Not My Mate

Chp.16 Heat Waves

I just wanted to pain to stop and when it did the darkness took over my senses and it was a relief from the torture. I knew it would be this way the day she left in the darkness taking all her beautiful light. When I woke my eyes landed on Cai sleeping in a small chair beside my bed. He quickly woke up hearing my shuffling as I roll from the bed still feeling the pain in my chest.

"Brett" Cai whispered as I turn on the bathroom lights the sorrow in my eyes that scared of fire marks over my heart, some healed others skin ink now. Cai said nothing but a look in his eyes said he'd follow me anywhere and where I was headed was long over due. Tossing a shirt on off the floor, jumped into the truck my growling growing, haunches raised the closer we got to her betrayal eating its way into my blood, filled with rage and disappointment.

We stopped at the borderline the warrior looking into the driver side with wide eyes. "I think you know why we’re here" Cai said, roughly "opening the f*****g gate", my wolf roared with irritation, as I jumped from the car, running over the territory line with yells for me to stop . I didn’t care let him come let him come for me.

As I near the pack house, the man I was looking for stepped out the door. With no words, I lunged at him It was an all out fight. Punching him in the face, not enough to drop him, but the bloody nose was satisfying to see. He smelt like her and my wolf Raya went mad seeing only the need to kill and I shifted so did he.

A crowd formed bystanders stood stocked as a stranger outright attacked their Alpha. Yet others knew why I was here knew who I was here for. My wolfs hunches stood up as I leaped for his throat. His wolf slightly bigger dodged agile, but not quick enough as I tore into his side . Max swiped at my muzzle, blood blinding my right eye it was a roll of snarls and yelps,till only one stood here pride on the line. It was a bad taste that an Alpha steals another’s mate and even more that she cheats on her mate so publicly.

"Stop please". I heard her before I saw her breaking away from whoever held her back. My wolf ears pulled back bearing my teeth at her too she was not free from my wrath. Max lets a growl roll from his throat and my belly pulled one of its own as I charged him again in a spiral of anger. "Please stop please Brett' Max" It’s me , I’m at fault I am the one to blame" Angela cried.

Shift back, I beg you Angela crawl to me, hands and knees. She laid at the feet of Raya silently crying ' please stop It was me I’m wrong'. Raya growled but stepped back with a limp to his front paw his shoulder was also dislocated. I looked to Max he too stepped back and we both shifted. Cia was resting up against the truck came to me with shorts as Angela still laid at my feet. I walk past her we clearly need to have that talk now. I said Icely, headed into the pack house roating the shoulder id just popped back into place numb to the pain.

I couldn’t even look at her or stand near her the betrayal so strong It all still made my skin bristle. With flash backs to the pain they cause me and what she could have cost me entirely, as we entered what seems to be a sitting room. It was quiet and I looked at the extra eyes on me, including Max. I’ll like to talk to my mate however, unfortunate that may be alone. I stated. Max growled stepping forward "don’t talk to her that way". I stepped up ready for another round and a snarl. I damn well will do whatever I please after what she did pointing to the wounds over my heart.

Maxes eyes got big, staring at the marks, knowing what it meant what he played in this when the sliding door is closed, leaving along myself and Angela, my cheating mate. It was quiet, as she stood staring to the ground guilt seeping off her in waves. I began to laugh and laugh, even harder as I approached her. Grabbing her by the chin, harshly making her look at me her eyes glassy. 'Dont be so shy not mate last night you were the star on the party. I wasn't there to see the show but man did I feel it deep in my chest such passion my eyes held no life just a bottomless sadness. I didn’t know you were such an artist Angie I said roughly what do you think of your work my hands fixed at her neck draw a sob and more tears as i pulled closer making her look at the marks and decorated my chest the scars healed over like burns leaving ropes of likes across my heart.

You always made these back handed comments about how I’m a boy, I’m not ready to do real life with you. I spoke rubbing my hands softly over her cheek, wet with tears. Telling me how you wanted kids and neededthis or that. My hands caressed her neck you wanted them just not with me. I squeezed her delicate neck knowing I could snap it before anyone could stop me. Did you get your baby last night my other hands touching her flat tummy did you let that Alpha knot my mate and make a love child at my expense?

Where you thinking of a happily ever after once you’ve killed me? How many times did you do it? I squeezed harder cause I'd blacked out from the pain between you getting you rocks off I lost count.

Holding her closer, grabbing her by the both sides of the face, her sobs breaking from her lips. I bent down my lips, brushing her ear was it when I was tearing at my own flesh trying to rip my heart out to stop the pain." I’m sorry ,I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for it to go like this". She cries. 'She speaks I bark giving her slight shove from me she speaks ladies and gentlemen, and here all this time, I thought all she wanted to do was break me. You had two years Angie and you never tried it. You only saw what I wasn’t.

"I’m not like you Brett I’m sorry I tried It’s just not what I wanted. Why should I mate bond forced me to love a complete stranger. "Because if his mate was still here, you wouldn’t be, Brent said matter-of-factly,: my face blanched. The same man you almost killed me for would have never chose you over his mate. He didn't the first time he honored his bond not yours not mine. It’s not the same thing, but she croaked with more tears. It is because he loved you before and still chose her marked mated and crown her Luna. You were meant for me and I would have chosen you first every day till it burned into my bones. You would have been my only choice,

you were not my first love but I would have made sure you'd be my last in every way Angie.

"I love him I love him", Brett I’m not the saint like you I’m not perfect and right now I know im less than dirt in your eyes. You didn’t want me, but you would have stayed because you’re an honorable man. I’m selfish I can admit that now she stated flatly.I scoffed sure way to start off your rein as Luna or mistress if he by chance gets a second chance, I retorted. Angela eyes squinted at my back handed comment but carried on I wasn’t ready to let go of him Wasn’t ready to be without him. I should have rejected you, but how could I do that to a young boy with this fairy tale that all mates are a perfect match.

Well, not a rejecting me would have gone well, over two year trail light kisses sneaking around and what I felt last night Brett said all the anger gone in his tone and replace disappointment which burned in the air. I don’t want you to hate me she stepped closer I watched her weirdly as her small frame wrapped around me. I tensed as she squeezed herself into me, please she cried.

"Brett, please don’t hate me", My eyes watered voice breaking with the anguish of what I was to do you want real life just not with me real life is realizing Max probably has a second chance mate out there Angela.. She tried to pull away, not wanting to hear this again, but my arms wrapped around her in a cage hand holding her head in place as she listened to the rapid beat of a scarred heart, forcing her closer to me, smelling her scent for the last time.

Let’s hope for your sake they never meet and you know the pain you’ve costed me. I wanted you to be happy regardless if every part of me wishes to snap your body where it stands. Tears pulled from my eyes. Let’s hope life doesn’t become too real and it’s not what you expected.