In the middle of nowhere

Best time ever

Isaac pov

The day is actually really great, before I know it it's already 6 pm.The whole day I'm chilling with the boys in the back lounge. Jordan joined usfor some time this afternoon and also Brittany and Victoria joined us for sometime. Jordan came up with the idea of making a kind of schedule who're going tomake supper on which day. Victoria and Jordan are today so right now they'remaking supper. Well, it's more 'on-the-road' food so we'll see if it's eatable.

"Supper is ready!" Victoria says then cheerful as she andJordan come back. "Nice," Trevor says.

"Where's Briar?" Lamar asks as we all sit down with a plate offood. "Briar isn't feeling well," Jordan says, "she's sleepingright now." "Poor Briar!" Brittany says. "I hope shedoesn't get sick!" I say. "I'm sure she'll be better soon,"Jordan says. "Hopefully!" Myles says.

The food actually doesn't taste horrible. It's canned soup and it isgreat eating something warm in this cold weather. "I hope everyone likesthe soup," Victoria says, "there's a lot of it." "Ohgosh," Trevor says, "Luckily it's just a few days." "I'llnever be able to survive a whole week on canned soup!" Brittany says."No," I say, "me neither."

After supper Trevor and Myles clean the plates and Brittany grabs somemovies out her bag. We end up watching some stupid romcom Victoria, Brittanyand Jordan choose, but whatever.

I end up really enjoying the movie.Don't tell anyone.                                   

Around 9:30 the movie ends and I'm pretty tired. Brittany and Victoriaalready fell asleep during the movie and pretty much everyone looks tired."I go to my bed," I say breaking the silence and standing up. Becauseof the little space, we're forced to get ready for bed one by one.

After probably more than 30 minutes everyone got their space andeveryone is laying in their beds.

I'm asleep in no time.

Brittany pov

Sleeping. Something easier said that done. I lay in my cubby turning andturning, but I can't fall asleep. Luckily turning in my bed doesn't make muchsound. I'm clearly not the only one who has a hard time falling asleep. I hearsomeone climbing out his or her cubby and walking to the back lounge.

I don't know why it's so hard for me to catch sleep. I was so tired thewhole day, I didn't sleep much yesterday. Yesterday. Yesterday is anotherstory. Yesterday was a really weird and confusing day, or better, a reallyconfusing evening. You know what, maybe I do know why I can't sleep.

Maybe I drunk a little too much in the club. Would things have end updifferent if I was just sober? Who knows. It happened, and I can regret it, butI can't change the past with regretting it. I've to be honest to myself andaccept that it wasn't that bad at all.

We were all just dancing when I realized I only saw Trevor. It justlooked like the others disappeared. And that's when it happened. He leaned inand kissed me softly on my lips. I looked in his big brown gorgeous eyes for awhile before he spoke. "Lets go back to the hotel," he said close tomy right ear. I just nodded.

We let the others know that we were leaving and called a cab. Back atthe hotel things just went a lot faster. As soon as we walked into hishotelroom he pressed me against the wall kissing me roughly and passionately.After some minutes of making out we started pulling each others clothes ofuntil we were both naked. He picked me up and laid me onto his bed.

It was my first time. I can be 21, but age doesn't say everything. Itwas pretty nice though. It felt good at that time, Trevor was so sweet. Did Imade a mistake? I already knew Trevor likes me, but do I like him too? I knowthat sounds stupid, first having s*x with someone and then questioning yourselfif you like him.

To be honest, I really feel stupid about it. But I can't say I regretit. Of course Trevor is a really good friend of me, he's one of my bestfriends. I don't want to ever lose him in my life, and I don't know what to dowithout him. Where is the boundary between liking some one as a friend andliking someone like more than a friend?

I'm more confused than ever. They say listen to your heart, but thatvoice of my heart is exactly the same as the voice of my mind. WHY THE HELLDOES EVERYONE MAKE LOVE SOUND SO EASY? Loving isn't hard, but understanding itis a whole other story.

I sigh hard. I look on my phone. 1:39 am. Great. Another sleeplessnight. I didn't wanted to talk to Victoria yesterday, I knew she would askquestions I don't want to answer. Besides, I still wasn't sober, so fallingasleep wasn't very hard. Thinking about it, nobody really asked me why Trevorand I left early. Not that I've spoken to Trevor, I just can't do it. I want totalk to him, but his eyes are just so mesmerizing that I can't think straight.

I put my earphones in my ears and put my music on. Loud enough so Ican't think, but not so hard that anyone can hear me. I love music. It's likeescaping from the world. The only thing I can hear is the music and I'm trappedright in between it. Music is the best thing on earth. There's one thing Ican't live without for sure, and that's music.