Damian Spooning has to be one of the best things in the world. I can’t believe that I actually have him in my arms right now. Bryan. His back is curled into my bare chest and he’s slightly snoring. The cutest little snore ever. I am the happiest I’ve ever been in the longest while. In fact, I think this is the best moment of my life right now with him asleep with me knowing what we’d just shared and knowing I’ll wake up and he’ll be with me. I feel the nagging of reality wanting to surface but I need a few more minutes of this bliss, with the man in my arms before I can face that. Nothing’s felt more wrong yet right at the same time. He has a girlfriend so at first, I resisted even before that I had refused to acknowledge I had feelings for a man. But Mel. Mel is good and I didn’t

