Break the Distance

Chapter 54

Thursday 20th of October, 2016

United Kingdom

Noah Williams

I'm sitting in the tour bus on one of the couches in the front of the bus. We just left Belfast and are now on our way to Glasgow. I've my earphones in my ears, listening to music why I play some stupid game on my phone.

"Hi Noah," I suddenly hear and I look up to see Riley. "Hi," I say, "what's up?" "Not much," Riley says, "we're going to play a card game, do you want to join?" "Yea nice," I say turning my music off and laying my phone away.

We sit around a little table in the back lounge. We shouldn't have been with a single more person, it just fits. I think crazy 8's this the most annoying game ever, but that's still the game we play.

It's fun though, James can't stand his loss at all and let it now be that he isn't the best at this game. Actually I don't think you can be good at this game, you're just lucky or not. The best thing about this game is, is that the time goes fast. Being on tour is amazing, but those long bus drives are killing me.

Suddenly the bus Giselle gets a call and everyone is silent. "Okay," she says, "nice, thank you." "Who was that?" Michelle asks when Giselle puts her phone away. "The bus driver," she says, "we're on the ferry, we can leave the bus if we want."

"Nice," I say jumping up instantly. I've had enough of sitting. Honestly I want to jump and run around, but I'll just keep it by walking around.

I'm the first one to leave the bus, and I spend a while just walking around listening to some music. After a while I stop at a railing and lean with my arms on it while I look at the sea. The sea looks so beautiful.

I love the sea. It's so blue, so peaceful. I close my eyes and smell the salty water. If I could stop time here, I would. Just standing here for a while looking at the see, breathing this fresh air, nothing to worry about.

The blue color of the see remembers me of Richelle eyes.

Richelle

I haven't thought about Richelle in a long time! I was doing a pretty good job at getting over here, but right now I'm just failing. Not that I mind. Right now it's all I want to do.

How is she doing? I hope she's doing fine. I hope her brother didn't came back and I hope her ribs are doing better. Just a few more weeks and she'll be graduated. I'm sure she'll get a scholarship to the school she wants to go to. She'll learn hard and get herself a good paying job so she won't ever need to live like she does right now.

Maybe after her life settled down I should contact her again. I think it's too much right now. Not only for her, also for me. I should start making plans, tour is coming to an end.

I don't want to lose her as friend, but I want to be more than friends and right now I can't deal with that. Beside, there's no chance she sees me as more than a friend, so she won't be more than a friend. I should just get over my silly feelings and think about what my life is, not what it could be.

I'm getting cold since it's not very warm and I didn't bring a jacket. When I turn around to walk back to the bus to get my jacket, I bump into Giselle. "Oh sorry," I say stepping out of the way. "Me too," she says, "where are you going?"

"Getting a jacket," I say, "I'm getting cold." "Good point," she says. Giselle does have a jacket on. "The sea looks beautiful doesn't it," she says before I walk away. "Yea," I say, "I should look at the sea more often in Canada."

"But then it isn't special anymore," she says and laughs slightly. "Good point," I say, "I've to think about that." We both laugh. "Well," I say, "I'm going to get my jacket."

I walk back to the bus and throw my jacket on. When I walk back to the railing where Giselle and I stand, she's gone. Too bad, somewhere I hoped she would've started digging into my feelings.

It maybe sounds weird, but I really want to talk with someone about Richelle and those feelings I've been having. A lot changed those few days I was home.

Back in Australia I didn't want anyone to know about Richelle, now I don't bother anymore about them knowing who she is, but I don't want them to think she's my girlfriend and I don't want her to find out I like her.

It would make this complicated situation just more complicated.

Hopefully someone else starts digging into my feelings any time soon. That conversation with Isaiah changed my mind. I thought I would get over Richelle by talking to Isaiah, and somewhere I did. I didn't think about her until today, but now I realize that I'm not over her. I'm just keeping myself busy to ignore all those thoughts about her.

So this never changed, time flies when I'm thinking about Richelle. Before I know it I see the harbor of Cairn Ryan. I take it as a sign I should probably go back to the bus, so that's what I do.

Back in the bus I throw my jacket off and squeeze myself between West and the wall on the couch. I was the last to come back, so I think it was indeed time to get back to the bus.

Back on the road it's still pretty much 2 hours to Glasgow, but I fall asleep soon after I laid down in my bunk.