E/LENA

CHAPTER NINE

As Elena got into her room, sulkily she thrown her body on her bed. Her mind is in chaos, for the revelation was caught her off guard, as the thoughts of possibilities started, to flood on her mind.

“What would I do?” Elena, whispered in despair.

Elena had a bit knowledge about multiple personality, for she had read a book about it, that she never thought that she, herself would have that illness.

“Then it means, I must have something to do with my past that I didn’t know.” Elena conclude.

And a sudden flash of blurred memories appeared in her mind, it was a girl crying and she can hear the pain on the girl’s voice as she cry, but she can’t see it.

A jolt of pain on Elena’s head stopped the memories, but somehow, after hearing the girl’s cry, it made her furious at the same time she can feel that her heart is getting rip, making a tear scape on her eyes.

Elena waited the pain on her head subside and while waiting, she thought of what she would do, for she can’t have herself ending up deciding rush just to scape again.

She didn’t want to see her or hear her Aunt Elle blaming herself and being extremely worried again, for she knows Her Aunt Elle has her own personal problems to deal with, and she don’t want to be a burden anymore.

“I don’t want to be scared anymore and just  to scape. This time I want to be strong.” Elena told to herself as she thought about the times she had tried to escape, just to avoid getting herself to face the things she must face.

And she thought it might help her to answer the questions that she was dying to get answers, for she can’t still believe the memories of dead people on her memories and nightmares. And she will just treated it as might be a cause why she had that illness like what she read on the book.

She knows that what happened to her when she was a child, it made her extremely traumatized and she must know what happened to her, to cure her illness.

“Okay…” Elena said after decided and the pain on her head, gone.

Getting up from her bed and took herself outside her room, to checked the living room if Dr. Monte is still there.

Elena saw Dr. Monte is still in the living room while having a serious conversation with Ms. Estrella, that they didn’t notice Elena’s arrival.

Clearing her throat, Elena took the adults attention, that made Ms. Estrella stand up from her seat and rush to her, while eyeing Elena worriedly.

“Oh…Gi, Elena! Are you alright!?” Ms. Estrella said while rushing to Elena and embraced her tightly.

“Hmm…I’m sorry, I made you worried again.” Elena apologize as a guilt kick in when she saw the worry on Ms. Estrella and turn to Dr. Monte who was also standing up, while staring at her.

“I-I’m sorry Doctor.” Elena apologize to Dr. Monte.

“Not a problem Elena, are you alright?” Dr. Monte asked in a concern voice.

Elena just nod, giving the doctor a tight smile and turn her attention to Ms. Estrella still looking at her with worried eyes, Elena also gave Ms. Estrella a smile of assurance that she is okay.

“Doctor, Aunt Elle… There’s  I want to tell you.” Elena said after a while and went to the sofa seat that she occupied a while ago with Ms. Estrella.

“What is it Elena?” Elena heard Ms. Estrella asked as they seated.

Elena withdrew a deep breath as she started to tell her secret that even her, Mommy Dan and Daddy Alfred didn’t know, her past that she never had a memory.

“I-I don’t have childhood memories, all I have was the memories of me before I met Mommy Dan and Daddy Alfred.” Elena confessed bowing her head for she didn’t want to see the adults reactions specially her Aunt Elle.

A deafening silence comes after her confession, that made Elena more nervous, but she took a courage and started to lift her head up to see the adults reactions event she didn’t want to see it.

“So, what Lena said was really true?” Ms. Estrella said breaking the silence with wide eye, while Dr. Monte seems fell into deep thoughts, but Elena saw him nod from what Ms. Estrella said, that made Elena curious.

“Who’s Lena, Aunt Elle?” Elena asked curiously for it is the first time she heard the name, and does they mean true? Elena thought.

“That is the name of your other personality, Elena.” Dr. Monte answered to Elena’s question, that made Elena brows knotted in confusion and eyed Dr. Monte with a confusion.

“We met your split personality yesterday, after I found you in the hallway, I took you to the clinic, that’s where Eleanor arrived after I called her telling that you have collapse.” Dr. Monte start stating to explain what happened to Elena.

“We we’re talking after, Eleanor see your state, when we heard your voice, but you are completely different from her, and I know that time that the Elena infront of us wasn’t you, for that’s not the first time I met Lena, your split personality.” Dr. Monte continued that made Elena more confused.

“W-What does it mean, yesterday wasn’t the first time?” Elena asked completely confused.

“I also met your split on your first appointment Elena,” Dr. Monte stated “remember when you passed out after getting extremely anxious?”

Elena nod as a response to Dr. Monte’s question, as she recall the  first day of her appointment with Dr. Monte.

“Lena come out after you passed out, just like what happened to you yesterday.” Dr. Monte said.

“I figured that your split personality, is triggered after you passed out whenever you feel an extreme anxiousness.” Dr. Monte continued.

“Then does it mean the Lena who already told you about my missing memories, was my split personality?” Elena asked confirming, that Dr. Monte immediately confirmed.

How did my split personality knows, when she herself, don’t. Elena thought to herself.

“Can I asked what Lena, my split personality, look like?” Elena asked curiously to Dr. Monte “I mean what is her personality look like?”

“Your split, has a cold eyes, and mischievous smile. She is playful, rude but can also be cold whenever she heard something she didn’t like.” Dr. Monte described to Lena.

A memory from her dream appeared after she heard Dr. Monte’s description about her split personality for it was the same description she remembered she saw of herself in her dream.

“Elena?” A voice of Ms. Estrella wake her from her deep thought.

After waking from her deep thought, Dr. Monte told her a few more information about Lena her, split personality.

Before, Dr. Monte left, he left a few orders and a prescription for Elena’s anxiety attacks, to make her relaxed whenever she will have an overwhelming episode of anxiety attack that can trigger Lena, her split personality to come out.

Doctor Monte stared at Elena’s house as he came outside from it, his thought are wandering about his special patient Elena.

Never in his career, he never thought that he would be encounter a such one of a kind and very rare illness like Elena has, for it was like the heaven poured out all the illnesses on Elena.

“Just what kind of childhood you had, Elena?” Dr. Monte uttered in the wind.

Thinking about his patient Elena, he was aware that the kid, was just trying to be okay. He can saw it in Elena’s eyes and seeing Elena trying to be okay, and cooperating, made him admire the child. For it is not easy to think rationally in that state.

And thinking about what happened, Dr. Monte felt the urge of desire to help Elena with all of the medical techniques that he knows as a doctor.

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Weekend ends, Elena decided to attend school, Ms. Estrella let Elena to come to school for they got the pill that Dr. Monte prescribe if ever Elena’s anxiety attacks.

Elena was on her way her classroom when she saw a students giving something to the students on the hallway she’s taking.

Elena didn’t have a plan take some of the students was giving in the hallway and was about to continue when a female student who is wearing a harry potter eye glasses handed her the paper their giving.

“School paper?” The student who seem on her senior year said smiling while handing Elena a school paper.

Elena didn’t know what to do, and just timidly took the school paper and bowed as a thanks, the female student and hurriedly took a pace towards her classroom.

“I don’t really like sudden approaches.” Elena whispered as she got on her table in the their classroom and decided to put the school paper she received in her bag.

Elena fixed her seat when their teacher arrives, and her classes goes on until she heard the school bell ringed, that only indicates that her classes for this morning has ended.

Taking her bag, Elena went outside of their classroom quietly, while her classmates are having fun chatting about what they will going to eat for lunch.

Elena arrived her favorite spot of the university, where she can be alone, without hearing students gossiping and insulting comments about her.

Taking what Ms. Estrella made her for lunch, Elena silently ate her lunch while savoring the cool  breeze of the wind in the green house garden.

Elena was about to take her last bite when a male voice spoke behind her making her startled, and saw that it was a male student standing wearing a university jersey jacket of their tennis club.

“Why are you here always alone?” The man asked making Elena awe by the student’s question.

Elena didn’t how to react by the student’s sudden appearance and question. A chuckle suddenly filled inside the garden.

“Relax…I won’t harm you,” the student said “I was just curious, because I always seeing you here always alone, so I decided approach you.”

The student explained, after seeing Elena stilled and didn’t even react like she was caught of doing something secretly.

Elena stared at the student infront of her, and realize that the student isn’t from her department, for the student infront of her is wearing a tennis club jersey of their university college department that the building was just located near the green house garden.

“So can I asked what are you doing here always alone?” The student asked again.

“I-I just like t-to be here, no r-reasons.” Elena stuttered as she answered the student’s question, for she can feel nervous again like everytime she will meet someone she didn’t knew.

Elena saw the student nod and started to take a step closer to her, making Elena flinch nervously and step back, that made the male student chuckle again by her actions and stop.

“Sorry…” the male student apologized and stare at Elena that is currently looks so nervous.

“Be at ease, Miss… I won’t harm you, don’t worry, I just want to join there.” The male student said, pointing the sit just across Elena’s seat.

Elena calm herself and stare at the male student who looks like just waiting for her go signal. Elena suddenly felt embarrass by the way she reacted.

But she, herself can’t even help it. It was like her body was programmed to be uneasy, nervous and even anxious to the people around her, specially to those whom she just met.

“S-Sorry… Y-You can s-seat there.” Elena said stutter, pertaining to the seat that the male student pointed.

Elena saw the male student smiled at her and slowly approach the seat across her seat.

“Are you done eating?” the man asked while looking at her lunch box, that has the food that she was about to eat before the male student arrived.

“Can I have it?” The male student asked suddenly made Elena stilled and eye the male student in awe from he asked.

“That cordon bleu is my favorite, that’s why.” The male student explained smiling while scratching her forehead with his left pointing finger.

“I-Is it okay? T-That’s already my l-left over.” Elena said hesitatingly if she’ll give the left overs in her lunch box..

“Not, a prob.” The male student said smiling making Elena nod after a while of hesitation, as a signal that the male student can’t have it.

“Nice! Thank you!” The male student said in glee taking the cordon bleu in her lunch box that has only few, happily.

“By the way, I’m Leonel Vargas.” The male student introduced after swallowing the first cordon bleu he ate.

“E-Elena…” Elena introduced herself as well.

“Nice to meet you, Elena.” The male student said before taking his second cordon bleu in his mouth and smiled at her while he seem enjoying the food he’s eating.