I Reincarnated As The Villain In My Worst Book

Chapter Four: I Refuse to Be Evil

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"The Autumn Gathering, my lady," Mira said, fastening the last clasp at my collar. "In the east pavilion. You'll want the emerald pin, I think — Lady Rosewyn always wears green this time of year, and you do so love to match her."

I went very still.

"Match her," I repeated. "Or upstage her."

Mira's eyes met mine in the mirror, and something in them said she understood the distinction better than I did.

I knew this gathering. I hadn't remembered the name — three years is a long time, and past-me had never been especially gifted at titles — but the moment Mira said *gift* and *Lady Rosewyn* and *this afternoon* in the same breath, the whole scene arrived at once, fully formed, the way scenes from your own writing do when you've read them back too many times to forget.

Elara receives a gift. Someone praises it. Seraphina, watching, says something cruel enough that the whole room laughs — not with her, at her expense, but laughs — and Elara leaves the pavilion with her eyes bright and her chin high and her dignity in ruins, and everyone in that room decides, quietly and permanently, exactly what kind of woman Seraphina Valemont is.

Cassian is there. I remembered that too. Cassian watches it happen, and something in him closes like a door.

This was the moment. Not the trial. Not the execution. *This.* A small cruelty in a garden pavilion, dressed up as wit, that every later accusation would eventually stand on.

I sat down on the edge of the bed because my legs had opinions about all of this that I hadn't consulted them on.

*I am not doing that,* I thought. *Whatever else happens today, I am not doing that.*

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Which left the actual problem: how.

If I simply refused to say anything cruel, that would be its own kind of evidence. A room full of people who'd spent months learning exactly what Seraphina Valemont was capable of would notice, immediately, if she suddenly stopped being capable of it. Kindness, from her, wouldn't read as growth. It would read as a costume.

So: not kindness. Not cruelty either.

Something that still sounded like her. Just aimed somewhere that didn't leave a body behind.

I had roughly four hours to write dialogue for a woman I was impersonating in front of an audience that had known her longer than I had. No pressure.

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The pavilion was already full by the time I arrived, and I understood within about six seconds that Mira hadn't been exaggerating anything.

A woman near the refreshment table saw me coming and quietly moved her glass three inches to the left, like proximity to me might curdle the wine. Two nobles stopped a conversation mid-sentence, not obviously, just — stopped, the way conversations stop when someone walks into a room holding a very sharp object. Someone I didn't recognize whispered something to someone else I didn't recognize, and neither of them bothered lowering their voice enough.

*These people don't see me,* I thought, smiling at absolutely no one in particular because it seemed like the safest thing to do with my face. *They see the villain. I'm just wearing her.*

It was such a strange, specific kind of loneliness. I'd built this room. I'd built every person in it, technically, on some laptop in some apartment that no longer existed — and not one of them would have crossed the room to speak to me first.

The Crown Prince was near the far end, golden and easy and exactly as forgettable as I remembered writing him. Elara stood near the center, catching light the way people who are used to being looked at always seem to. And Cassian — Cassian was near the edge of it all, not participating exactly, just watching, the way he seemed to do everything.

Watching me, specifically, the moment I walked in.

*Wonderful,* I thought. *An audience.*

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It started exactly the way I remembered it starting, which was its own kind of horror — watching a scene assemble itself around you, piece by piece, like the story didn't care that you'd shown up early to sabotage it.

Someone presented Elara with a small, wrapped box. She opened it with exactly the right amount of surprise, and inside was a bracelet, delicate gold, clearly expensive, clearly meant to be admired.

"Oh — it's beautiful," she said, and she said it like she meant it, which somehow made it worse.

"A gift from an admirer, Lady Rosewyn?" someone asked, delighted, already halfway to gossip.

Elara blushed. Someone laughed warmly. Someone else glanced, very deliberately, in my direction — a small, expectant look, the kind you give someone right before you expect them to do the thing you already know they're going to do.

*Here it is,* I thought. *This is the moment.*

I felt the room lean toward me, half a breath early, already anticipating the cruelty.

"It's beautiful," I said instead, and let just enough dryness into it to keep the whole room from deciding I'd lost my mind. "Though I suppose anything would look impressive when everyone's already decided to admire it."

A pause. Then — laughter. Not at Elara. Not really at anyone. Just enough bite to sound like something Seraphina would say, not enough to leave a mark.

Elara laughed too, easy, gracious, entirely unhumiliated.

I let out a breath so small I doubt anyone noticed it.

*I did it,* I thought, with the specific relief of someone who has just successfully defused something without anyone realizing there was ever anything to defuse. *I actually did it.*

"Seraphina," someone said, delighted, "you really should be the one to fasten it on her, given how close you two have always been."

I had exactly one second to register the word *fasten* before I understood there had been a second half to this scene that I had, apparently, completely forgotten.

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I don't remember crossing the space between us. I remember Elara turning to let me reach the clasp at the back of her neck, and I remember my fingers finding — nothing.

No bracelet box in my hand anymore. No gold at her throat at all.

The pearl necklace. It was gone.

The room noticed before I did — a ripple, a gasp somewhere near the back, someone saying *her necklace, where's her necklace* in the particular pitch reserved for scandal that hasn't finished happening yet.

And then someone else, closer, holding something up.

"It's here — it's caught in her sleeve—"

*Her* sleeve. Mine.

The room went cold in the specific way rooms go cold right before they decide something about you permanently.

*I didn't touch it,* I thought, and even inside my own head it sounded exactly like the thing a guilty person says. *I never touched it.*

Someone planted it. Had to have. Which meant — think, *think* — someone in this pavilion, someone who knew I'd be standing exactly here, someone who'd had a hand's width of access to my sleeve in the last thirty seconds—

Who was close enough. Who wanted this. Who'd benefit from Seraphina holding stolen pearls in front of the Crown Prince.

Too many people. Too little time.

The Crown Prince was already on his feet. Someone was already saying my name in a voice meant to carry. Elara's hand had gone to her bare throat, eyes wide, glassy, perfect.

I looked down at the necklace in the noble's outstretched hand instead of at any of them, because looking at a small object was easier than looking at a room deciding my fate, and that's when I saw it.

The clasp. Broken. Not unhooked — *broken,* the little metal loop bent wrong, torn rather than opened.

In the story I'd written, the necklace simply vanished. Quietly. Cleanly. Seraphina never got close enough to it to leave a mark.

This wasn't quiet. This wasn't clean.

Someone hadn't slipped this off Elara's neck.

Someone had ripped it off.

I looked up at Elara. Elara, crying now, silent, elegant tears that somehow didn't touch her makeup. Elara, whose bare throat should have looked violated and instead just looked tragic.

And the strangest thought arrived, standing there with the entire pavilion waiting for me to be guilty:

*I'm not afraid.*

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"Seraphina." The Crown Prince's voice, sharp with the kind of fury that comes easily to people who've never had to doubt themselves. "Explain yourself."

I opened my mouth. I had absolutely nothing to say that wouldn't make this worse.

Cassian moved before I did.

He crossed the pavilion without asking anyone's permission, the way he seemed to do everything, and took the necklace out of the noble's hand before I could even reach for it myself.

He turned it over once. Studied the clasp the way you'd study a door that had been forced instead of opened.

The pavilion went silent in the particular way a room goes silent when it's waiting for a verdict.

"This wasn't stolen," Cassian said.

Nobody moved.

"Someone tore it," he said, holding it up so the broken clasp caught the light. "You don't tear a clasp slipping a necklace into someone's sleeve. You tear it pulling it off someone's neck."

His eyes went to Elara.

Just for a second. Less than a second. But I saw it — a flicker, there and gone, something underneath the tears that didn't match them at all.

Cassian saw it too. I was almost certain of it.

Then he turned to me, and for the first time since I'd woken up in this body, he wasn't looking at me like a door he suspected was locked.

"Tell me exactly what happened," he said.

Not an accusation.

A question.

For the first time since I woke up inside my own book, I wasn't afraid of the ending.

I was afraid of what came next.