The Alpha's Funeral Was My Wedding Day

Chapter 20

Stellan raised the blade, and my great-granduncle stepped in front of me, and I learned in the same second that an eighty one year old man can still move when the thing behind him is the last of his line.

"Put it down, nephew," the recorder said. Mild. As though Stellan had spilled wine. "You don't want a healer's blood on a summit floor. You especially don't want hers. Think."

"I've thought for twenty two years." Stellan did not lower it. "I have thought while that woman's light walked into my hall and her son bent me to my knees and you, uncle, you sat in your chair and wrote it all down like it was weather. I am done thinking. I am the only one in this family who ever understood what we are, and I am going to finish what my grandmother started, and I am going to be able to sleep for the first time in my life."

"Your grandmother." I heard my own voice, strange and flat. "Our grandmother. The high healer. You knew. You've always known you're gold."

"I know I am the last man standing who understands the arithmetic." Stellan's eyes were bright and terrible and I saw, at last, the family in them, the same iron the recorder wore, the same thing I felt in my own hands. "She saw it, our grandmother. She saw that a gold line is a knife at the throat of the world and she had the courage to end it. Nine, she kept. Nine, out of mercy or weakness, I've never decided. But the rest she gave to the fire because she understood that our blood should not exist." He took a step. "I married the truth of it. I buried it in my own pack. And I have spent my whole life making certain the nine she spared stayed no one, stayed hidden, stayed safe, because as long as we were nobody we were alive. And then you." The blade did not waver. "You put on a crown. You lit yourself up for the whole continent. You had children who can bend Alphas. You took the one thing that kept us breathing, our invisibility, and you set it on fire for a title." His voice broke, and what was under it was not hatred. It was grief. "You are going to get the last of us killed, cousin. Every one. The way she always feared. And I would rather end our line clean, by my own hand, tonight, than watch the packs do it slow through your vanity."

And I understood him. That was the horror of it. Standing in the record room with a blade coming for me, I understood Stellan of Silver Moon completely, because he was not a villain. He was the arithmetic, grown into a man. He was what the high healer's choice looked like carried forward three generations, the belief that our blood was a wound the world was right to close, that survival meant erasure, that there was no third door and never had been.

He was my great-grandmother's true heir. And I was Ines's.

"You're wrong," I said.

"I am tired," Stellan said, "of gold women telling me I'm wrong right before they die," and he lunged.

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The recorder was not a fighter. He was eighty one and he had spent his life with a pen. But he got a hand on Stellan's wrist as the blade came, the way you grab a falling thing on instinct, and he turned it, barely, a few degrees, enough that the edge meant for my throat went into his own side instead.

He did not cry out. He had never once, in this whole account, cried out.

"Run, child," he said, almost gently, holding his nephew's blade in his own body with both hands so it could not be drawn back for another stroke. "You've the door. Run and be someone. That's an order from your family. The last one we'll ever give you."

"No—" I had my hands out, gold flooding up, reaching for the wound already, but Stellan wrenched back and the enforcers came around him and there were three of them between me and the old man now and the blade was out of him and there was so much blood, so fast, a side wound in an old man is a closing door, and I knew it, I am a healer before I am anything and I knew exactly how little time was in that room.

"Uncle—"

"Ines's granddaughter." He was on his knees now, one hand pressed to his side, and he was smiling at me through it, terrible and luminous. "You found the doors. All of them. Every locked room in this hall, you opened. I have kept the record for forty years and I have never once seen anyone do what you do." His voice was going thin. "The vault. My traveling case. The false bottom. Everything I have on every pack in this summit. Take it. Read them their crimes. Be the someone none of us could be." His eyes found mine and held, fierce, fading. "Tell them our grandmother's name. All of it. Let it out of the dark. It has been in the dark long enough and so have we and so have I, and I am so glad, at the end, that it is you."

And then Stellan's enforcers had me by both arms, and Stellan stood over his dying uncle with the bloody blade in his hand and his own family's blood on the floor, and he looked at me across it with grief and iron and the total conviction of a man who believes he is committing a mercy.

"Take her below," he said, hoarse. "Quietly. Before the hall wakes. No blood in the summit, no witnesses, no record." He could not look at the old man on the floor. "It ends the way grandmother meant it to. In the dark. By our own hand. I'm sorry, cousin. I truly am. You'd have been magnificent. That's exactly the problem."

They dragged me toward the low door, the servants' stair, the dark, and my gift was screaming up my arms with nowhere to put it and my great-granduncle was dying on the floor behind me and I thought, absurdly, of another door, five years ago, and enforcers with gentle grips, and a hall full of wolves who watched and said nothing.

Not this time.

I stopped fighting the gold. I had spent five years disciplining it, banking it, keeping it small and quiet and safe, being no one, exactly as the old man had begged the nine to be. I had unmade one bond with it, closed a hundred wounds, lit myself up to frighten a gallery.

I had never once let all of it out at the same time.

I let it out.

Not to heal. Not to frighten. I reached, the way my blood had always known how and I had never let it, and I found the thing that held those two enforcers to Stellan, the pack bond, the deep old rope that ties a wolf to his Alpha, the thing five packs murdered my family to keep safe, and I put my burning hands on it, and I did what the Gold Temple was truly for.

I unmade it.

Both of them. At once. I severed the enforcers from Silver Moon clean, root and thread, the same cut I'd given Kane, and they came apart from Stellan in a single gold flash and dropped my arms and staggered back with their eyes gone wide and empty and unbound, two wolves who a heartbeat ago had belonged to a pack and now belonged to no one, unmoored, unmastered, free and terrified.

The record room went silent.

Stellan stared at his own men, unbound, reeling, and then at me, and for the first time since the doorway the iron in his face cracked into something else. Not grief. Fear. The old, deep, foundational fear of every Alpha who has ever lived, the one the tribunal had signed a hundred deaths to bury, the one my great-grandmother had circled nine names to keep quiet.

"That's not," he whispered. "You can't. You can't unmake a pack—"

"I'm the knife at the throat of the world, cousin." My hands were blazing and my voice did not shake at all. "You said so yourself. You spent your life believing our blood should not exist because of exactly this. Well." I stepped toward him, and the freed enforcers scrambled away from us both, and Stellan of Silver Moon took a step back from the last daughter of Ines. "Here it is. Everything you were afraid of. Standing in your record room. And you just put a blade in the only family who ever tried to keep me small."

Behind me, the old man breathed, wet and slow, still alive, barely, a door not yet closed.

I did not take my eyes off Stellan.

"Iron," I said, to the empty air, in the voice that carries. "IRON. To me. Bring the king."

And from somewhere in the waking hall, faint, running, I heard my war coming.

Stellan heard it too. He looked at his unbound men, and his dying uncle, and his blazing cousin, and the sound of Thornmere on the stairs, and I watched a man who had spent his whole life certain of the arithmetic understand, at last, that he had gotten the sum wrong.

"You've doomed us all," he said. It came out of him small. "Every gold soul left. When they learn what you can do—"

"They're going to learn," I said, "that we were never the wound, Stellan. We were the cure they were too afraid to take." The gold roared up my arms, and the door burst open, and my king came through it with his blade drawn and Iron at his shoulder and five years of Thornmere behind him, and I turned to face the first battle of the war my whole life had been building toward, and I was not afraid, and I was not small, and I was, finally, no one's secret at all.

"Now," I said. "Let's show them what the gold was really for."