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After arriving at my parents' house, in the flower city of Bandung. After traveling for almost three hours, I finally arrived.
I got out of the car. Lowered my suitcase from the side of the car.
I step my feet towards the terrace of my parents' house, until in front of the door, I exhale my breath. Trying to stay calm, facing my parents who must have lots of questions from them because I came alone and brought a big suitcase.
*knock tock
"Assalamualaikum * " I knocked on the door and said hello several times. Because mom never came out to open the door.
"Waalaikumsalam"
I heard mom answered greetings from inside. When mom opened the door she looked happy to see me coming. It's only natural that I rarely come, because I have to be on duty at the hospital and Adi works at his company. It is difficult for me to come home if it is not Eid al-Fitr or a holiday.
Mom hugged me tightly and said she missed it for a long time. When mom let go of her hand. Mom saw my right and left as well as the big suitcase I was carrying. I thought my mother would be surprised. Why didn't I come with adi?, and why did I bring a big suitcase?. But mother didn't ask me much. Mom just told me to come in and rest first. Mom also told me to come down for lunch. I said yes, I'm also tired of 3 hours of driving alone.
After lunch, my mother and I sat in the living room watching TV. Mother asked about my arrival without Adi. Mother patiently asked me although there was a bit of disappointment because maybe I came alone.
"why don't you come with adi" my mother asked me
"I'm going to divorce Adi," I said matter-of-factly.
Mom looks shocked by my answer. Maybe because all this time, Adi and I rarely fight, let alone get divorced.
"Why?" There was a disappointed tone to the mother's question.
But after I told him everything, I didn't hide anything. Mother understood and left the decision to me. My father was like that after he came home from the village office, he immediately asked me about my arrival without my husband's superintendent. I also told everything to my father.
I separated from Adi because I never had children, and my mother-in-law wanted Adi to remarry, and I didn't want to be on a honeymoon.
My father understood, and left the decision to me, because I was the one in charge of the household. My father said, "Parents have no right to interfere in the child's household. I only advise if the child is wrong. Maybe this is only where my soul mate and Adi are. My father also advised me to take care of myself. If divorce happens, because in our village divorce is a disgrace , so I have to be very good at guarding myself from masher because my status will change to a widow.
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After more than 1 month I processed the divorce suit, until finally the judge knocked Palu, I officially divorced with Aditama Putra. Adi didn't complain to me either. Maybe because he was also tired of all this. We divorced in the Bandung religious court. Because we used to get married in Bandung
As we exited the courthouse. Adi greets me and apologizes if as long as I am married to Adi, I am not happy with him. I am also sorry if as long as I am with him, I cannot be a good wife for him.
"Honestly I'm happy with you Adi but everything must end here" I said
Adi also apologized to his father and mother, he said, because he couldn't be a good husband as long as he was with his child
"You're the best husband I've ever had adi" I thought
I want to hug adi who is looking fragile. Like when we were still married. Always support each other, by hugging each other, if one of us is in trouble. But now the marriage bond has been broken, because of the knocking of the judge's hammer, even holding hands is no longer possible, because we are not a lawful couple anymore.
Adi comes home with his dad looking disappointed with our satisfaction, he comes with his dad. his mother didn't come anywhere. and Nita also didn't come because she lived in Aceh with her husband.
I also went home with my father and mother who accompanied me.
There is a feeling of tightness in d**a when we are separated from our loved ones.
But Now that all has happened, there is no need to be at once. It's time to start a new life without a husband. I also applied for a job at the hospital two weeks ago. And tomorrow I will start working.
Alhamdulillah, I am very happy to be accepted by the job even though my current place of work is a bit far from where I live. but it doesn't matter what's important is not idle. Mamah also often took me to the fields, gardens, or to the cowshed while I was unemployed. And it managed to make me forget for a moment the chaos of the problem I was facing.
My father also told me not to work at the hospital, just monitor my father's plantations and farms. But I don't want to. I'm used to medical devices even though the workplace is a bit far from home. Too bad my bachelor's degree if I have to jump into agriculture. But, Maybe someday I'll also do all of dad's work when the time comes.
Tonight I sat on the balcony of my room. Tomorrow is my first day of work. Huff I exhaled my long breath. I used to often discuss work on the balcony with adi but now I'm alone.
Miss
"Can I miss my ex-husband" I thought I couldn't hold back the clear crystal grains from my eyes finally fell too. I express my longing feelings by crying tonight in silence.
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***** parting miss
Near me becomes a parasite
I want to forget you
So that I can calmly live my new life
Without your shadow
Which always crosses my mind****
- Writer
