The Angel Within Herself

Old Friends VS New Friends.

-----2 Months Later------------------

It had been getting easier to handle school and I've actually made a few friends,but unfortunately I had lost touch with my best friend because that past year we had been apart and she was really stressed about getting straight 5's (from the 5th grade to the 9th grade our grades are from 1-5, 5 being the equivalent to an A) because she is a perfectionist and she studies really hard to get those grades. I missed her a lot because she was someone who had always been there for me and she made me feel like I could always be myself and feel normal while doing so.

My new friends were nice and seemed to understand my whole "hair situation" and seemed to be okay about it which made me feel a little bit more comfortable around them. We would sit together at lunch sometimes or hang out in our free periods between classes, but I was afraid they would get tired of me so I wouldn't bother them with my problems or my presence too much. I guess I am just not gonna find someone like my old best friend in who I could trust completely.

It's almost my 12th birthday and I actually don't know if I'm excited or not, the only reason I am truly excited is that my father was coming back home after is last mission.

My mom had been asking who I was going to invite for my birthday party, and even though I had some people in mind I was afraid they wouldn't come because I still felt like I was the outsider and like I was "disposable" for them in spite of supposedly being friends. This would never happen if I were back with my old friends and old bff, they liked me for who I was. But then again they didn't the new "me": a sick fragile girl who wore a scarf on her head and looked like a freak.

That day I went to school and, despite my worries, I delivered the invites that I had made and told my friends we were going to the movies and have dinner and that my parents would pay it all. After that I had my class and at lunch I went to sit with my brother. Alexandre was doing great at school and he has his group of best friends with whom he has been since his 5th grade, they were all very closed and I wished I would have a friendship like theirs. Even though my brother encouraged me to be with my friends I usually hanged out with him and his friends, even though i was younger than them and I got bored with their videogame talk, they would let me hang out with them a lot of times and I ended up having fun. It would be my birthday tomorrow and I was feeling very unsure about it. I didn't know why but I had a feeling like everything was going to go the wrong way, but my mom told me I was being too negative and told me not to jinx it.

I just hoped everything would be okay.