I don"t believe my father is a bad man. I think he is a very good man who had no idea how to parent children. I think he did his best. I think he did love us with all his heart.
Do not misunderstand me. If he was to ask me today if I know he loves me, I would say, "yes." But a part of me will never believe it. Growing up, I had never seen it. I still don"t see it. I think he loves me today because I am a parent and I believe all parents love their children. Okay, not all. Some parents are that horrible, but I think my father simply didn"t know how to parent. I think he was clueless, confused, and, at times, completely unaware of the problem. He did his best. He still had no idea what I am. I don"t think he ever will.
I remember one movie we watched that made my father tear up.
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