,I don't know whether Ammi and Abbu will agree to it or not.Because,They already took a promise from me.After graduation,They decided me to get married.But,I was not ready,so I requested Ammi,Abbu,Didi and bhaijan too.Finally everyone accepted it and then Abbu asked me to promise him that after masters I have to marry a person whom they will choose as groom for me without creating any chaos.For my surprise,I promised too my Abbu for marrige after masters,but I don't think so that iam ready now and will never be..

I know my daily schedule was not so good,because there is no life.Yes,That's true.there is really no liveliness in my life.Not that no one helped me to come out of it,Ammi,Zareena Di supported me alot.Tried to make me normal,They kept so many efforts and it churned my heart,I know I can't be normal after whatever happened,so I started acting infront of them like I became normal,I know iam cheating them with my acting but I can't see them dull and their efforts going into vain.my family is my strength nd also weakness,I can do anything and can go to any extent for my family.

"My Family"

Ammi (Mother,Ameena Begum),She is the most cutest mother and also adorable,if she likes someone then she can go to any extent for them. My mother loves the whole family a lot especially me.When I was going through a big trauma few years ago,she was also the one who stood by me always no matter what.

Abbu (Father,Nazeer Ahmed),my Abbu is working as a Bank Manager in Delhi,he looks like he is hard person when it comes to emotions but no,he looks like he is very strict and serious but to be fact he is soft at his heart.From my childhood onwards i have seen my father working soo hard,so that he can fulfill our wishes.For every daughter,Her father is her hero and iam not exceptional in this case.For me,My Father is my Hero.

Didi (Sister,Zareena),my sister is always fun loving,cute and intelligent.She always took care of me like my mother.whenever I feel low ,she have been always there for me.When I was in trauma,she gave me so much moral and emotional support being with me for months.

Bhaijan (Brother in law,Sohel Ryan),my brother in law is actually not my brother in law,in fact he have always been my brother,He always took stand for me even when Ammi,Abbu and Zareena Di were opposing.

So,This is my family,small family but cute family.Abbu,Ammi,Didi and Bhaijan this four people are my world.I can do anything for them and same goes with them too.But one thing is missing and I don't know what is it,I don't think that I will ever know.

I got up from my bed,brushed my teeth,took a bath,wore a red salwar suit,had comb my hair.

After all done,I went to help ammi in kitchen room.I made tea for my Ammi and Abbu.while ammi is preparing breakfast.

I went to living room with a cup of tea where Abbu is sitting on a sofa chair with a news paper.I gave tea to Abbu and said "Good Morning Abbu"then he wished me back with a smile "Good Morning mithudii" and took a tea from me,I went back to help Ammi.

Finally we are done preparing breakfast,me and ammi both sat in living room,I was reading news paper when I heard a familiar voice with their hands on my eyes behind from sofa where I was seating,right that moment I recognized my sister it is..I was so happy that after so long Zareena Didi and Sohel Bhaijaan came to home as they went to USA fr some business works approx for complete one year and now they came back,Finally.

"Didi..Didi,How are you"Iam screaming due to happiness,Zareeena Didi opened my eyes then came front of me and hugged me ."Heyy mithudi,iam absolutely fine,how r u..?"Zareena Didi said with tears in eyes,I nodded smilingly with teary eyes and said "Doing good Didi,but missed you so much Didi"by me."ohh..poor me,so my cute little sister in law just missed her sister but not me right!hmm"Bhaijan said with fake teary face while I smiled and wished at him.

Ammi,Abbu,bhaijan,Didi all wished each other and iam looking at them and smiling to myself by standing in a corner.

After talking a while,we all had our breakfast and settled on sofa coach in living room."So,when will the exam results be released Mithudii"Zareena Didi asked me,"within a week Didi"said by me."so,what next Mithudi..?" asked by Zareena Didi."I think,I want to do M.phil in Modern physics Didi"I said in a low voice while taking a deep breath."Now it's enough Amyra, When u completed graduation itself we want to get you marry,but you said you need time and we gave it too, then you did M.Sc(physics) and you promised us that you will listen to us after ur Masters completion,So now listen to us Amyra,we will see matches,if u like him then only we will go ahead,if not we will go to next.That's it,we are not going to force you mithudii,so please understand"Abbu said with an irritation in angry tone which made me to jump on coach and I felt numb,really numb.

After saying those words,My father left to his office. Zareena Didi and bhaijan gave me an apologetic look where ammi gave me "can't do anything look".

Past is rolling in front of my eyes.Graduation day,heavy rain,my friend shanaya,my senior Abbas,worst day of my life,the day my life got changed,the day my heart went cold and my smile got faded,the day I stopped trusting people,why GOD whyyy...

I don't want to remember it.But when ever I hear the word "MARRIAGE",it pains really alot in my heart.But I can't stop my father this time,I promised my Ammi and Abbu that I will marry after my masters.Now I don't know what to do...

"Amyr,.just be cool,it's okay.Everything would be fine,just trust our parents,they will never do wrong to you"Zareena Didi said it with a little hope in her eyes."Just give a chance to yourself instead of panicking and worrying by remembering the past which is not even ur mistake Amyra"said by Didi,"I need some time Didi,I will come back in a while please Didi"said by me and left the room

I reached my room and closed the door behind me,bcoz I don't know what else to tell her,I can't handle any sort of this marriage relationship now and may be not even in future,even though I can't tell no to this bcoz I don't have any option now.

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