"Come here, Wooyoung."
"I'm coming.."
Wooyoung boredly opened his door and made his way down the stairs and into the lounge where his father was sitting.
"Yes?"
"Could you please make a salad for tonight's dinner?"
"Yeah, sure."
He went to the fridge to grab the things he needed. Olives, lettuce, cucumbers, tomatoes, onions and apples. He went to the kitchen, set everything down on the counter ready to wash it all off and grabbed the sugar, salt and vinegar from the cupboard along with some pepper. He washed off the ingredients and grabbed a knife and cutting board. Around five to ten minutes later, he was done.
"I'm done."
"Thanks. I'll go prepare the rest of the food in a few minutes."
Wooyoung went off to his room to continue with whatever he was doing. He closed and locked his door again and sat down at his desk. While getting his laptop out, he saw a picture of him, his mom and his dad together. He remembered how happy they were, but this picture brought back a horrible memory too. The suicide of his mother.
[10 years ago]
"I found her."
"Take us there." The father demanded.
They walked through branches and ducked and climbed over some too before they got to her. With every step, the father had a worse feeling than the one before. He knew he was going to find her dead. Somehow he knew. Maybe it was because of her previous suicide attempts. It's not only that though. She seemed on edge for the last few days and whenever someone would try to help her, she'd deny the fact that something very serious was going on. It wasn't just her mental health issues or childhood abuse that made her this way. It was something much worse. Yet no-one knew. She was too scared to tell anyone. The only person (other than Wooyoung's mother) who knew about what she was hiding from everyone, was her enemy. Finally, they arrived at the site. She was there. Pale, emotionless. Dead and hanging. Wooyoung came out from behind his father and looked at his mother. Her face was full of tears. Now dry tears, but still, tears none-the-less. The young boy, only 6 at the time, didn't understand what was happening.
"Mommy? What's wrong?"
Silence.
"How are you doing that? I wanna fly too!"
His father sighed as he tried as hard as he could to hold his tears back. His efforts were of no use. Tears fell uncontrollably. Wooyoung couldn't understand why his mother wasn't responding and as a result grew frustrated.
"Mommy? Why aren't you saying anything?"
"Son.. She's gone. She's not going to speak. She can't speak"
"What do you mean? She's not gone, she's right here! And why can't she speak?"
"She's dead, Woo..."
He walked up to his hanging mother, tears slowly rolling down his face, one after the other.
"Why?.. How?"
He tugged on her gown but there was no reaction. Now he knew for sure. She wouldn't say anything any time soon.
[present]
Wooyoung sighed and put his laptop on his desk to start with his English assignment. He had to write an essay about his most traumatic experience. It was due in two weeks, but he decided to start now and get it over and done with so that he wouldn't have to think about it until he had to read it to the teacher for assessing. It took him about 2 hours before he finished it. Well, about 2 and a half hours since he had to eat as well. Once he finished, he went onto the chat room he made with his friends to check if anyone was awake. To his disappointment,, none of them were, so he decided to get ready for bed. He went to the bathroom to shower and brush his teeth. Then he got into his pajamas, jumped into bed and drifted off to sleep. Every night, he had these weird dreams. Dreams of wolves. Of the moon. The forest, too. He often revisits the same dream. He'd rarely have a nightmare about his mother's suicide. He still didn't understand why she did what she did. What he does know, is that she was hiding something big, and that she always looked troubled. She was always scared. Very jumpy. Whenever they went out in public, she always looked around. It was like she knew something was gonna happen, or like she thought someone was going to grab her. She was always highly paranoid. Making sure to lock every door, gate, window and even the cellar door. Always making sure the blinds and curtains were closed. She even locked her own bedroom door and made Wooyoung lock his when everyone went to bed. At one point, she even had cameras, security lights, alarms, multiple panic buttons, a safe room and police watching at night. Wooyoung knows his father knew at least some of what was happening, and he's asked about it before, but all his father responded with was, "I'll tell you when you're ready." but when is ready for him? When will Wooyoung be ready to know the truth? Will his father actually tell him? Is his father actually the man he thinks he is? Or is it just a mask? He's been asking himself these same exact questions for years. He never understood why his father couldn't just tell him what the f**k was going on. He knew his father kept many things away from him, but at the same time, he knew it was small, unimportant things. He pushed those to the side, he'd learn about all that later. What he was really curious about, was the big lies and the secrets his father hides. There are secrets in the forest, too. There are still so many things he doesn't know about it. It's sinister past. The reason people kept going missing, and, in most cases, killing themselves there. The reason people stopped going there, despite it's natural, alluring beauty. He always found himself being pulled -lured- towards the forest. He loved it in there. It felt safer than his home, even. He was able to be himself. He was able to freely express his feelings - his anger, sadness and frustration- without being judged, he could listen to music as loud as he wanted without being yelled at, he could do whatever he wanted. He went there mostly to get as much of his feelings out as possible, but it rarely works these days. He's become more numb to the things that are happening around him. All that gives him joy now is music and his friends. His father has noticed this, and it worries him. This is exactly what happened to his wife. All she could feel was fear. She was completely absorbed by fear. She was terrified of being alone, being in highly packed places and even partially deserted places where there weren't many people. She was even scared in her own home. Wooyoung's father has asked her many times what was going on, but she had only given him half a story. In her words, she'd explained that there was something special in her family's genes, and that someone had been after her specifically for reasons she wouldn't say. She'd also mentioned the full moon and the forest, but he hadn't seemed to understand. Everything she'd said was a dead giveaway to him. Intentionally. But she was being cautious. She'd also said that the person chasing after and blackmailing her is dangerous and doesn't work alone. That he'd killed some of her family. Her fear had been reasonable. He grew more worried each passing day, as his wife was becoming a completely different person who's world was now only fear. His son might not be becoming engulfed, or, for lack of better words (and for use of simpler words), swallowed by fear, though what he was being trapped by was far worse than fear. Numbness can be a dangerous thing, pain much more so, but the two combined? It sounds impossible, you know? To be numb but in pain. But it is very much possible. More possible than you think. To explain it better, it's like, basically not being able to express much emotion towards certain events, yet always being in pain. Not physically, but emotionally and mentally. It's like being in so much pain that you just can't feel it anymore. It torments you, an it eventually gets to a point where you start to engage in harmful activities to feel something, and to distract yourself from other things. Smoking, self harm, drinking, drugs... There are many ways to distract oneself. All harmful, but nobody thinks of that. All they think of is the fact that it distracts. Others find a permanent solution to temporary problems. Suicide. Drowning yourself, overdose, cutting yourself up, hanging yourself, jumping off a bridge or a tall building, stabbing yourself, jumping into a volcano (it's been done before), poisoning yourself, setting yourself on fire, driving your car into the ocean, intentionally crashing your car and so on. Suicide is quite common and can be achieved in many ways. Self electrocution? Maybe. Letting your own car drive over you? I'll stop there. I'm pretty sure you get the picture. Wooyoung has thought of it himself. He thought, maybe he could get this all to just stop if he ended it himself. But he didn't want to leave his father and friends behind. So instead of that, he hurts himself so he can focus on physical pain instead of his self-destructive thoughts. Not even his father knows about it. All he says is, "I'm just cold" and that's apparently convincing enough for his father. As for his friends, not so much. They know something's going on, but they brush it off as a weird feeling because Wooyoung is always so playful and cheerful around them. It is close to winter anyways. But even then, San had a really odd feeling and he had a hard time shaking it off as "just me imagining things". He's only ever seen Wooyoung with short sleeves once since 6 years ago, and even then, he wouldn't let anyone see his arms. He kept rubbing them, crossing them, putting them to his side and even behind his back all day. San and Yeosang both struggled to brush it off. They actually spoke about it recently, and they want to talk to everyone else in their friend group before they do anything to make sure they're all on the same page. They were going to do so tomorrow after school. Of course, they would do it when Wooyoung wasn't there. They knew about a few things that went on in his life, which made them suspect more was going on behind the scenes than what they saw. Wooyoung got bullied a lot in his early teens, and still gets bullied even now. He was nearly killed in a drive-by but his uncle protected him and got shot instead. His father started drinking more for a reason Wooyoung hasn't mentioned. Sometimes his dad would lash out and say hurtful things that, yes, maybe he didn't mean, but it still hurt Wooyoung because he feels like it's true. His father sometimes calls him a mistake, tells him he's nothing, calls him weak, pathetic and useless and even brings up his mother sometimes. Everyone in the friend group knows this, they just don't know what Wooyoung means by "bringing his mother up" but they suspect it must've been a divorce or something. When he was around 9, he watched his aunt die in a hospital bed after they turned her life support off. When he was 10, he went through physical and emotional bullying, and he still goes through it 6 years later. He had a step mother at some point who was put in jail for attempted murder, and another step mother who got into a car accident and passed away. The rest of Wooyoung's friends also had really rough pasts. Abuse, foster home to foster home, bullying and so on but we'll get into that later. Everyone has had something bad happen to them in the past, and if not, something will surely happen in the future. Be it a small accident or a near death situation. Maybe a loved one passing away or even something as small as a broken hand. Nobody can say they're really truly happy. Everyone is either a little sad, mildly sad or really really sad. Like close to depression sad. There are different levels of sadness, and while the worst sadness may be hard to hide, its also hard to detect. People are strange like that. They seem to notice someone's slight pain or sadness rather than straight up depression or severe pain. When people try to open up about being really down or depressed, it's always brushed off as a "phase", especially in their teen years when they're going through many different personalities, style changes and tastes in music. Then come suicide, people are like "Oh, I wish we could've seen the signs and helped them" or "If only we'd known. If only we'd payed more attention and been there for them." but really, most of the time they're only saying it to fit in or to make people believe that they didn't just push that person aside. It's really funny, too. Y'know, when someone who has been really damaged and has a thousand knives in their back and they go unnoticed, yet when someone has one or two in their back, they're easily and quickly noticed by everyone. Many people experience it in different ways. One thing people need to remember about this world is, it's someone you know who is your biggest hater, and some stranger who is your biggest supporter. Well, that's the case most of the time. Wooyoung knew this. But he also knew he could trust his friends. His friends knew they could trust him. They trust each other and care for each other. They understand that everyone has different hardships and different sensitivity levels and reactions toward those hardships.
Wooyoung always told his friends about his odd dreams. He explained to his friends that he keeps having these weird dreams about wolves and the moon, and he's trying to figure out what it means, but he just can't. Now, as I'm explaining this, he's in the middle of a deep, deep sleep, and in the middle of one of those dreams, too. Let me explain what exactly goes on. Just a summary. You already know, there's wolves and the moon. It happens at night, obviously. And it's full moon. Lot's of howling and growling. Snarling, too. But it's weird because Wooyoung imagines, well, dreams of himself... transforming? Taking the form of a wolf. Not just any wolf, though. He's a massive one. I'm talking like two times the size of your average wolf. Maybe, just maybe, three or two and a half times that size. Not only that, though. He's huge, yes, but you do get huge wolves. His fur is pitch black. And on top of that, he has red eyes. Oh good, great! Absolutely f*****g marvelous. His teeth were like razor blades, too. That's not an exaggeration. I mean razor f*****g blades. Again, razor blades. One more time. Razor. Mother. f*****g. Blades. And you think it stops there? Ha, nope. His claws? His f*****g claws? Get caught by that and it's over, buddy. It doesn't stop there either. He has the strength of about 50 or even more full grown ass men. Again, that's not an exaggeration. He's scared of that version of him. I mean, his nightmare version. In this nightmare, he tears multiple people apart. And I mean he bloody shreds them. Then he wakes up and that's it. Weird, right? Well, what's even weirder is that his friends have started having almost the exact same dreams. Hongjoong, Yunho, Mingi, Jongho, San, Yeosang and Seonghwa. They all had different colour fur and eyes. It made literally no god damned sense. It was normal to have dreams or nightmares like that, but every f*****g night?? Give me a break. That's not normal. And it all surrounds that forest, too. Starts in that forest and ends in that forest. They've all been weirdly drawn to that forest recently and it's starting to freak them out. They're trying to figure out if those dreams have any meaning and they've been researching it for a while, yet so far they've found close to nothing. All they've found so far was some articles on werewolves and mysterious maulings in the forest. One specialist said that, a regular wolf can't possibly do that to a person, despite what others think and how aggressive wolves can be. It wasn't normal. Especially the amount of new victims found every full moon. There is so far only one person known to survive an attack, but they couldn't describe what it looked like. Another article that they read on werewolves said "Werewolves come in many shapes and sizes. They can have odd eye colors, too. Ranging from just your regular blues and brown-yellows to full on blood red, purple, crimson, yellow and orange. Werewolves can be brown, black, white, grey and a mix of black and brown depending on which area it is, or depending on what rank you're dealing with. All werewolves can achieve different strength levels, whether they're in the same pack and ranking group or not. You can get Betas who are much stronger than their Alphas. The different wolf rankings you can get are your plain average werewolf, The common, the omega, the beta, the alpha and the true bloods. Your average werewolves are normally the smallest of all, almost the same size as a normal wolf. They're only a little bigger. Then you have your common wolves that are higher in rank and most times bigger than your average ones. Then you get your omega. The males are very rare have beautiful blue eyes with white fur and can bear children. Omegas are beautiful werewolves but they are often looked down upon as they are males and others think males shouldn't be able to bear kids. Your female omegas have green eyes with white fur and aren't as attractive as males, but they're still beautiful. Then you get to your betas. They are higher in rank than omegas and are most times bigger than them. They are normally cheeky and arrogant, but you do get a few smarter ones. They're almost always competitive. Especially against higher ranks. They tend to ignore lower ranks even though they can sometimes be stronger than them. Then you get to your Alpha. This is normally the highest rank in a pack. They lead it. They have grey fur and purple eyes. They are really aggressive and its hard for alphas to mate with each other due to their dominance. In most cases, an alpha will die in the mating process. This is because of how dominant alphas are, which results in fighting and serious injury, a chance of a miscarriage/unsuccessful mating and in most cases, death caused either by the female or male depending on who's stronger. They are easily triggered and have a short fuse, especially when it comes to dealing with betas. Then you get your highest known rank in any wolf pack. True bloods. They're extremely rare and they're gorgeous, too. They are the spawn of two alphas that have successfully mated. This is why true bloods are the most rare of all ranks. Due to this, they are normally hidden from any of the other pack members depending on how aggressive/competitive the pack members are, and they're almost always kept secret from any humans. This is mainly due to the fact that, because of the beauty of true bloods, humans like to hunt and skin them to use for coats and other forms of clothing or household items such as a rug. Though true bloods are the highest in rank, the Alpha will still lead the pack until death. Only then can the True blood take over until there is a new Alpha for the pack. But remember, no matter your rank, you can still be stronger than someone above you. Hell, a regular werewolf can be stronger than a true blood. Regular werewolves have orange or yellow eyes. Commons mostly have crimson eyes. Your omegas, as you already know, are white with blue or green eyes, depending on gender. And not only can the males have babies, they also have a special smell. This is normally what attracts other males (or females) to them, which of course leads to mating. Male omegas are normally kicked out of their packs, though. This is because their pack is ashamed of them. Male Omegas often don't care about sexuality or rank. And in most cases, the wolf that impregnated any Omega will be thrown out the pack with them. This is what leads to Rogues. Anyway, moving to female omegas. There's also something special about them. They can change their eye and fur color to hide from enemies. In most packs, and even among loners, people think that any rank higher than an omega is dangerous and that from omega down you can't be harmed, but that's the mistake that gets you killed. Omegas are deadly. Much more so than what people think. As for male omegas, they're kinda screwed. Their scent and beautiful, vibrant blue eyes are very easy to see and smell. (No, you can't see the smell and you cant smell their eyes.). Normally, female omegas protect the males. Then you have your betas. Annoying as hell. They are the more likely rank to get themselves killed. Alphas and true bloods prefer loners and rogues over betas as they (the betas) are really competitive. They don't give a s**t if you're stronger or ranked higher than them, they'll still try to take you on and it's really painfully annoying. Even if you beat them in fair combat, they'll still try to fight you again. They normally have black eyes and brindle fur. Your Alphas have purple eyes (as you already know) and their fur colors can vary. Their fur can look like the beta's, omega's, common's or regular's. Their eyes are what stand out. Along with that, they have a black streak all along their back. It's really beautiful. This is where the True bloods get their black fur from. Their red eyes are still a mystery though. As you know, true bloods are a breed of Alpha with Alpha, which is of course very rare. Their black fur, red eyes and huge size is what makes them the most intimidating, but they can be small too. They are also most times easily aggravated, and if they've been angered they're not likely to stand down. Especially when their opponent is competitive. This is why Beta's and True Blood's hate each other with every part of them. Well, most of the time anyway. All werewolves are weak at a stage, but in their late teens to early adulthood and up, they're all strong as hell, so if you cross paths with a werewolf, it's better to stand down and don't try to be funny and joke around by threatening it. You will regret it. I don't mean live to regret it, since you'll be a little dead. You know what I mean. Though, some people just don't listen.. See, people like to hunt down these beautiful beasts and skin them as their skin costs quite a fortune. Sometimes they even get their heads taxidermized and keep them in their household often hanging on the wall as a trophy. Most of the time though, poachers and hunters never succeed and by the next day, there's a few new missing persons reports and posters around. So clearly you shouldn't f**k with werewolves but you know, if you're dumb you have to pay the price. Karma really is beautiful.