Lost in the Dream

Loop

One

It hurts every day, the absence of someone who was once there.

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A year ago, I would've never guessed life would be the way it is now.

All I just wish is to fast-forward time to see if it's all worth it in the end. To see if this endless pain will have its end.

I wanted to cry and scream and let it all out because it's killing me inside.

They told me I was lucky for surviving such a horrendous accident. When I woke up in the hospital, I wished everything was just some twisted dreams.

I'll wake up and Mom will ask if I get enough sleep while Dad will nag for wasting much time.

I always tell them how much I love them. I was never ashamed of showing my affection towards my parents. I may be a grown-up man but I still kiss them and tell how much I'm thankful that they're my parents.

The most painful part?

Our last goodbye was never said.

Everything happened so fast I didn't see it coming. There are so many things I want to tell them but they were taken away from me in a blink of an eye.

After the accident, life went on but it was never the same again.

I wake up in the middle of the night crying for them.

"I know the past and I've seen the future."

If Dad has seen the future why he stop the accident when he knew it will happen?

If they love me why did they leave me alone when they know I can't live without them?

I wished to turn back time but I don't know where or how to find them.

I keep getting lost.

Instead of going back to the time before the accident happens, I found myself in different timelines.

I keep finding myself being caught up in my friends' timelines and their own tragedies.

In the end, I always find myself on this train like I'm in a loop.

This time, though, I'm on a beach. I've been here before, I'm sure of that.

"I really love this place." Mom smiled, "I'm really happy whenever we go on a picnic like this. It warms my heart."

"Your Mom is being sentimental again." Daddy jokes.

Mom elbowed him, making him grunt. Mom started running when Dad chase her.

My smile slowly disappears as the memory fades into thin air.

"One! Look what I found!" I look to my left and found Koa holding a big crab in his hands.

"What the f**k? Where did you get that? I'll catch one, too!" Theo exclaimed excitedly.

The two of them run to the shore and started digging something. Gideon and Malkiel joined them, too.

"Am I the only adult here?!" Sweven grunts while setting up the table. "Why am I with these idiots?!"

"Hey, I'm here. Come on, let me help you." Martell told him.

A loud explosion caught my attention. In a blink of an eye, I'm in a different place.

An upside-down car is in front of me. Broken parts of the car and shards of glass are everywhere. I recognize the car but I refuse to believe it.

I froze on my feet when I saw blood oozes in the driver's seat.

"Theo!"

I slowly glance and found Sweven running but before he can reach the car, an explosion sent him back.