Their Equal Share

8.Something important.

Surya p.o.v.

I slumped on my couch with alcohol in my hand,the room was completely dark.The only light in the room is the brightness coming from my phone due to its ringing.The phone buzzed in front of me,it is in reach of my hand distance,but I didn't pick it up.I gulped down the remaining content in one go.I sat there for few more minutes staring at the phone,it buzzed with few more rings and few messages popped up.And I knew from whom those messages are and what are the message about.

Getting up from the couch,I was tipsy,my legs didn't seem to be steady or may be the floor was shaking beneath me.I reached my bed in that dark room after hitting few objects on my way.It is sure that I am going to have a hangover with heavy headache.I don't care about anything, even if the pain wanted to take my life I would be the first person to be grateful to that pain.It is not that I have anyone to care or love me.

This is my secret,I would always drink heavier when I am alone that to in my house.I knew very well I would talk rubbish or even cry when I am high.Who told a man won't cry?He will definitely feel the pain like women.He too has tear glands in him.I don't want anyone to notice that,so I remain as a light drinker when I am in public.Other than my best friend Ram no one knows it and he being my best buddy kept it always as a secret.

I had never cried when I am high until her.She made me cry,she made me vulnerable,she never loved me.That thought made my already flame of anger higher.No one loved me,nor my parents neither her.The only person I love the most is Ram.He was there for me.To encourage me,to spend his time with me other than work,to share all my emotions.He is more than a friend and like my brother.I drifted into half sleep and half unconsciousness.

I woke up with banging sound on my door, "Arghhh...who the hell is that"I held my head and groaned in pain.Hangover has a worst effect on you. "Surya....open the door. Bang.Bang What the hell are you doing.?Bang.Bang...."

"What is this boy doing early in the morning outside my room?"Gripping my head I slowly rose from the bed and opened the door.

"What are you doing here early in the morning?"I groaned at him."Did you drink again last night?" I didn't need to reply him,he knows it very well that I was high last night.

"You...When are you going to stop this madness drinking and sulking alone in darkness."He shook his head."I had never seen a man hiding in room to drink heavy,to just to avoid himself by blabbering his emotions to others.And that too I didn't expect it to be my best friend." What had got into him that he is lecturing me this early morning?

"Did you come here to say this to me?" I groaned at him."No.Why are you not picking your phone.Your mom is worried about you and called me this morning telling that you didn't pick her call last night and also didn't reply to any of her messages."

My head pain was gone immediately and was replaced with immense anger. "Oh..is it so Ram? and you came here as a messenger"My voice dripped with scarsam.

He was really disappointed with my words,I can see it clearly on his face."Surya...I know I cannot change your thoughts but you have to do one thing for me.You have to go to Chennai today."I frowned at him.

"What are you telling Ram.Why I need to go to Chennai today." He shrugged at me."Your parents have something important to discuss with you." I know it they want me there for some thing important,not because they cared for me.

"I know that look on your face.Don't ever think to escape this time.I am not going to leave you this time." Ram is really determined to send me Chennai this time,his voice says everything. "Surya...it should be really something important.You must go."it was not his wish but his command.I groaned defeated and reluctantly agreed.