Break the Distance

Chapter 25

Wednesday September 7th, 2016Wellington, New Zealand

Richelle Smith

All I want is to be loved.

I'm not sure if I care by who, but right now I feel loved by Dan and itfeels great. I'm completely over Noah and don't know how I ever had a crush onhim.

It's Wednesday evening now and the last three days have been amazing. Dan'sparents are out of town so I stayed at his house the last three days. Wehaven't been to school. I don't really care about school anymore. Why would Icare? I did go to work since I really can't miss that and I can't stay foreverwith Dan.

Dan has been amazing. He's so caring, so sweet and is a really goodlistener. I told him all about Noah, crying, and he just listened and comfortedme. After that he was angry at Noah, he went on and on about how Noah had noright to say that stuff to me and he told me that he loved me. It was great.It's sad I never saw this side of him before, life would've been a lot easier.

We baked pancakes, ate chocolate, watched movies and cuddled. He's a reallygood kisser and I feel safer than ever in his arms. I ignored my phonecompletely. I have a lot of mist calls from Katie and some of my father, but Inever let them know where I was. They don't have to know where I am, they'lljust come and get me and force me to go to school.

School is just the last think I can handle right now. I'll go backeventually, mainly tomorrow, but the last three days I just couldn't get myselfso far to go. It's not that they miss me anyways.

Tomorrow morning I've to go home again. Dan's parents will come home againthat afternoon and it won't be a good idea if I'm still there.

I look up at Dan. We're watching a movie, but I'm not really payingattention. "What?" he asks me when he sees me looking at him."Nothing," I say laying my head back on his chest. "Do you likethe movie?" he asks sweet. "I'm not paying attention," I sayhonestly.

"We could do something else," Dan says and I hear that he'ssmirking in his voice. "Why not," I say and turn my head back to himcrushing my lips on his. He kisses me back roughly and rubs over my back. Iactually can't understand I've never had a boyfriend before. It feels so greatto be loved and everyone should feel like I'm feeling right now. I feel like Ican conquer the world no matter what happens.

"Let's go upstairs," I say not liking the idea of making out onthe couch.

He instantly crushes his lips back on mine as soon as we're in his room. Helifts me up and lays me down on his bed. I wrap my arms around his neck andafter a while he starts pulling my shirt up. "No," I say pulling itdown again, but he just ignores me and goes on. I try to free myself out of hisgrip, but he's way stronger than me and before I know it he throws my shirt tothe other side of the room.

I don't like the look in his eyes. To be honest it scares me. This isn'tthe look from the sweet Dan who found me crying on the beach. This is the lookfrom some crazy pervert.

When he tries to pull my pants of too I push him away. "What?" hesays surprised as I look angry at him. "I said no," I say."So?" he says casually and shrugs. "What is wrong with youDan," I say angry, "I thought you changed, but you still just want tofuck with me to dump me the next day." "That's not true," he saysdefensive. "Oh no?" I say, "I think it is."

"Whatever Richelle," he snaps suddenly, "if you're going tobe like this you can go." "Now?" I ask not really wanting toface my dad at this time of the day. "Yea," Dan says. I can see theanger in his face. "I get that Noah guy now," he says, "he was totallyright."

Fighting against my tears I quickly put my shirt back on and start to makemy way back downstairs. As quick as I can I grab my stuff and leave the housenot carrying about the fact that I probably forgot something.

Outside I instantly burst into tears. Obviously I'm doing something wrongwhat is probably why I only have Katie, but can somebody please tell me what!

Back home my dad is luckily already asleep. It's far past midnight and Iquietly go to my room. I've a hard time keeping myself from texting Noah. Iknow he won't react anyway, but somewhere I've still hope. I literally feellike I've nobody right now. In a few hours my mood went from the best ever tothe worst. I made a mistake. It's Noah’s own life, why did I even thought thatI had the right to say something about it?

Yea I was right, but I could've just kept it for myself. I decide to justtake a look on social media. Maybe I can figure out what he has been doingthose last days. I'm for some unknown reason still pretty curious about that.

I haven't been on social media those last two days and I clearly missedsomething. I see a lot of photos from apparently Eldon’s party and I can't keepmyself from looking through the photos.

I'm just scrolling quickly through them since it are just some randompeople partying, until I see a familiar person. Well I can't see his face, butI just know it's Noah. You can see it pretty easy, it's just something abouthim that not many people have. It's a photo of Noah making out with some girl.

I burst into tears again and bury my head into my pillow. All I've beendoing those last days is crying and I really hate myself right now. I thought Iwas over him, but guess not. I don't know what to feel anymore.