The phantom of ignorance

Soaked In Love

He smiles as he crawls under his duvet soaked in abstract love he falls asleep. It is the love season and Richard plans a few extra bouquets of love ish the dilemma for Stephanie even though he's unsure about it. It's the season that comes once a year.

He decided to write her yet another poem to celebrate what they both share even though none of them has concluded to go with the flow. Expressing his feeling is he's a love language.

 Star girl, you confuse me,

 with your amiable stability,

You turn me on while on the drive of those curves of yours.

Our heartbeat beats in Afro's and Rhythm

 till the blues, collide to red

I could be naughty, 

But will you appreciate me for who I am?

Wondering all the emotional love, Richard has shown so far, she couldn't just avoid them so she believe it all as she take it to a good heart. The doorbell rings and Michelle Stephanie's younger sister goes to check the door and it was a delivery man dropping off a bouquet of nice red roses tagged "from Richard wishing you love to heal all past hurt". Michelle read it out. Who's that she asked, well he's just a friend that cares Stephanie said as pick time up to smell them. She late texted him to appreciate him for the flowers. 

Richard looked all different and smelled nice, he immediately went on to meet her at the park, Stephanie couldn't just stop staring at him.

She thought of pouring that old past hurtful feelings but she doesn't want to ruin the spur of the moment; her known good grief worshipped her and landed her in a divorce of an accorded heart. The present moist feeling leads her on to diversity those old feelings and not worthy of her cliche image. She scavenge the leftover of the accorded heart and moved on a warpath. Richard brings her garden of fantasies and pride into reality through the tainted pain of her past love life. The defeat of accepting her past ignorance and moving turns her stone-hearted, time after time again she says " I need just one last chance but she gives no pardon to the beauty she beholds because of her insecurities lock her good circus she calls an emotion. She clouds her thinking with dirty pleasures to ease the fantasies going on in her head.

Richard's words strike the best part of her heart and leave her defenseless with reverential body language, making her eyelashes clutch. Remembering the long list of ex's she has yet Stephanie ponders on the reason why she chose him cause he looks incapable of showing her aura of love, suddenly the coistrill in her swayed and dropped her at the moment forgetting what's next. 

Unknowingly she muttered how she felt to him by making him unresponsive for a while. Before he could reciprocate she fell into his arms. Quietly she transfers her reality back to fantasy, to be able to hold on to it a little longer. Dreaming long for it to last but its temperament covered Jn foil strong-headed emotions fuse it all back into reality by her fabulous newfound heartbeat.

So times went by and the love grew stronger, and Richard got to see the beauty behind just the face she showed everyone and he did write her another poem to celebrate her

Like I do, today is fantastic because the shape and rate of you in me are far beyond the moon.

Nowhere under the sky can change the day but your beauty is incomparable to the music I listen to 

Laughter, tears, and goosebumps are all tracks of the past, and a few more are still to come... 

With you and me in bubbles of love, I pray we don't exhaust the fuel that strengthens the bond between n us.  

Just like the stars shine amid the clouds, 

 just like the birds fly high, shall you fly over circumstances with faith. 

 Just when she thought she could cause him pain as she has in the past she kept losing to the charm of love he showered upon her and she lost her dark circles of emotions that happen without caring for the other partner, instead, she shows him the best, caring part of her filled with peace and fumes of happiness.

Still in doubt but it keeps happening over and over again, she gave into who he is and she appreciates all of what has been happening since they've been together. Just like a new phase of she once dreamt of but before that the other side of her, the past struggling and provocative part of her flaws at any provocating to issues she has with Richard. 

She finds it hard to subdue and apologize and that's the one stigma affecting the relationship she confessed to him but she still doesn't know when to stop. As they both grow, struggle to fight their problems they seek a better way by booking an appointment twice a week for a therapy session to heal in all ways.

Keeping her past from her man seems like the only best thing to do but without communication and cooperation it'll fail the therapist said but whenever she does tell her past she gets hurt deeply. She struggles with her unsettled mind disturbing the way she feels and always hunting her mind. Will she tell him or move on with it she's yet to decide. All she wants to do is to enjoy the moment as long as she can.