When the Sun loves the Moon

CHAPTER 12

I am so dead.

My conclusions are worse.

But... I made out with my own step-f*****g-brother?!

I mean... we're not blood related but- STOP! LYANNE, STOP! I know to myself that I find him attractive, because he really is! He has good genes and I found him more attractive when I got to know who really Apollo Moon is. He is a cold boy with such a soft heart.

The rumors about him are not true and none of it were proven true. It had been weeks since I was living with him and we got close with each other.

But my biggest concern is whether I am a drunkyard or not... Why did I kiss him?

Thinking of it right now, just right now that I am kissing him made my body tingle. What the f**k is wrong with me...

I can't... be attracted to my own step-brother! My mom loves his dad!

"Ly..."

I was startled at that knock.

"Time for dinner."

"I'm full. Maybe later," I answered.

He did not answer because he opened the door. He's looking furious. "You're going to eat now or do I have to carry you?"

"Apollo!" I exclaimed. "I am not hungry, okay?! At the moment, I will eat dinner later."

"Are you avoiding me?" He assumed.

"I am not."

"You are."

"I am not, Apollo, please..."

"Don't think about it. It was nothing and you're drunk."

It was nothing.

I don't know why, but my heart hurt at that.

Why did it hurt?

Stupid, Lyanne, why is it hurting?! Shouldn't you be happy that it was nothing and it was just you're drunk?!

I sighed. "I'm sorry, Apollo..."

"It's fine. I was just thankful that I am with you that night because if not, maybe another guy will take you home or somewhere not safe."

"Did I say something crazier?" I chuckled painfully. "I think I'm giving you traumas." I shook my head.

"Lyanne, don't... fuck." He closed my door and went closer to me. He sat at the end of my bed. "You were drunk. I'm sure that night you didn't even think that it was me. The man you're... kissing. I'm sure you are thinking it was another man."

"I'm so sorry if I made you uncomfortable..." I tucked myself in my comforter.

"I did not say I was uncomfortable, Ly."

What does he mean by that? Even though I can't remember anything, thinking about him kissing right now is such a body-heating thing. It makes my body tingle and I didn't even feel with Karl.

"Lyanne, c'mon... f**k wish I hadn't told you." He sounds so stressed.

"Apollo, about the kiss-"

"Don't mind it. Damn."

"You're my brother..."

"Step-brother" he corrected. He sighed. "What? You're going to avoid me now?" I sensed fear.

I removed the cover from my face and looked at him and he's already looking at me.

"It was traumatizing for you," I whispered.

"It was not." He immediately denied.

"How can you say so? I woke up this morning not remembering anything yet. For sure when you saw me, you immediately remembered what I did to you. I don't know if I harassed you or something!"

"You did not do stuff that would go beyond my consent."

"Even so!"

"Lyanne,"

"I'm sure you're the one who's uncomfortable now-"

"Lyanne."

"Imagine a step-sister kissing you-"

"Lyanne!" He raised his voice a bit and that startled me. "I am not uncomfortable because I liked it, too, okay?!" He stressed. He ran his fingers through his hair stressfully. "It did not leave my mind one bit, yes, but not because I'm traumatized or uncomfortable and this is on me now. Because I want it again!"

"I should be the one avoiding you because I. f*****g. Want. A. Taste. Of. You. AGAIN." I can sense madness in his tone. He shook his head, then he stormed out of my room.

What in the world did I just hear...

This is wrong, but it doesn't feel wrong. It feels good.

I packed my bags ready for spring break and because tomorrow, I will stay at Candy's to clear my mind... and my heart.

After packing, I went down with my bags only to see two plates at the dining table. He had not eaten yet.

"Rosa," I called. "Call Apollo and tell him to eat dinner, please. I am going to my friend's Candy, but please don't tell him."

She smiled. "Sure, madam."

"Thank you so much. I'm going now." I smiled and immediately stormed out of the house.

While riding a cab, I called Candy and informed her that I am on my way to her.

"What's with the fuss this late at night?!" She knows that whenever I am going to her, I've got a problem.

"It's about Apollo..."

She looked at me with shock then she smirked.

"Does he know that you're here?"

"No and don't!"

"Woah, something big happened? Oh, wait. Derek's calling."

"Babe?" Candy answered.

"Is Lyanne with you? Apollo's a madman because Lyanne stormed out of their home with lots of bags."

Candy looked at me and I pleaded not to tell him.

"What do you mean stormed out of the house? Lyanne didn't text me." Candy and her act started.

"Tsh, I guess they had a fight. But if so, call me immediately. I'm going to Apollo's house to talk to his ass."

"Call me, too, if Lyanne ever contacted you." Candy's fake worried accent.

"Sure, babe. I love you."

"I love you too."

Then the call ended. "SO, WHAT THE f**k IS UP?!" She doesn't sound mad and I'm surprised she sounds excited.

I told her everything and she started giggling and kicking the air.

"You like him." She pointed out what I don't want to be pointed out.

"Impossible because I was just with Karl and it is too fast-"

"Nothing's too fast with real love, my love." Candy winked. "Love is something unpredictable and something unexpected. Apollo's treating you so well that you didn't even know you craved for it or maybe you're not admitting it to yourself either."

"Because it is not right!"

"Not right?! You're not blood-related, Ly."

"But our parents..."

"That's not your problem."

"It is my problem."

"So you're admitting that you like Apollo..." She smirked.

"I don't know, okay?! I wish I had remembered something from last night!" I stressed out.

"He likes you, Ly." She started giggling again.

"He doesn't... I don't know!"

"You like him." She concluded.

"I don't." I defended.

"You do. You admitted to me that you imagined him kissing you!" She chuckled. "The more you deny it, the more intense the feeling will be."

"Candy... you're not helping." I pouted.

"I am helping you to be honest with yourself!"

"Candyyyy..." I stressfully stated and she just laughed.

*****

Derek's P.O.V

"Have you contacted Candy?" Apollo f*****g stressed.

"What happened between you and her, huh? Why did she leave with bags?" I chuckled but his fiery aura was not f*****g joking at the moment.

"I told you already. Do I need to f*****g say it again?!" He is now mad.

"That you liked the unexpected kiss from your sister?"

"STEP-SISTER!" He screamed. "She is not my f*****g sister. We're not blood-related!"

I chuckled. "Okay.. okay. I had already called Candy and she was shocked about the news."

"What if she's covering up for Ly?"

My girl won't lie to me... But... I think she will for her best friend. I would f*****g bet my ass for Apollo just to save him from something, but if it is love s**t like this then, maybe I'll drag Apollo's ass from the dark. But... we all do things for our best friend.

"If she hid at Candy's, then f*****g respect. She wants space."

"I need to make sure if she's at Candy's because last time you all told me she's at Candy's, she was with Karl at the f*****g bar." He gritted his teeth.

I sighed. We all told him right after that. We all knew that she was with Karl.

"Fine. Let's go to Candy's. Unannounced."

My girl will f*****g kill me.

*****

Lyanne's P.O.V

"Candy..."

FUCK! We both mouthed.

"BABE?!" Candy stressed as she was hiding all my bags. "Under the bed!" She whispered.

I quickly hid under the bed and made sure that I left no trace.

"Babe!" Candy opened the door. "Oh, hi, Apollo..."

Fuck!

"Please, Candy..." I heard him and I pouted. "Just tell me she's here. I just need to know if she's somewhere safe. If she doesn't want to talk, I'll respect her. I just need to know." Apollo made me cry.

"What happened between you two?" Candy answered.

"I'm sure you know." Apollo fired. "Please... Candy..."

Okay... I'm sending my radar to Candy to tell him. Tell him, Candy. Tell him.

"Fine. She's here. She's very stressed, but it is not about you. It's about herself."

OKAY, Candy! No need to tell him that!

"Stressed about herself?" Apollo asked.

I heard Candy giggling.

"Give her time. Let her reflect on something."

"Is she mad at me?"

"NO! Not at all!"

"Then why would she leave the house?!"

"That's the detail I won't tell you. You boys may go."

"Just... take care of her."

"Of course, I will, Apollo."

"And tell her to go home sooner." That's the last thing Apollo said before Candy shutting the door.

"OH MY f*****g GOD!!! I'M FEELING BUTTERFLIES FOR YOU SISTER!"

"What now?" I asked while getting out under the bed.

"You heard the whole conversation, girl!" She smirked. "Go home to him as soon as possible."

"I'm scared, Candy..."

"Don't be. For me, this is worth the risk."

"How can you say so?" I pouted.

"Because Derek told me something about Apollo. Gossip things." She giggled again.

"What are those 'things' that he told you?"

"Secret." She whispered then she winked.

"Candy!"

"I'll let you realize it yourself. If you find yourself finding Apollo throughout the entire space system you're giving, then be honest with yourself for once, because the only person who can answer those unanswered thoughts is you." Candy got serious.

"You mean if I like him?"

Candy smiled a bit. "I mean... Apollo's not that hard to resist, most specially you're living with him and you know him."

"But it was too fast..." Still confused.

"Maybe it was a work-in-progress thingy. Until today, it was still in the process of developing. You get me? It is there, but it's just that today is the day you realized and felt something. That, after days or weeks, it finally showed. You get me?"

Yeah. "Yes..." I sighed. "Let's see..."

Since there's this thing. I rested with Candy and she talked to me in all seriousness about this that it is normal and all but still I am keeping in mind that it is wrong but it never felt wrong.

"You ready to see him?" Candy smirked as we're getting ready to go to school.

Apprantely, Derek willl fetch us, so, yeah.

"I don't know, Candy."

"But do you miss him?"

I don't... know.

I shrugged and just accepted everything.

"Derek's here. Let's go." She grabbed my hand and went down with me to go to Derek's car.

"Good morning, girls!" Derek smiled. He kissed Candy as she got in the shotgun seat. "Good morning, babe."

"Good morning!" Candy answered energetically.

"Good morning, Lyanne! You excited for his wrath?!"

Candy slapped his shoulders. "Don't stress her!" She laughed.

"Kidding, Ly. But he misses you."

Candy shrieked and they both laughed and, because of their sillyness, I smiled. They're so happy.

By the time we reached school, I got nervous all of a sudden.

"Candy, I'll go inside the room first." I quickly rushed out of Derek's car and fast-walked along the hallway going to my building, then to my room and hoping I won't see Apollo.

Luckily, I did not see him but a part of me desires to see him.

The room is still empty, probably my classmates were all around the campus roaming and the canteen. I went to the girl's bathroom for a bit then went out.

As soon as I was about to turn to the corridor, I heard him and I quickly hid. What the f**k. Calm down, Ly... Calm down...

I peeked and saw Apollo in front of our room with Candy and Derek. They're all facing the other side, so I'm at their backs. Safe.

I can't hear what they're talking about but when I looked at Apollo, I saw that he was not wearing his tie. I want... f**k. I want to tell him that I'm here. I want to run to him. What is this feeling...

I sighed and my eyes are producing tears that I don't even know why they're falling...

Maybe I do like him.

But not as a step-brother.