Time to think
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Isaac pov
I'm exhausted. Period. I don't have any other words for it. This was amazing, but killing. I'm so glad I'm laying in my cubby. All my bones are tired and I'm not even able to move. And ofcourse, right now when I just want to sleep, I can't. And what happened when you can't sleep? Exactly, you're going to think. And I really, really, really don't want to think right now.
Nope, this is definitely not the right time and place to think about this. I sigh. I lost, it's already in my head. I think back at that one day. My life could've changed, but I just stood there. I could just have told her, but I couldn't. So it became just an awkward embarrissing moment. Feelings are just so weird. Why do we even have them??
I like her, a lot, but do I like her in that way? Besides she doesn't like me, she likes Eldon. Acting like Eldon is easier than acting like myself. She fell in love with Eldon, not with me. That's why I couldn't do it. I think. Was it really to me to decide that for her?
That day changed my life. We lost our connection. It never came back. I tried, but I couldn't. I couldn't reach her, she didn't want me to reach her. I failed.
It's only when you lose something that you realise how much it meant to you. It definitely meant a lot to me. I never got the change to show it to her. It's killing me, everyday a little more. I'm just so stupid sometimes, why do I make those bad decisions sometimes?
I turn around, try to turn away from those memories. I look on my phone, 2 am. Great. Just great.
Now I'm back on earth I listen to the sounds. I hear some cars from outside the bus and hear someone snoring quietly. I have to admit, it sounds pretty cute. Then I hear something I didn't expect to hear. I'm pretty sure I hear someone kissing. Or it is someone doing a pretty good imitation of it. Gross! I think I don't have to hear that. Then I realise me something else. I hear people kissing. Like actually kissing, like relationship kissing. Kissing like Victoria said she didn't want any and with which we all agreed. This didn't take them very long. Although, I have no idea who it are. Probably Trittany. No, what am I saying. It can only be Trittany.
I turn around again, away from the sound. And then finally I fall a sleep.
Brittany pov
I wake up early. The bus is already driving to our next destination. I look on my phone. 8 am. Well, the driver said he wanted to leave at 4 am, so if he really did that, I'm proud on myself for sleeping those 4 hours without waking up.
Coming out my cubby is a lot harder. Besides that I actually don't want to because it's so nice and warm, I almost fell on the ground. I put some comfy clothes on and walk to the backlounge. Nobody is up yet, so I have some time for myself. My feet are cold, so I pull a blanket over them. It remembers me of the last days of filming. Since we had some late scenes, Victoria thought it would be a good idea to all stay on set. So Jordan, Myles, Trevor, Victoria and I brought some sleepingbags. What we didn't know, is that it would be this cold.
It was soo cold. To keep ourself warm we laid as close to each other as possible. It was one of the best days of filming although I didn't had much sleep.
I stayed with Jordan, Myles, Trevor and Victoria and it was so much fun. But it kept getting colder and colder and I'm pretty sure my toes were frozen. I still don't know how, but at one point they were all sleeping. Still feels like it was just out of nowhere.
I just couldn't sleep and accidentally waked Trevor up when I tried to turn around in my sleepingbag. (biggest mistake ever. You just CAN'T Turn in a sleepingbag.) To keep ourself warm we laid so close to each other that I could hear him breath. He couldn't sleep either anymore (still feel sorry for waking him up). We just talked and laughed until we heard the birds whistle outside. Then we realised that we wouldn't fall asleep anymore.
It was one of the best nights ever. I really saw a side of Trevor which I hadn't seen before. unfortunately I haven't seen that side of him ever again. Which is really sad, 'cause I really liked it.
'Did I just think that?' I say to myself. 'Brain what are you doing, you never told me I really liked it?'
My thoughts get interrupted by the others coming into the backlounge. guess the time to think for me is over now.
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