Wednesday 3rd of November, 2016 Oporto, Portugal Richelle Smith The last bit of my life that was hanging on there just crushed down. My dad. He isn't alive anymore, I won't ever see him again and it's all my fault. Maybe if I let him know where I was he would still be alive. Surprisingly I stopped crying. Tears just don't come anymore and it feels like my sadness is replaced by anger and disappointment. I'm so disappointed in myself. I was selfish and now I've to suffer for the rest of my life. I clinch my fists and breath heavily. Maybe if I start not being so selfish I'll have a bit more luck. I don't how long I've been sitting there in silence, but suddenly a hotel room door opens. I try to make myself even smaller and hide my face behind my hair. Carefully I look through my hair a

