Love Rising

Rage & Mate

Marie's POV:

I needed to ask, something felt wrong. I should've known that there was a reason that Micah was telling me all of this, not just because he was my best friend. I felt involved somehow. I just needed Dylan to confirm, he needed to answer my questions. Dylan just kept looking at me, then looking at Micah. He wouldn't say anything, almost like he couldn't. Micah grabbed my hands and said," He can't tell you but I can..You are his mate,Marie. Everything that we have told you is about you. The alpha is going to command you to reject your bond with my brother unless we figure out a way to stop that from happening. The alpha picked you because he happened to stumble upon you training with Alex and your dad. He saw how fierce you are and how well you can fight.." I abruptly stood up. I was seething..I could feel rage in every inch of my body. I'm not mad at them, I'm mad at the Alpha for trying to take my decision away. Dylan is MY MATE, the goddess chose him for me and I for him. I looked at Alex and Micah before I slowly looked at Dylan and fixated my eyes on him. "Is this true? Am I really your mate?" He nodded his head yes and then went to take a step towards me but stopped when I put my hand up. "Then why haven't you tried to talk to me, like ever? I bumped into you and said hey, and you turned away from me. I'd come over to your house and you'd make an excuse to not be near me.. Why didn't you speak to me?" I'm not mad at them and they can tell, but they also know that I'm hurt. I've asked Alex many times if Dylan had a problem with me and he assured me he didn't but never told me anything else. So what was I supposed to think all this time? Dylan looked me straight in the eyes and said,"I wanted to speak to you every time I saw you but I couldn't. The Alpha believes that his command worked on me. He thinks that I'm not allowed to speak to you unless it's pack business. I didn't want to risk being caught. His command didn't work on Alex either and we can't figure out why, but we didn't want to put you at risk. We are risking it by telling you now, but we don't have much of a choice because your birthday will be here soon and we need a plan." I could understand that, and he sounded sincere when he was explaining it to me. He is right though, we do need to come up with a plan, but in the mean time, I want to talk to him. "Okay, I understand what you are saying. I want to talk to you though..alone." Alex and Micah looked at each other. Alex went to turn away until Micah yelled," We have to talk as well, Alexander! So, don't just walk away by yourself." I could see Alex smirk from where I was standing and I looked over at Micah, who was trying not to laugh but winked at me and his brother before walking up to Alex. Dylan and I both watched them walk off together. They needed to talk about their situation as well. Dylan looked down at me and smiled. I really like his smile. He has really pretty teeth and his lips were full, perfect for kissing. I started to feel my cheeks get red and I mentally kicked myself because this wasn't me. Since I know about the mate bond now, I wonder if I will start to feel it sooner, because I've never thought about kissing Dylan until now. I smiled back at Dylan and I wanted to put this to the test to see how I would feel, so I grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers. I didn't feel anything. Shouldn't I be able to feel at least a little spark? Maybe it's because im not 18 yet..I try not to think to much about it, but im sure Dylan can feel something because he is of age. It does feel nice to hold his hand, they aren't soft but strong, you can tell he works with his hands quite often. "I didn't think I'd ever get to hold your hand or feel the sparks from touching you",said Dylan. I walked him back to the swing with me to sit down and said,"I wanted to see how I would feel holding your hand, I didn't feel the sparks yet. I'm sure I will though when my Birthday is here. Maybe I will even start to feel them sooner since I now know that you are my mate. I'd also like to get to know you better, what do you think?" Dylan sighed in relief,"I'd really like that, Marie. Maybe if you get to know me before then you will love me like I love you now. " I felt my heart swelling, I didn't think that he already loved me, but I guess since he's known that I'm his mate for awhile now, it makes sense. "I think I should make it clear though that I don't want to lose my virginity until my birthday, I know we are mates and it shouldn't matter but I'd like to feel the full affect before anything like that happens." I watched Dylan's adams apple bob down then back up and then he messed with the collar of his shirt like it was too tight. "Um maybe I shouldn't have immediately said anything about that,I can see that it made you nervous." Dylan squeezed my hand a little tighter and said ,"I need to tell you now that I'm not a virgin. I haven't been for awhile, but I've only done it once and that was when I was 17. I know that probably doesn't make you feel any better because I'm sure you wanted your mate to be pure like..." I didn't give Dylan the chance to finish babbling on and on. I put my hand over his mouth and giggled because he was just a rambling mess. "You don't need to be sorry. Things happen, just because I admitted to being a virgin doesn't mean that I'm a virgin in every aspect. I drank to much and messed around with a warrior at the fall fest last year. I was upset that Micah went to visit his cousin in their pack instead of staying with me. I drank way too much ale that night and things kind of just happened. I felt so bad afterwards. I was honest with you because you were honest with me, so thank you Dylan." I could tell that Dylan was thinking and I thought that maybe he would be mad, but he just shook his head, saying," I know that you have done other things. I was with Micah in our cousin's pack when I felt pain all over my body. Luckily, I was in my room at the time instead of being with everyone. But I knew that you were doing things with someone, but I couldn't be mad about it because it's not like you knew or anything." At that point I wanted to punch myself in the face. I wish I would've known, then that wouldn't have ever happened. I feel really guilty now that I know that he could feel me being unfaithful. This stupid pack with these rules! If we didn't have this rule, then things like this wouldn't happen! "I'm still very sorry that you had to feel my betrayal. I wish that rule didn't exist. If I had known, then I would've been all over you instead and none of this would have happened. The alpha wouldn't be trying to keep us from each other because we would've already known. Do you know why this rule is even in place?" Dylan just shrugged his shoulders before saying," Honestly, I'm not sure. I know the rule isn't that new. Most of our pack rules have been around for hundreds of years but this one has only been around for about fifty or sixty, so basically, when our parents were teens this rule came about." Werewolves don't age like everyone else, we aren't immortal like vampires. We still die but we live a very long life cycle. One of our elders is about 700 years old, but the oldest werewolf to ever live in our history was a great elder named Remuda Gray. She lived to be 900. Rumors say that she was blessed by the moon goddess as a gold wolf, sworn to be a protector and live until peace was brought to the packs.She was the last gold wolf. Her children did not inherit the gift of the goddess. Of course, this is just a rumor though. " Maybe we should do some research and if we can't find anything useful in the pack library then we should ask our parents." "I agree, tomorrow after training we should get Alex and Micah to come with us to the library and we will split up to find any information that we can on this rule and maybe some others as well." For awhile, we stayed on the swings and got to know eachother. As cliche as it sounds, we asked the most basic questions like favorite foods, color, season, our likes and dislikes. It was actually really nice. I enjoyed getting to know him. He does make me kind of nervous though, but in a good way. I just want to take things slow with him and get to know him before the bond makes me jump his bones. After we were done talking, he walked me back to the front door of my house. He looked like he wanted to say something but then Alex yelled,"Just make a move already! We aren't getting any younger!" I looked up and saw Micah with Alex hanging out of his bedroom window watching us. I could feel my face getting red. Dylan shook his head at my brother and then smiled at me. He moved his hand to the side of my face and brushed my cheek gently before slowly leaning in towards me. I felt like he was a magnet and I felt myself start leaning into him as well. Soon our lips brushed against each other in a slow but passionate kiss. I felt like I couldn't get enough, but Dylan pulled away saying,"I have to stop now or I won't be able to. Your scent is very addictive and your lips taste like heaven." I felt like I was going for the record about how many times a day I could blush. I put my hands over my face until I could feel the heat leave my cheeks. Once, I knew my face was normal. I looked up to Dylan and asked,"Do you want to come inside and hang out? I mean, Alex and Micah are already in his room, probably playing video games. We could join them and see what they think about going to the library tomorrow to do research." Dylan reached behind me and grabbed the door knob, then said,"I'd like to hang out for a little bit longer, lead the way!"