Not My Mate

Chp.4 touch

I looked at his soft eyes which always seemed to look into me I'm not an Alpha yet Cameron he broke into a smile. Not now but someday soon, I don’t know if I could taste the finest of food for such a time. In a blink have no place at the table later, his hands toyed with my hair. Who knew boys at fifteen thought this way or maybe he has for some time now.

Can’t we just live in now when it’s over we promise to stay friends and be happy for one another. Cam stopped playing with my hair staring at me do you know what you’re asking of me? Tori leaning closer.

My face inches from his Cam's breath was minty and cool over my nose & lips that began stuttering. I think so then I did the unthinkable letting my own instincts take over an I kissed him. I guess that mutt came in handy after all if this is where it got me.

From then on Cam and I begin to date I took it for what it was. We made out often and maybe did touch stuff. Never all the way I wasn’t really nervous or as they say waiting for my mate. Who I’m sure is living his life, so why should I wait. Overall miss out because of an overrated double standard for females. I’m a progressive futuristic woman that wants what I want.

Cam never took it too far with me & his self-control was shocking because mine was not.

I think my dads wrath played its part in my boyfriends resistance to my on going plan of seduction. He caught us making out pretty heavy, he & Cam had a conversation with more Alpha, putting fear into a young teen boys heart. Not too pluck the flower of his sweet princess If I were a son, I’d get a high five maybe a cigar for scoring. We did find our own loopholes I admit it was worth it so here I was moaning into the sheets out in the field by the lagoon early in the morning as I reached my high. While Cam continued to eat me alive.For three blissful years, I had him to myself, but the days were long and the nights too quick.

In that time, I never saw mutt again, only in passing, I’d be leaving & I’d see a tall shadow in motion. I wouldn’t say I was avoiding enemy number one, but deep down I was. He was my first kiss at thirteen the feeling I felt from that was too much to explore in the end we agreed to stay enemies. Everything with Cam was great and I think seeing Cai would somehow ruin it. Plus Cameron never really liked the guy and I don’t blame him ,they had there run in a time or two an are even less friendly.

At a few parties I missed due to my condition worsening with age it seems. Last I heard he got a girlfriend from Morgan who by the way dates his beta. Brett & Morgan have been together since that first kiss I’m happy for her happiness, though mine has ended.

Cam and I called it quits with him getting closer to finding his mate I just couldn’t handle being with him. I’d have to step back so he could be with her in ways his duty made him refuse me. We’re back to being just friends sorta,we made out here and there in private among other things. Whenever I felt the need wolves are s****l creatures by nature, so I indulged myself often enough. I’d crept up to his room and slide into his bed like tonight I felt hot all over my clothes tend to stick against my skin. I started sleeping naked though it didn’t help the wave I felt made me crawled out of bed and tiptoe down the hall. Like so many other times approaching his door I twisted the knob, and it crept open. The view wasn’t what I usually saw a sleeping Cam his blonde hair tossed over his face. Not even the covers, revealing his bear chest, and laying at his waistline.

What I saw was a naked girl underneath Cameron moaning into the kiss they shared he on top of her thrusting wildly. I was mortified he found someone else he wanted & replaced me. I whispered Cam, just holding the knob, eyes wet we weren’t together I knew he’d move on but so soon my side of the bed not even cold yet. He looked up to the door eyes losing their lust replaced with embarrassment, shock & guilt. Breaking the kiss “s**t” he rushed climbing off the girl that was minutes ago in ecstasy.

What the hell why is she in here Cam? she exploded covering herself with the sheets. Shush he hushed her I told you not to call me that he snapped. My shock faded sorry, sorry we'll talk another time I shut the door and bolted for my room. I said underneath the shower till my fingers grew wrinkle that night tears washed away with the water.

I knew we were done for real this time I couldn’t be mad really his reluctance to see past our rank surely dating me gave him severe blue balls. Always bound by his duty to my title more than being just my first love after that we talked or more he did .I agreed to stop coming over every time I did Cam said it made it harder for him not to sleep with me. Then deal with the Alpha’s wrath later plus I was no angel I carried a temper of my own I don’t share so we’re just just friends now. Even with the occasional play peck to the lips, we are nothing more than friends. The heat never really went away like always it made me feel like I was in overdrive constantly since Cam and I ended. I’d settle for cold showers & confinement I didn’t like anyone else but I should probably start looking for some other outlet. Who more or less isn't afraid to touch me as a women. Now I’m getting ready for my annual picnic, just breathe Tori I reminded myself after my third cold shower today.

I looked at Brett and Morgan all happy in the pictures he showed me bit envy at his complete happiness. Can’t say I ever felt that happy about anyone don't know if that makes me lucky or a sad case. Sure I dated girls here and there and fooled around with the occasional blowjob. Nothing serious in nature, even my ex-girlfriend Claire never made me this love sick happy.

She was beautiful but a little too hungry at times for things that should be reserved for my true mate only. I Wasn't ready to give her my mark not now at least or ever really. She even once suggested playfully after s*x we stop using condoms since will be mated anyway, so knotting her isn't a issue. I pumped the brakes really quickly after that even if she was my mate thought I highly doubt to be the case.

Mates are the last thing on my mind I’m just at the moment, however, I did keep her around she was a good lay and already trained. s*x was off the table at this point because now I didn’t trust her not to intentionally try to trap me. But the blowjob she was giving me now almost made me reconsider tempting me she was definitely skilled at.She wasnt from my Pack but came later when I was in my early teens. She’s the only one I’ve ever been with from my own pack at least I didn’t want to have my future Luna here with half the women that I’ve bounced in my bed. Her lips massaged my shaft to the head in her saliva I growled holding a fist full of her red hair and managed her motion. I lifted my hips and met the back of her throat. I pumped into her hot mouth, chasing my released. Eyes closed, her moans humming against my tip. f**k I croaked when velvet eyes appeared in my mind making me finish so hard snapping my eyes wide open what the f**k was that.