Can't Hate You

Kingston

Melissa

My mental health was... destroyed. On the next day I was walking around like a ghost. No talking. No eating or drinking. All I did was thinking, sitting on my laptop and doing research. Charlie was always asking me how I felt and if I wanted something but all I wanted was Elijah. I knew I should just move on and forget him but I kept asking myself why, why, why...

So I started thinking about it... about the details.. Of course I was still in love with him even though I shouldn't and of course I was still sad and damaged from the heart ache he gave me but I had to do something. I wasn't living without him and it couldn't keep going like that.

So I'll tell you what I was thinking.

I got a call from this weird guy.. KCG.. and a few weeks later he got this box delivered after endless nights of staying out late and hiding things from me. He started playing with my hair only to tell me that he was cheating on me. It was impossible that he decided to do it in that second...

First I had to look what KCG was standing for. no matter if it was related to this all or not.. but it had to be related because I remembered how Elijah disappears after we argued about the call that I got from that guy..

I was sitting on my laptop trying to find something about it but there was nothing.. I thought it could be a fabric, a company, a label or maybe a gang Elijah had problems with... but maybe it wasn't even something official and the guy on the phone gave me false information..

I sighed because I was really tired. It was 2pm and all I did since I woke up was laying there in front of my display....

Charlie came in.

"Mel.. what are you-.." she sat down next to me and when she looked at my display she couldn't complete her sentence.. she looked very confused and surprised what made me curious. "Why are you looking up KCG?"

I raised my brow at her. She knew something. Means he didn't give me false information. "Girl the KCG is a gang!" she added and my jaw dropped. Heck yeah. I was right. This all wasn't coincidence.

"How.. do you know them?" I asked and she sighed like she was stuck in a daydream. "That's a long story!" she answered and I closed my laptop to listen to her.. "What do you know about them?" I asked.

"Well I only know that the leader, which is super hot, has an office in the middle of the city and that they have problems with the EGDS." she said totally excited and my jaw dropped again. That was Elijah's gang... how did she know that these both had problems? Luckily she didn't know who EGDS was. I was so confused about what she said but it also made me curious and a million things ran through my head. It slowly started to make sneak but I was still confused.

Alright.. again..

I got several calls from him.. Elijah found out and flipped. He disappeared ad started working on something -what was obvious- but he didn't tell me about what. He received a box that looked like a present and then he broke up with me even though everything was fine..

I wanted to meet that guy. I wanted to know if Elijah broke up with me because of him and what he had to do with him. I wanted to know why he was calling me. I wanted to lot and if he had something to do with that... then I was going to handle that.

"Thanks Charlie!" I kissed her cheek and rushed to my car not minding the cold weather even though I was only wearing a black crop top and some tight grey yoga pants that Charlie gave me.

I looked at my phone and called the number without hesitation. Luckily I didn't delete it. Maybe I went crazy and got myself into things that I shouldn't care about but I had to because otherwise I wouldn't be able to sleep again. After it rang three times he picked up and I realized how fast my heart was racing and my hands were shaking...

"You decided to call me?"

"I need to talk."

"On the phone?"

"I want to meet you!"

"Wow! Slow down baby!"

Holy piss he was a douchebag.

"Meet me in ten at the address I'll send you." he said and I got in my car and drove to the address..

He knew I was going to call him. He was only waiting for it.. he wanted something from me and when I didn't give it to him.. he decided to attack Elijah.. who broke up with me and threw me right into the fire. That was the only explanation that I had but to be honest that sounded so stupid, like a movie. I just didn't want to accept the fact that he betrayed me..

Elijah

Christian called me. He was another part of our gang. I told him to keep an eye out on Melissa. I told many of them to keep an eye out on her.

"Any news?" I asked him with my husky morning voice. I said morning voice because I slept very long since she left.. well since I left her. 2pm was my new morning..

"She left Charlie's house right a minute ago and talked to someone on her phone before she left."

I yawned.."Okay.. tell Charles to follow her."

Melissa

I arrived and parked near a building.. He told me he would be waiting for me behind of it. That didn't seem really good but I still did it. I got off my car and walked around it between all the other buildings next to it. The cold brick walls made me shiver but I had to do this. The coldness should be my last problem.

I walked around the corner and there he was... already waiting for me. Well I assumed that it was him because there was nobody else around..

He was really really handsome.. wearing a black coat that seemed custom-made.. only for him.. it fit him so well.. just like the dark blue shirt beneath and the fitting black pants with white nike Air Force that didn't fit into the image but still looked good..

I knew it was very dangerous to meet someone who I didn't even know especially behind a building where nobody could see us.. He could kill me. Kidnap me. Rape me. Hit me. But I had nothing to loose anyways... there was nothing I couldn't handle after the things that happened to me..

When he saw me he smirked and his green eyes went straight though my body.. he seemed really muscular.. and tall. I was so damn nervous...

I could see that he was dangerous. The way he looked at me.. was scary.. I felt naked because of the clothes I was wearing.. I wished I would've changed my clothes or put on a jacket before I came here..

"So.. you wanted to see me." he said tilting his head and keeping the smirk. His hair was light brown and his jaw was really sharp.. I took a deep breath and nodded not forgetting to cross my arms in front of my chest.. "I knew that you would be curious." he said.. his voice was deep.. and raspy..

He took a step towards me and looked down at what I was wearing.

"Nice waist babe. Aren't you cold? You shouldn't walk around like this.. here are a lot of hungry guys and I wouldn't want any of them to look at you.."

I clenched my jaw. Why wasn't I surprised?

"Don't call me babe." I said really seriously not minding the other things he said. He raised his eyebrows. He seemed surprised.

"A girl with attitude.. you're dominant.. that's hot..." he continued and licked his lips. "I'm here because I want to know more about you and what you're doing. Especially why you called me back then and not to talk about myself..."

He came closer to me.. he approached me.

"You like danger?" I held my breath because it felt like he took my breath away. I was afraid of what he was going to do but at the same time I was dying to find out what he wanted to do... "I'll tell you about myself and we'll see if you still want to know more." he looked at my lips and back to my eyes.. he knew he was in charge.. but only because I didn't figure out how to handle it yet.. but I would lie if I would say he didn't have an effect on me because here was something interesting about him..

I shivered with the gust of wind that hit me and looked away. His face was inches away from from mine..

I saw how he took his coat off and held it towards me but I stopped him. I raised my hand to stop him but he furrowed his eyebrows and I decided to not be so stubborn or mess with him because I didn't even know what he was capable of so I let him help me to get into his coat and damn it was warm. Now that the wasn't wearing his coat anymore, I could see his muscular arms.

Then he backed off again and started to talk while I hoped to find out why what he wanted from me even though it was obvious because of the way he looked at me.

"I'm the leader of the KCG and don't you dare to ask me what KCG means."

He began to walk and I knew that he wanted me to follow him. He didn't need to worry about that because I wasn't going to test his anger.

I followed him and he kept talking. "I heard about you and the Maze bank..." he stopped and turned around so quickly that I almost bumped into him. He looked into my eyes. "...and I'm amazed.." he said and I swallowed. I didn't expect that. I squeezed my hair behind my ear and I don't know why but I felt so insecure and small next to him...

"We could really need you in our team..." he said and I looked at the ground but he lifted my chin with his hand and smiled. "And I could need you in my life..“ my jaw dropped but before I could respond to that he started walking again and I followed him to a really weird place. That means we kept walking between the buildings and when we were stopped I got goosebumps.. There were people. Some were sitting on the ground.. some were talking in groups.. one of them was sleeping.. only males..

When they noticed us they furrowed their eyebrows.. I noticed the knifes in some of their hands and the way they looked at me. I was so f*****g scared. If I would run I wouldn't come far enough, if I would scream nobody would hear me.. I was fucked..

MY heart was racing and since I didn't know anybody else here than the leader I took a step closer to him hoping they would know I wasn't their enemy.

I heard him laugh. "Baby don't worry there's no need to be scared.“ he said and I was disgusted by him but I didn't have enough to fight against him. I needed to keep calm first. I was so confused that any move would probably destroy everything. I needed to understand first.

"Is she the one who's going to help us?" one of them asked and K -I decided to call him K until I would know his name- answered "Yes.. she's heartbroken.. she's ready to do anything."

He was so sure about that.. and he knew more than I thought. This whole image seemed so blurry to me. So many pieces of the puzzle were lost and I needed to find them. Besides that, he wasn't lying. I was ready to do anything.. I didn't meet with him because I wanted to help Elijah someone.. I was there with him because I was angry.. frustrated and hurt really really bad. I wasn't sure if I was going to do something bad or good but to be honest I didn't even care anymore.

I had no reason to hate K. Maybe he was the good one.. or he was really the bad one.. and no matter what.. I needed to solve this. I was a part of it. He wanted something from me and I wanted something from me. I was blinded by my anger, that was right.. but I couldn't care less in that moment. Maybe I would start thinking normally again if I would find out a little bit about him. I wanted to know if he was Elijah's enemy.. but I also wanted to help him. So I had to play..

"Are you brave enough for bigger things?" he asked with a smirk and I looked up into his eyes.

"I am" I answered and he approached me again with a huge handsome smile like he just heard the best thing ever. He cupped my face with his big warm hands and said "I know that. I know how strong you are. You're a good girl. That's why you're here." he winked at me and I was so pissed because I still thought about Elijah and I didn't want anyone else than him to touch me...

"How do you know me?" I asked hypnotized by his eyes.. he looked at me like he knew me better than I knew myself..

"I know everyone who is related to EGDS."

I closed my eyes... even hearing his gang name was killing me. It was hurting.. knowing that no ones hands could touch me like his.. knowing that I didn't want anybody else than him to touch me.. made me crazy because I was so obsessed with him.

But I needed to concentrate. So Charlie was right.. these both had problems with each other.. and I wanted to know more about it.

"Look babe. We're definitely smaller than them.. But stronger. That's why we need your help." he was serious but not begging. "With what do you want me to help you?"

I wasn't going to help him with something huge to destroy Elijah because I was still in love with him. But I also wasn't going to help him.. yet.. so I did what I needed to do to get more information.. I put my hands onto his hands which were still cupping my face...

I tried to be gentle since my hands were shaking..

"First of all.. you're really really smart.. second.. he broke your heart and if he would see you with me.. he would freak out, right?"

I felt the urge to cry.. I looked past him. That was true. He would freak out.. and that could be my payback. I didn't want to destroy him.. I didn't want to play against him but I wanted him to know how much he hurt me. I wanted him to feel what I felt.. I was only goin to help K with the but not more.. nothing that could damage his gang.. nothing that could damage his missions or plans.. only this between us.. that was all I cared about.

"I'll never be together with you." I said looking straight into his eyes. I could act like I was but I would never really betray him like he did.. god why couldn't I just let him go and hurt him? Why couldn't I just hate him and help K? Probably because I loved Elijah too much and wanted to believe that he did this all because he had a reason..

He laughed again and leaned his forehead against mine.. "You don't need to be my girlfriend.. standing next to me is enough. Believe me. He will go crazy.." he whispered and I nodded. I can't explain it but something about him.. did something to me. Maybe it was his voice.. that made me shiver.. maybe his coat that I was wearing.. maybe my heart that was aching and making me feel these things

Maybe this was a bad idea. What if I was going to make a mistake because I was so angry at him? What if I was going to lean onto someone else who wanted to give me affection because I needed it so bad? No. It was a good idea. I wasn't going to betray Elijah with K. I wasn't going to make mistakes.. even if Elijah hurt me.. I was going to do this for him.

I was going to be one of them, get all there plans, information and other useful tings so I could hand them to Elijah. I know it was risky and I needed to use my best acting skills and it would probably take me a lot of time but it was going to be worth it.

I knew something was wrong and I was going to find out what.. I was going to help Elijah without letting him know even tho he hurt me really really bad..

"And you'll want to be mine anyway.." he added and I looked back into his eyes. He couldn't mess with me. He couldn't think that I was that easy to get.. he was going to fall.. really hard. I backed off.

"Are you in?" he asked and I took a deep breath. I nodded.. I felt like a fraud but I knew who I was doing it for and that I was going to win this.. He laughed again. "I knew it. I knew you would make the right decision!"

He was handsome. Smelling good. Really attractive and seductive.. But he didn't know who he was messing with... No matter how hurt and confused I was.. I wasn't going to do something that I would regret later.

"But there's one rule. Don't call me babe." I said and he bit his lip.

"Honey? Baby? Or babygirl." I clenched my jaw and started breathing faster. "NONE!" I screamed and he tilted his head again with a dangerous smirk.. "Okay. Whatever you want Melissa.“

I calmed down. At least he was cooperating.

"And how should I call you?!" I asked still a little pissed.

"Kingston." he answered and winked at me.

I finally knew what the K was standing for.. to be honest it was a nice name but I want going to let him effect me no matter how hurt I was..

He told me that I should meet him right here tomorrow at the same time and that I should keep his coat...