His Fateful Choice

Asking the tough questions

I didn't like what he was saying. Not a bit. I'm not stupid and I knew where he was going with it. Josh. He was the only one who I was really attracted to. However, I just didn’t know what to say, so I just continued listening intently.

“So when your classic normal vanilla werewolf meets his or her mate, they know immediately, because their mind tells them so. But there are also other secondary signs, which reveal existence of someone’s mate. Of course, the easiest way to recognize the bond is by touching them. And now bear with me, and really take it as a theoretical lesson, because as a human being, I have no idea what's really going on in those hormonal animal bodies of yours. But when you touch your mate, the sensation should be like no other. Imagine an electric current flowing through your spine into all parts of your body. But in a positive sense…” said Bill, for whom such an experience was clearly difficult to imagine. But I knew exactly what he was talking about.

“Other signs are less obvious. Your mate's presence should be reassuring. His scent should be dominant and attractive to you. You should be automatically attracted to his presence, and accordingly, his absence should make you feel uncomfortable. Take it as a generalization, the book said that everyone experiences their bond differently and it is possible that you will notice only some of these, or even some different. But I still want to ask. Does anything sound familiar to you?”

Bill looked up to me and his eyes were full of expectations. Was any of this familiar to me? More like which of these I wasn't familiar with. I cannot believe it. Josh is probably my mate. Or was he my mate? Either way, one question weighed on my mind.

"If I can't feel my mate, does that mean he can't feel me either?”

Bill's head dropped. He knew where I was going with the question.

“No pumpkin, ones inability to recognize their mate does not affect the other's abilities.”

Oh. Although I expected this answer, my mind obviously didn't know what to make of this information. My head was suddenly as if empty. He knew. All this time he knew I was his mate. That he is my other half. That I'm his. And he never told me. He claimed me. He didn't want me. Of course. Why does that actually surprise me? When did he show any interest in me? He turned his back on me the moment he realized I wasn't like everyone else. Why should such a trifle of me being his soulmate change it?

I don't know how much time passed while I was thinking. Bill waited quietly the whole time, obviously aware of the thoughts running through my head.

I tried to sort out my emotions. Was I sad that there was once a chance for real happiness for me? Was I feeling betrayed that I was deceived by the person who was destined to be closest to me, who should be there to protect me, when no one else would? Anger that the one man I was made for used me and put me aside?

It was probably a bit of everything. However, while at first the feeling of betrayal and sadness prevailed, the more I thought about it, about him, the more furious I became.

“That bastard! He was my mate, Bill. My mate! And he didn't want me. He threw me away. " I shouted at Bill, who obviously didn't expect such a loud reaction because he jumped in his seat. Soon, the tears started travelling down my sunken cheeks. And the floods couldn’t be stopped. I didn’t even try.

Nobody wanted me, not even my family. By my mate should take one look at me and think that I am the f*****g best he ever met. He should be by my side, care for me and protect me. And I would do the same. But Josh made the decision. Without me. Without at least thinking of me.

And a new question arose in my head.

“Do you think he knew him sleeping with someone else could kill me?”

Bill pondered my question for a moment.

“Honestly Em, I don't think so. I'm actually quite sure of that. Mate's wound syndrome can only occur in a cheated mate who has recognized their mate. So, for example, if you only met your mate a few years later and have dozens of lovers in the meantime, his body would not feel anything because it would not recognize you until you met him.

Since he had found another girlfriend and had not rejected you, he probably did not know that your body recognized him without your head knowing. Otherwise, he would risk his secret being revealed. Once two mates meet, they can't just leave the other and start a family with someone else, if you know what I mean. In order for Josh to truly make Gemma his Luna, you, aka his true mate, would have to either die or be rejected.

You obviously were not rejected, and I do not know of any attempt at your life. So I came to the conclusion that Josh didn't know that you recognized him and that the bond was created between the both of you.” He finished

“What do you mean obviously not rejected? How can you know that?” I couldn’t help but ask.

“If he had rejected you, you wouldn’t feel it, when he was with someone else. And-“ he paused for dramatic effect while he sighed heavily. “you would definitely know that he rejected you. Which brings us to our most urgent problem. We need to prepare you for his rejection. Because if him cheating on you put you in ICU, there is a chance, that when it comes, you will not make it.” He said, his voice full of sorrow.