This Thug Love Is Real

Chapter 13

Sausha POV

'when i get out the tub i go to the closet trying to find what to wear. i picked out some skinneys, a kinda over sized shirt that hangs off my shoulder, hair in ponytail and some pumps. i walk down the stairs and see Antwan standing there in some nice jeans a button down and some clean shoes. he looks good as always. i must have the most stupidest smile on my face from how hard im smiling. he comes over to help me down the rest of the stairs. he walks me over to the table and pulls out my chair. i sit down and notice the food on the table. steak, rice and rolls. awee ! this is so cute. i cant believe he actually did this for me.'

Sausha: so whats this ? like a date ?

Twan: yeah. i didnt know what restraunts you liked so i decided to just have it here. is that okay ? i mean i get it that you prolli dont like it. i guess we could do something---

Sausha: boy calm down and stop that blabbering ! i love it, i love that you did this for me. *whispers* never had this before.

Twan: as long your with me, ill give you the best.

'i smiled and we sat and ate making little conversation. ive always been attracted to Antwan even when he asked for my number he was one fine peice of specimen, but i knew what he wanted and i didnt want him to get all up in me, neither did i want to get up in that type of relationship. i didnt want to fall, then be knocked back down again like Darnell. looking at Antwan i can tell that he doesnt want to hurt me. i can tell that he MIGHT, but he wouldnt mean to. i dont know, i cant let my past get in the middle of this relationship.'

Twan: Sausha ?

Sausha: yes baby ?

Twan: who is Darnell ? like why yall break up ? i mean if you wanna tell me..

Sausha: Darnell was my first love. if he wasnt my first anything else he was that. when i first seen him i thought he was the finest thing thing on this Earth. i knew getting with him would be dangerous, but i didnt really care at that point. i was insecure before i met him and when we was dating cause i got bashed so much in my school years. you know people here in Oakland, California arent so nice. anyway, he i guess helped me realize my beauty and that i shouldnt listen to other poeple on what they say to me. i loved him i really did, with all of me.

Twan: if yall loved eachother why didnt yall make the sh.t work instead of losing something good ?

Sausha: exactly. i thought he loved me, but he didnt. one day i got off early and i went home cause i lived with him. his car was in the driveway so i wanted to surprise him. i walk in and he isnt downstairs. getting to the point. i walked in on him and a gir having s*x. she was riding him. we started arguing and he was telling me to calm down and all the other petty sh.t.  i told him i was leaving and he told me i wasnt and i better be there when i get back. he said something like why would i want someone fat and ugly and a whole bunch of other mean things. when he left i waited 15 mintues, packed my sh.t and left him. havent seen him since then.

Twan: damn. i would never do you like that. Sausha you are beautiful and imma make you see it. imma put my all in this relationship.

Sausha: yeah. thats what he said.

Twan: well im not him and i keep my word. forget him now ma i wouldnt let anybody hurt you. even though we only known eachother for some weeks. i feel like i dont know. its crazy aint no woman made ya boy feel like this. your something special to me Sausha.

Antwan POV

'this girl is special. something about her makes me i dont even know. makes me feel something different in me. like im not always my hard, cold-hearted self. maybe this is the girl that mama said would eb the one for me. said she'll make me feel different, take me out my comfort zone. i dont wanna take this relationship fast though. i wanna make sure the way im feeling is real and that she always gonna be there.'

Sausha: your special to me too Antwan.

Twan: i know Sausha, i know.