WHY

pain

rosalina POV:

no no no not alexa he can go if he wants but not alexa please i kept yelling for help ben came running and took her i just sat there numb someone came but i pointed a gun at them and they left i stayed there for some time then i heard footsteps i got up and locked the door i heard bienna and liam and colen yelling for me to open the door but i just kept breaking things i failed her i promised her protection if only i broke the acting earlier and knocked him out she wouldn't be shot right now it's all my fault 

alex will lose his only familly his sister i failed as a leader i broke the table with my fists i watched as the blood leaked thro the cuts of the glass in my hand i fell down and sat there looking at my blood mixing with alexa's blood 

"BREAK THE f*****g DOOR!" i heard colen yell

"hot ball please open the door it's not your fault" ben begged thro the door

i failed them i looked at the door then got up and headed to the window and jumped then started running to the forest i kept running to the unknown then i stopped by a lake and sat there and put my gun in front of me

i heard something move behind me i grabbed my gun and pointing it towards it and shot

i heard a whimper i walked towards it and it was a wolf

i walked towards it

"sorry force of habit why are you here? came for some water?" i said touching it's head but it growled at me

"hey i said sorry" i went and got some water in my hand and offered it to him hoping he wouldn't bite my hand off

but he just drinked it i went to check his wound i shot his leg the bullet didn't go that deep i tried taking it off but he attacked me

i put him down with his head and took it out he kept whimpering then i covered it with my jacket and left with my gun

a couple steps i heard steps behind me i got my gun out to shoot and turned around but there he was limping 

"i almost shot you again why are you following me you big dogie?" i said touching it's head but this time it didn't mind

it threw it self on the ground and let me pet it

"what kind of stupid wolf are you?" i said petting his head he looked at me with puppy eyes

"oh hell no i'm not taking you with me you are a f*****g wolf not a dog" i said getting up

but he got up with me i walked he walked i knew running means im playing with him i stopped and looked at him he sat and looked around in alert then layed down

"i shot you why do you like me? i hurt you" i said but he just looked at me

"i'm crazy talking to a wolf" i said sitting down he came closer to me i layed back at him checking if he minds but he just let me lay on top of him i smilled

i looked at the stares

"i failed them alexa was shot three times i'm such a bad friend and leader i didn't even check on her and my daughter she must be worried about me how bad can i get?" i said

"why am i venting to a wolf? but at least you won't judged me nor understand me" i said but my eyes felt heavy the next moment i went to sleep feeling the wolf covering me

..........

i woke up with the wolf growling at something

"f**k OFF STUPID DOG" i heard someone yell

"just kill him the boss will be mad if we don't bring her"

i heard the wolf growl and a gun getting loaded

i quickly got two knives and threw it at them killing them both

it was stupid sleeping in the woods in the danger of the mafia

i went to the two bastards they had the mafia tattou in their necks

the wolf came next to me still growling at them

"shshshshsh good wolf it's thanks to you i'm alive but it's not safe we need to go" i took off with the wolf after i hid their bodies

"so much for not taking you with me" i said getting closer to my car thank god they didn't take it

i opened the front door and the wolf jumped in

"what do you think you are doing?" he looked at me with those eyes

"ugh fine get down" i said and opened the back door and had to drag his ass to the back seat

"what kind of wolf is you?" i said murmuring

i went quickly to gang house

once i went down the wolf started scratching the back door i openned it sighting

he jumped down happily but then started growling

"ROSA!!" colen came running but the wolf stood infront of me and growled

"shshshs good wolf" i said petting him he calmed down and layed down

"wow" bienna said  he was gonna get up but i put my hand on his head and he layed back

colen hugged the living hell out of me but the wolf scratched him and layed on top of me 

"possesive much"  i said

"just stay back for now" i said looking at the wolf

"where did you find him and what the f**k" colen asked

"i shot him yesterday by the lake in the forest then helped him and this morning we got attacked he helped me so here we are because he keeps following me"

"WHAT THE f**k WERE YOU DOING IN THE FOREST AND ATTACK!?"

"jeez calm down" i said

then i lowered my head

"how is she?" i asked

"hey look i just wanted to say it's not your fault" colen came but the wolf didn't let him touch me

"i asked how is she"

"she is still with the doctor" alex came and answered i couldn't look him in the eyes and clenshed my hand

"hey look wooow" he wanted to come but as you guess the wolf

"nice wolf anyway just wanted to say i don't blame you for anything" he said

but i blame my self 

i nodded 

"mommyy" luanna came running outside  NO THE WOLF

but he just layed down

i held her in my arms

she hugged me

"i missed you" she said

"oh i miss you too princess"

she went down and went to the wolf colen wanted to stop her

but the wolf didn't do anything

"how cute" she said the wolf kept looking at her she petted him

he looked at me and i smiled he layed down and let her play with him

well at least i don't have to worry about her

but then i remembered alexa

"i wanna see her" i said to alex

he nodded "follow me" i looked at the wolf but he wanted to follow me but luanna stoped him he got busy with her at least for now

it's time for alexa i went with a heavy heart