Wolf Wrongs

People always ask

I don't tell many people I'm a wolf, but when I do the reaction is always the same.

Shock.

Judgement.

Curiosity.

Once they've reached curiosity, they fire millions of questions at me, the most common?

"Does it hurt?"

At that point I end up laughing hysterically, before stopping abruptly and asking them:

"Does breaking every bone in my body hurt? What do you think?"

This will normally silence them and they will let me on my way... Away from them.

In truth, I am rather dulled to the once excruciating pain of transformation, the trick is to tell yourself:

"It doesn't hurt, it just feels weird"

I have told myself this so many times I think I believe it. But what else can I do?

Another common question is:

"Do you think like a human?"

To which the answer is a straight up no, there are still human aspects, but you have dumbed down a lot in wolf form. Your feelings drive your actions instead of your rationality. The wolf inside of me does try and jump out at every moment possible and sometimes in human form I find myself transforming without giving the wolf me permission.

My father tries to teach me to stop this, but he has no idea. This isn't a normality in wolf society, but then what is?

"Cara! Get down here! You're parent's will be home soon." Auntie Mae, not a wolf, sounds hurried and in a panic, so I can only guess that Abbi, my snake, has escaped her cage and gone on a tour of the dining room. Auntie Mae is not a fan of Abbi and on several occasions has jokingly threatened to turn her into a bag handle, she says it's hard living with a family who keep a snake.

Auntie Mae is leaving tomorrow, I really don't care, we have never been close.

After helping Mae return the snake to its luxury pen, I call up Celia who promised to 'hook me up' with an old friend of hers, "Madeline" who is apparently "my future soul mate!" I don't let on to Celia, but I am really nervous to meet Madeline in all the pictures I've seen she looks super hot and way out of my league!

Celia knows I am a wolf, not many do, not even Auntie Mae. Any girlfriends I've had have never known about my, furry situation. And my family have never known about my girlfriends, I don't want to tell them that I love girls, many people may have accepted homosexuality in human society, but wolves, not so much. The packs think humans are too domesticated and this is why they fall for one of their own gender. But I am no where near domestic and I have a similar disposition. I fear that if I "come out of the closet" I will be cast out by wolfish society and I don't think my family would care. They prefer my brother to me anyway, but I think I'm okay with that, it's not like they can help liking Gex above me anyway. It's instinct, something they have an abundance of.

I frown to myself and punch Celia's number into my phone.

"Cara" Celia said seriously.

"Celia" I reply feigning the same level of solemnity.

"This is serious!" she yells "I can feel you mocking me... Cara?"

"Yes" I reply, snapping myself out of my silly mood and calming myself, I don't know why, I always get in trivial moods when Celia and I talk.

"I am meeting Maddy this weekend. And you are coming."

"Sure" I say calmly whilst buzzing inside.

"Kay, we are going shopping, yes, remember to bring your brother!" Celia always insists on this, I am pretty sure she has the hots for him. But my brother definatley likes Celia!

"Sure, I'll bring Gex, then you guys can chat whilst Maddy and I do. It'll be like a double date." I add in, grinning to myself.

"What!" Celia explodes, "No, that's not what I meant at all"

"Denial!" I sing down down the phone before hanging up.