Santa Monica

Jasper part three

Jasper means he spent a good portion of freshman year cheating and hopping relationships just to move on to the next person and then cheat again. He didn’t think he was really in love with any of those females though. Maybe he was in love with Astro at the time but how him and Astro have been he doubts that they’d ever fix things again.

Jasper and arabela texted for awhile before Jasper went and locked himself in his studio Jasper saying he was sorry that arabela had to find out through him. Jasper thought about maybe he was turning a new leaf maybe he was becoming a different man. Maybe he was becoming a better man? He started working on his paintings. They were all becoming very dark more like his brother alexanders art. His muse had shifted it wasn’t a love muse anymore.

His muse had gone an come within the next month throughout dates and sleeping with arabela. She wasn’t the type to hold his muse. She didn’t have the fire inside of her to be able to be the artist muse that he needed. She seemed to more be a homebody not get into fights. He had brought her to a party and they had initiated her into his friend group by giving her a drug. And even then she seemed still to be boring.

Jasper couldn’t keep his mind from racing back and forth between Astro in between doing the right thing anymore. So one late night he had texted Astro and she had texted back. She made a joke about how he moved on to arabela and how he didn’t seem very happy nowadays. He didn’t seem happy because it wasn’t Astro it wasn’t his fire it wasn't his being putting it in him.

He remembered within this conversation that he admitted that Astro was his artist muse and had always been his artist muse. He had jumped from female to female trying to find Astro within the females. He never found a better artist muse within that time. He admitted that to her.

All he remembered from that night was that Astro had to come over and they had found each other all over again from the night that they found each other between those sheets many months ago. Though this time they had found each other between his art studio. Showing her his art showing her what he saw in her. The bits and pieces all the blue outlines in every single one of his art pieces. He loved Astro and blue.

When Astro asked about the black pieces. He said he figured he loved arabela and black she was not the type of person to love up close choose the type to love far away. Should be more of a trophy wife with an inner demon. Astro laughed about that something about it found in inner peace inside of her. Jasper could see it edged on her face.

Was it the fact that Jasper didn’t love her? Was it the fact that Jasper couldn’t love Arbella?

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