Not My Mate

Chp.14 call me again

I was in the hospital for a week. I could’ve been home but the sorrow didn’t let me. When I did Mama and Allah make sure I was on medication to suppress my heat. It didn’t stop it, but it wasn’t so frequent now. Only the few here and there and only collect you knew what happened at night.

I put a command on everyone not to to breathe a word about what happened not talking about it didn’t help and talking about it. Made it worse. I tried to move on with my life but at night my jeans, chase memory.

I was rushing through the trees leave snapping in my face, the gravel digging into my feet. It was getting colder as the weather changed. The night air, inviting the water, biting my skin. Where was I going so fast my body was used to stop moving on its own accord. Like I lost all control of my senses looking inside out. Then I saw the clearing are so cool. It six long gone the night the moment alive in my heart.

Then I thought about what I lost before it even bloomed. I didn’t wish for a long love story yet I hope for a happy ending. Those emotions I’ve smothered into training and fake smiles tipped over my cup. So I couldn’t take it anymore and I screamed so loud. Only what touch my ears wasn’t a cry of a lost girl.

The sound that crawled up my throat and ripped from my voice box was a shattering howl. nose lift it to the moon they gave her for strength and forgiveness to all I’ve done. For Peace I once had as a girl but now as a woman coming-of-age. Oh babes will be OK. The silk voice spoke to me. I'm Vixx your wolf and I feel all that you do we'll Find ours soon enough now sleep

I parked up as the wrestling noise penetrated my ears. I opened my eyes, a bit confused, settling on my surroundings, wrapped in sheet. Strong our self closely as he walked slowly. Talk to my head up. I met Kam‘s dark eyes. You haven’t spoken since that night. Kam carried me to my room in silence sitting me softly on the edge of the bed taking a step back, his eyes filled with guilt and great anger and pity. I tightened the sheet around me. Not sure what to say or do.

I’m sorry, Tea a mumble I should’ve been there for you in anyway you needed me to. I was blinded by rank and Doodoo. I should’ve just loved you a bit more. You wouldn’t have ended up I put my hand up to stop them stop please no more what if I can’t go there he nodded it slightly. Back to the silence that wrapped around us both like an invisible chain. I got my wolf last night didn’t even realize I shifted. I pointed.

Oh wow, I thought I was in a dream running through the woods. I know he noted. I met her since time in the dawn of our own Patrol rentals. She’s beautiful and also almost took my head off upon approach he laughed lightly. I miss my friend. I said softly, not used to the emotions. Without thought I stood to my feet Kam came taking me into his arms, and I crashed into his chest.

Cradling my head and help me tightly me too me too. I’ve missed all of you. I’ll never make you feel alone again he promised. Looking up at Cam the boy that was once in my dreams I smiled. She get cleaned up. I spoke snapping out out of his reach cans, large and brushed at my oily hair sticking to my forehead smoking the memory of me talking too much and not to look him in the eyes. Happy sweet 16 leaning down his list brush mine for half a second.

I said nothing stepping away, headed towards the shower. I dropped the sheet only to start when I heard the sharp intake of breath. I turned completely around body on display. His eyes blackened breaking over my womanly curves. We both knew he would make a move. Take what he wanted what he needed. Dutiful as always, Cameron I told her well stepping into the bathroom. Whenever and however, you need me it’s time Tori whenever he said again, and left the room

I was passing with ease and it felt like things were getting back to normal. We celebrated for his birthday then mine a month later I’ve been trying to live a normal life there a goal with that word again only Brenton my mind countless nights. Tori would encourage me to call him, saying don’t let her s**t ruining my own. But I was not his mate. I knew it and I didn’t wanna see the disappointment in his eyes. May be in a year or so if never find mine we could be together for now. I should wait and wait.

I curled my hair a story finished off her make up in the mirror. We decided it was time to go out and found a perfect house party. I admit while waiting on Brent, but not if anyone’s asking. I went on the occasional date here and there three months give a girl a chance right. But the heart wants with a heart wants and I was a committed so tonight put all this make business at the back of my mind.

i’ll go out with Tori in a few other pack members with this distress. I am bound to turn a few pages for sure. Cameron has always drove us to the party and it was turning off a notch. Cameron ran to grab the strings as Tori and I scoped the place out. Wolves, watching us like little lambs in the den of predators. Tori wore a long skirt split up to the hit on one side and top that definitely said your loss. We got our drinks and danced on the floor guys sliding his arms around my waist.

I peaked a quick glance at Tori her big smile and thumbs up was enough. He passed the face test a few shots later and four songs and I needed that little break. I made my way through the large house happy I came out. I just wasn’t expecting to see what I did when I turned off towards the bar of the kitchen

I knew it was him before I saw his face tucked into her neck. I knew those arms and curly hair since I was a girl. My heart leak to my throat and she turns to look at me a grown woman staring at a half woman half girl. I knew he messed around so he found his mate. I mean I was doing the same right right?

then I saw it the mark and decorated her neck. It happens so fast. I was only there two minutes tops. My eyes glassy over, snapping his head up to stare into my mouth, crying eyes. He released her and she wouldn’t step back, clearly not threatened by me.

Mor he whispered, and I shook my head, taking another step backwards. Congrats my voice broke as tears threatened to fall. Turning away quickly, I ran into Carrr his eyes searching around crazy and red. I ran to Tory her alert to my frantic, state. As Cameron drove from the party, my wheel fell and so did I.