The next month passed in a blur of bottles, diapers, baths and middle-of-the-night interruptions. Vanessa fell head over heels in love with her son, but when she showed the first signs of weariness, Nick insisted she choose a nanny. Although she fought the idea at first, Vanessa could not deny that getting a full night of rest made her life infinitely better. She felt like a new woman. She could not help wondering how other mothers were able to cope without help. As much as she loved her son and would willingly sacrifice her rest for him, she had begun to feel overwhelmed.
At first, she felt resentful having to admit she needed help. She felt like a failure. For a brief moment, her mind had been successful in convincing her that she had failed her baby by being incapable of caring for hi
