Break the Distance

Chapter 56

Friday 21st of October, 2016

Glasgow, United Kingdom

Noah Williams

I'm joking around with Eldon, Isaiah, West and James. It's the interval of our afternoon show here in Manchester and we just have too much energy. We should probably save some energy for the evening show, but we're boys, we aren't that smart. I'm half listening to another joke James tells while I look at my phone. I've some messages from my mom, Max said something about dance, I've some messages in multiple groups and I've a message from Richelle. Nothing unusual.

Wait, did I really see what I think I saw?! I go to w******p and see tom my surprise that I indeed have a message from Richelle. This really surprised me. She was the one who ened our contact, and now when I'm finally gitting a little over her, she decides to text me again. I don't even bother reading what she sent, Right now I've a show to focus on.

I hear the boys laugh loudly letting me know James finished his joke. I laugh too, even though I've no idea about what.

"I'm going to miss these times so much when we're done touring," Eldon says when everyone calmed down a bit. "Shush," Isaiah says, "let's not talk about the end of the tour until it is the end of the tour." "Deal," West says instantly and Eldon nots too. "Talking about endings," I say, "when does the show start again?"

"In 5 minutes," I suddenly hear a girl's voice. I look at the door and see Giselle standing there. She apperantly walking in, but I didn't notice. "Okay," I say and smile genuinely, "thank you.

I change into a shirt and jeans for the first dance after the interval, and after that I wakls to the rest of the cast. "Ready?!" James James asks a few seceonds before it's time. We all cheer happily and excited, and then the second half starts.

We've a great show. All shows are almost always great, but this show flodes just a little more than most others. The kids are excited, we are excited, everyone is happy. I love seeing happy people, it really makes me happy.

After the show we all go out to eat pizza before the second shows starts. The days on which we have 2 shows are by far the most exhausting and tiring days of the whole tour. Sometimes I'm so exhausted after one show, but then I remember that we've another one just a few hours later.

Today is different. The whole cast has so much engergy today, it's ridiculous. When we're all so excited we can be pretty loud and today that's the case too. We annoy the heck out of people who're also in the pizza restaurantk but we can't care less.

After the pizza we go back to the theater and get ready for the second show. This has been a great day, and it isn't over yet.

When I'm back at the bus after the second show and a long shower, it is already past midnight. I sit down on the couch not thinking I'm able to sleep yet.

I look at my phone and realize that even though I look to the messages I got, I never reacted. And I'm not talking about Richelle's message. I don't know what she sent, but I'm not going to react to that one.

My mom just asks how I'm doing and tells a little how things are back home. I love it that my mom keeps me up with what's going on at home. I think I would be pretty lost otherwise when I come home. I send her that I'm doing great, and tell some stuff about what's going on, nothing really interesting.

Max asked me something dance related, so I quickly reply to that too. When I'm reading the conversations I missed in the groups App's back, I'm getting so up in it that I don't notice Isaiah sitting down beside me until he speaks up.

My heart literally makes a little jump, Isaiah can be pretty sneaky.

Reading group conversations back isn't exactly the post productive thing to do, but I always do it. I just can't help myself.

After a while I have to admit that I don't really know what to do anymore except for sleeping, but I don't want to sleep yet. All the girls already went to their bunks and West and Isaiah are having a conversation while James and Eldon play some video game.

I'm looking at Richelle's name, should I just go and see what she sent? I'm really trying to get over her so it probably won't help, but I somewhere don't want to get over her.

I'm so confusing.

Apparently Isaiah makes the decision for me, because he suddenly taps on Richelle's name. "Hey!" I say a little annoyed, "what are you doing?!" "You've a text from Richelle," Isaiah says casual.

I look down at my phone and see what she sent. 'Do you think of me when you look at the sea?' it says.

Without wanting, I let out a nervous little laugh. This is a little too relevant. "What?" James says looking up from his game. "No nothing," I brush off. Isaiah looks down at my phone. "And?" he asks, "is it true."

"I did think of her when I we were on the pantry," I say confused. "Great!" Isaiah says, "you're going to tell her that?"

"No," I say clear, "of course not, I'm trying to get over her." I notice that our conversation caught the attention of the others, but I'm not bothered by it.

"You're trying to get over who?" West asks. "Richelle," I say without hesitating.

I didn't know saying that would have so many consequences. They all four look at me and don't say a single thing. "What?" I say after a while, it's starting to get a little creepy.

"You're making a big mistake," James says. "What??!" I say, "it's none of your business. It's my life, my feelings, my decisions!" I'm getting a little angry by now. Why does everyone keep telling me I'm making mistakes?

"Okay," Eldon says,"whatever, but we tried." "Don't ever bring it up again," I say and stand up,going to my bunk. Within a few minutes I lay in my bunk and I close my eyes. Why can't anybody just respect my decision? I know what I'm doing, trust me.