My life as a Ugandan girl

chapter 3

my life isn't easy sometimes I wonder why I always ask God why is this happening at the age of 10 that's when I realized I was alone in this world my dad was in prison because of unreasonable issues I didn't realize that it was the beginning of my suffering after my dad was in prison I said with my sister she was sick of ourselves I'll suffering it and that we had we had to pay rent buy thanks for daily use and also before her medication I had to work hard for my oldest sister to live I started working at the salon wherever I learned a lot of things I work there for half a year and I wasn't paid that's why I met a man at the age of 35 at that time I didn't think of the edge all I was thinking was the money he was to provide bought my phone bought me clothes bought me a lot of things that I appreciated you always asked for a lot of things like s*x and a lot but all I did was to neglect him he was calm he always said it's okay you will do what I say when you're willing to do that what I say after some time I decided to leave this alone I got a new job

And started working yeah I got a lot of beautiful things I started looking good that's when my dad came back out of the jail I wasn't happy because he was mistreating us but I didn't have anything to do I dodged him everyday didn't talk to him smile at him I let him be that's when I met him boy who told me a lot of things I started moving with him going out taking me for dinner taking me for swimming and a lot I enjoyed I eventually ended up having s*x with him it didn't stop there we did that for a long time after a year I found out I was pregnant I told my sister she said she was to be there for me but it was only lie I had my money so I decided first to rent a place and she agreed she didn't bring a single coin it was on my money but we had to work so I will decided to get jobs and I didn't I got a job and I left her there cuz the job I was going to be a maid at a certain place things went easy there I had to work take goats for feeding wash plates it was a big family take care of that baby and two kids the way very very hopeful to me they helped me but it didn't take away the hard work I was going through I could wake up very very early wish a lot of clothes cook wash plates mop sweep the compound carry the baby while I was pregnant heavily pregnant I had to survive cuz I didn't know where to go it took months for me going through that I was mentally unstable I was emotionally sick of everything I always thought of suicide but it wouldn't change anything this hurt me for a long time I didn't have anyone to talk to no friends no family no anything but I had survive for my baby I worked hard until when my boss said i should leave I called my sister to ask her if I could go she said we no longer have the house our landlady sent us out of the house this was my last hope but it all faded away this hearted me for over one month I cried every night thinking of where to go but I didn't know I stayed there until my boss I could stay but when it's time for delivery I should leave I decided to work hard and get money to get ready to leave at my 7th month of pregnancy things got worse I started working hard getting sick because I wasn't eating well and I was working hard I had lots of work to finish through the day things weren't going good for me the last day in my seventh month of pregnancy that's when my water broke I was taken to the hospital and I was taken to maternity section I gave birth very well after that my boss asked me where was I going but I didn't know where to go and I remembered I had my auntie where I could go so I decided to go there but I found her not in a very good way I stayed there for 5 days that's when my stepmother called and said I have a job for you can you work as a maid for sure I didn't really want to work as I maid again but I didn't have anything to do I had to work hard for my baby cuz my aunt didn't have anything to do or give me I went and started working there I found my step brother he treated me very very bad me mistreating my baby abusing her I had nothing to do because every time I talk about it his mom could say I was just making up stories to make his son look bad I don't have anyone to talk to and when I try to talk to my aunt my aunt tells my stepmom then my stepmom says I'm very bad I don't wish good for his son that hurts me but nothing to do I've worked but I'm not gaining anything I just have to work hard just to get where to sleep and what to eat things are not going good for me I wish things could change writing makes me feel well it makes me feel like I'm talking to someone but every time I think of what I'm going through just passed through me this is not good and I always pray to God and my prayer is always like this

heavenly Father today I have come kneeling and looking at you please good father I ask change from you nothing you can't do I know you bring everything for a reason but please be with me in every way for I have suffered since I was a child but I know you will rescue me from this evil and I know that you see everything that's going on and I know that this world was made by you and whatever you say will be as I walk through this world please lead me protect me guide me and my baby I don't have a lot of money but you will give me you will provide me without you I don't have passed through this that's why I always pray everything I do I pray thank you Lord for you have been my father my sister my brother my family my friend thank you Lord thank you Father thank you that you've never let me down you always have been with me made me go through the oceans and mountains through the deep and shallow through smiling and tears you've been with me thank you for your mercy thank you for your grace thank you for the precious gift of life thank you for the love thank you for this world thank you for my baby thank you for the air that I breathe cuz I know you will protect me and guide me and let me through every door and road I know that I will prosper I believe that I'll be successful just I need to be patient and patience comes from you thank you Father thank you Lord in Jesus' name I pray amen.