Can't Hate You

I can't hate you

Sun

I was sitting in my room on the ground, knees pulled to myself and back leaned against the bed. The heavy feeling in my chest wanted to make me melt into the ground. Everything that happened took way too much time to sink then it should. It changed more than it should.

My whole life changed in a second and it was too much. It was scary and overwhelming. Ridiculous and just not understandable. People died.. Dean’s dad died.. he left with me knowing very well what was going to happen to his father..

I thought I wouldn't get out of the big black hole that I fell into.. I thought I would always be stuck in this situation.. in this position of my brain. My thoughts were bothering me. Everything was bothering me. Everything that happened was going to bother me forever. I didn’t want to th