Santa Monica

Pregnancy

There's a funny thing about flying eventually you fall. we flew for a couple days so high we didn't feel like falling anytime soon. We flew I ended up painting I ended up discovering new things about Astro. An as we flew, we realized that we love each other. We had s*x a couple times in between but I'll spare you the details as we fell, we fell into a sleep we slept for at least three days when we woke up Astro ran to the bathroom throwing up, she was never good at recovering from these things. I glanced over towards the bathroom feeling queasy myself as I heard her getting out of bed and throwing on some pants. I messed with my brown Moby hair putting it back into a bun. Looking at the boy in the mirror I look different I felt different.

Maybe Astro felt different at the same time this was the moments that we cherish before we found out. Astro came out of the bathroom a couple days after saying “we should have been more careful what are we going to do” my eyes went towards her, but I didn't understand what she meant “what do you mean” I say putting on a tiny smile. “I'm pregnant” she says I brush my fingertips through my hair trying to revel in this moment I take a deep breath rolling my shoulders back. “it's nothing we can't deal with. You'd be an amazing mother.” I say my eyes going over her. As we pondered these thoughts for a couple minutes and stayed in silence we glance back and forth from each other.

“Do you really think either of us are ready for that type of commitment?” she asked me to putt on a smile on her face. I nod my head that's about all I can do. “This all depends on you what you want to do. Yes, I can tell you to keep the baby or getting abortion, but it all depends on what you really want to do.” I say trying not to push her one way or the other. “I feel like it would be more helpful if you wanted to keep it or if you wanted me to get an abortion. This is both of our choices.” she says crossing her hands over her chest. “It is both of our choices, and both of our choices made this decision, I believe that we should keep it. I believe that we are ready for this step in our life. Maybe one day we'll even get married.” he says with a smile on his face and nods his head.

That morning we both seem quiet and in our own heads going about day-to-day life as if nothing has happened, I make breakfast for the both of us but we both eat in separate quarters of the house. I believe she was debating it debating the choices that she's making. She's always debating stuff inside her head as if it was the right choice or as if it was the wrong choice. Until she comes up with her firm choice. although I believe a child would do both of us good now. It would mean both of us sobering up for a while. It would mean both of us caring about a child more than we care about ourselves center drug habit.

It's just amazing how life throws you something like this suddenly, I think about some amazing how life sometimes gives you lemons when it's in the middle of a hurricane. Precious moments like this shouldn't be taken for granted precious moments like this should be thought through a lot more. I believe both of us do want kids one day me and her I believe we do want kids together as well. I believe it would be an amazing choice for us to have kids together I wonder if it would look like her with her eyes and maybe have blonde hair. Blonde curly hair? David looks amazing one in it. It would get both of our music choices.

By the middle of the afternoon, I was called in to the kitchen by Astro to discuss having the kid we decided to keep the kid after all. Astro wants to have the baby even if she puts it up for adoption, she doesn't believe in having an abortion. I believe the same I don't believe we should be having an abortion. Maybe putting the baby of her in adoption would be best but I so raising the baby with extra would be beautiful. Raising the baby with Astro would be amazing getting to see Astro grows a person because of this because of our little mistakes that we've had. I wonder if she's going to tell Juliana first or her brother? I'm going to have to tell my dad about this I'm going to have to leave out the drug part though. Hopefully he will understand.

so, when life gives you lemons in a hurricane what would you do?