Unfortunately, it didn’t work. I sat on Yana’s couch for the next two hours deep in thought about everything, including Sterling taking me to bed. Out of pure frustration I went to the bathroom and forced out a release, expecting for the lewd thoughts to calm down, instead of being sated, they seemed to be getting worse.
I shook out my hair and let out a frustrated growl. I was hot. Too hot, I stripped off the skinny jeans and slipped on a skin hugging black skirt to match my black crop top. Then I ditched the heels since I was meeting Sterling in the forest, and wore a pair of Yana’s slip on Vans. After that I went and got a cold water out of the mini fridge and headed out. There was still about fifteen minutes before I said to meet at, but I needed to do something. Anything to distract myself from the heat flashes and naked images of Sterling in my head.
My feet hit the ground as I stepped off Yana’s porch, and already I felt something was up. All around the visiting Wulfkin and fellow Dire’s sniffed the air. Did I miss something?
“Luna!”
I turned to see a young woman who does the pack laundry running to me. Confused I tilted my head to the side. Not even noticing the person coming up from behind me. They wrapped their arms around me, and inside something seemed to crack. I was angry at this person touching me in such a familiar way, but also desired to be in this position. What the hell is going on with me?
“Get off…of me.” I said, but it came out breathy and too turned on for my liking.
“Got off my Luna!” The young Dire shouted before shifting and rushing the guy.
I nearly fell to the ground when she tackled the guy. He shifted fast and was going after her, and seeing the size difference I used my magic to throw a rock and clock him in the hind quarters to distract him.
The young woman lifted her head to the sky and let out a howl, one that was received and echoed through the village from the other Dire’s. I looked up to see the male stalking me again, and this time I was ready. I dodge and used my magic to push his body into the dirt, but I failed to see another coming up from the other direction.
“What the hell is happening?” I whispered using my magic to push everyone back at the last second.
A Dire approached me low to the ground as if he was army crawling. “I’m not going to pounce on you, Luna. I’ve been mated for a long time and am not as effected as younger males.”
“Oh, thank everything. What is going on? Why are all them trying to grab me? What did I do?” I asked him.
He let out a low growl cracking his knuckles when a wolf approached. “They are not trying to grab you, Luna! Move!”
I ran, which was a horrid idea, as the males perused me more. Getting tired from the heat flashes I couldn’t help from falling to my knees. One last effort. “Sterling!”
Hearing the Alpha’s name caused some to slightly back off. I couldn’t help it as I began to pant. I was overheating, and I couldn’t get my spirit to answer me, so I had no idea what was going on. One of the guys grabbed my wrist and yanked me up to my feet.
“Mine.” He growled out with dark eyes.
“Back off!” Then suddenly he was gone and I was wrapped up in strong arms that I recognized from the tattoos. He let out a fierce growl that sent most of the wolves running for the hills.
“Why didn’t you say that you were starting to go into Heat?” Sterling’s voice was gravely, deeper than usual which was shocking it could get any lower.
I whimpered, ‘involuntarily’ mind you. “I don’t know what’s happening to me.”
He sighed, turning to scoop me up and take me towards the pack house, his house. “How do you not know about being a wolf?”
“I had…human foster parents…” I made out as a wave of something passed through me, causing me to grip his shirt tightly in my hand.
Sterling growled. “No pup should be raised by the mundane.”
“Alpha Laken! What’s wrong with, Nevaeh?!” Yana called out, coming to his side.
He growled a little, but settled down when he saw it was only Yana. “She’s in her first Heat, but I don’t understand why it’s so intense.”
Yana looked to the ground. “Alpha? Nevaeh is over eighteen, and a…virgin. Wolves usually find their mates at sixteen, so, their first Heat is when they are still considered a pup. The adult wolves can control themselves more, but Nevaeh is an unmated virgin adult Dire. One male I talked to has found his mate and has gone through four stages of mating, but still wanted to mate Nevaeh. They don’t want to mark her, just mate her, Alpha.”
He growled, his insides screaming at him to mark and mate her so no other wolf could. “I’ve only seen this happen once before with an adult female. The males all fought to mate her, and when some were successful the female didn’t make it out of Heat before she became pregnant. That’s the goal.”
Yana gasped. “So, all those males are trying to…plant a pup in her?”
Sterling nodded. “It’s instinctual. No male is immune to it without years of experience.”
“Not even you, Alpha?” She asked, worried about her Alpha forcing her best friend, even though they were mates. A forced coupling and impregnation would not sit well with Nevaeh when she comes out of Heat. “Should I take her away?”
He looked over at her with dark eyes. “You’re not strong enough to fend off a dozen males, Yana. And the warriors I would place in charge of protecting Nevaeh wouldn’t be immune to her Heat.”
“Sterling…I’m so hot.” I whimpered out.
He let out another groan that made me think he was in pain. “You have to stop making those kinds of noises, Nevaeh. That’s…fuck! Yana, no one comes in this house! If they do, I might not be able to stop from killing them.” He growled out over his shoulder.
“Alpha Laken! Her Heat’s getting to you! Please, don’t hurt her!” Yana called out, rubbing her arms, afraid that her Alpha was too far gone.
Within a few seconds the pack house was completely empty with orders for no one to step foot in or potentially be killed. After setting me down on the couch Sterling went to get some water. I panted and fanned myself, but my skin wasn’t the only thing getting heated. In-between my legs was soaked, and I was sure if I unclamped my legs, it would be noticeable. Wolfs can smell very well. I looked over to see a box of tissues and sighed. I wanted one for the sweat on my head, taking a deep breath, I hopped up off the couch and got one.
Sterling came back to find me standing there in all my sweating glory with a tissue in hand. I looked over and instantly wanted to begin to strip off my clothes. This Heat was making me think awful things.
He set the cup on the table, but didn’t say anything for a moment or two. “I didn’t think you would go into Heat so fast without us completing the mating steps.”
“I don’t know anything. I just know I’m hot, and…well, you know. What was wrong with the pack and other wolves?” I asked downing the glass before looking back to him. To my dismay, just looking at Sterling was causing my n*****s to harden and my toes to curl.
Sterling sighed. “You’re in Heat, and it has harsh effect on unmated and even Mated young males. The instinctual desire to procreate comes out when a female goes into Heat, even if it’s not their Mate. It’s happened before where a male who has already been fully Mated goes after another female who was in Heat.”
I raised an eyebrow. “So, they all wanted to…nice.”
“Instincts cannot be changed.” Sterling said looking away.
Without thinking I took a few steps closer, watching his nostrils flare from inhaling my scent getting nearer. “What about you, Sterling? What effect does my Heat have on you, being my M ate and all?”
He shook his head. “Don’t ask me things like that, Nevaeh.”
I took another step. “Why not? What’s wrong about it?”
“I’m trying really hard, Nevaeh.” He said low as his eyes went dark and his fists clenched. I recognized that look.
“Trying hard for what?” I tempted.
Sterling growled. “Stop. I’m trying to keep myself from doing things to you that will make you hate me.”
I shrugged. “Like what, Sterling?”
He shook his head. “No, Nevaeh.”
Getting frustrated, I moved to put my hair up in a messy bun, exposing my neck to him. “What’s wrong, Sterling? I thought you couldn’t stand the idea of having to be Mated to a weak creature like me?”
His growl ripped through the room, and without question, my body reacted. I leaned my head to the side to expose my throat to him. Between my thighs was slick with my need. Before I realized it, he was on me, using my hair to crane my head farther to the side. His snow and cedar scent surrounded me, clouding my mind further. It was like it was everywhere, surrounding me in its embrace.
I could hear his panting, as he tried to control himself, but I didn’t want him to anymore. This was my decision. I wanted to give myself to him, and wish to the gods and goddesses that he wouldn’t hurt me like Gordon and Devon.
Sterling’s growl was possessive, if someone were to come in and look at me he would rip them to shreds. “Tell me to leave you alone. Tell me to back off, Nevaeh. If you don’t I don’t think I’ll be able to stop.”
My voice made a noise, and I’m assuming it was not the right one. The moment it came from my mouth I felt Sterling’s fangs pierce my skin. I let out a slight cry from the initial pierce of the flesh, but then it was replaced with moans. My hand gripped his shirt tightly in my hand as I rode out the pleasure wave.
When he pulled back he shook his head, his other hand was around my waist to hold me flush against his own body. “f**k, Nevaeh…”
I hummed my ‘what?’ while I laid my head back.
He wiped his mouth and sighed. “I couldn’t stop myself…I scented and marked you.”
“It’s okay. I wanted you to.” I said blissfully.
His ears perked up at that. “What?”
I nodded, feeling the Heat coming back. Apparently, it was only sedated for a few moments from the claiming. “Yeah, it’s what I wanted to see you about tonight.”
“What changed your mind?” He asked, feeling the pull of my Heat strong against his wolf. Now that he marked me, the need to complete the process was extreme.
I didn’t want to meet his eyes. I’m sure I would c*m instantly. “Well, you.”
Sterling’s eyes swirled back dark again. His instincts were beginning to climb to the surface. “We’ve been doing nothing but pushing each other away.”
“And yet, we’ve completed all but the last stage.” I pointed out, feeling my juices starting to drip down my leg.
His jaw set at the mention of the last step. “This is just your Heat talking.”
I whimpered, which caused him to stiffen. “Let me ask you this, do you even want me as your mate? Or did you just mark me because your wolf wants me? Never mind, Sterling. I don’t want to know.”
Before he could say anything or stop me I was turned and heading towards the door. It was excruciating to run from him, all my body wanted was for him to f**k me until I couldn’t walk. It had to be the Heat, but I knew inside it wasn’t just the Heat.
“Nevaeh!”
I heard Sterling call for me, but his voice was different. Rougher, more primal. What have I done?
Behind me I could feel him coming for me, and at the speed I was sure he was in his wolf form. I was in some kind of clearing when his powerful growl caused me to stop. Something I wasn’t understanding. My body was doing things all on its own, like earlier. It was listening to Sterling, and obeying. Submitting.
I went to look for him, but my foot caught on a root and I nearly fell. Within a moment I was face to face with a massive black wolf with black eyes. Sterling’s eyes were normally green?
‘He’s going to mate you, Nevaeh. You shouldn’t have run. You caused his instincts to come out and control him. It’s not Sterling your dealing with, this is his wolf, his instincts. Prepare yourself, Nevaeh. His wolf won’t stop until your mated with him. I’m sorry.’ My spirit whispered nearly inaudibly.
‘Shit.’ I said quickly before trying to get to my feet, but after a growl from Sterling I stopped.
He leaned in to inhale my scent a few times before he was satisfied that I smelled enough like him, then his nose went lower. My body was burning up, and my mind was beginning to completely cloud over. I looked down to see Sterling’s nose close to my thigh. My eyes were glued to him, and I watched his tongue come out to lick up the trail of juices that had ran down my leg before. It didn’t help. It made my core drip more, causing a low growl to come out of his chest. I whimpered and was starting to understand.
‘Yes, Nevaeh. We’re called Omega’s by instinct since were the mate of an Alpha. He is going to attempt to submit you, and then after you submit to him completely he will mate you. The only way of stopping this is if Sterling is able to control his instincts again and push Sterling's wolf back into his mind.’
‘What if I don’t submit?’ I asked, Sterling began to circle me.
My spirit seemed so far away. ‘He will make you. If you are not careful, Sterling’s wolf will take you while you’re in your human form and mate you. Human to Dire s*x is rough and painful while in human form, I would suggest Turning or convincing his wolf to allow Sterling to have back control.’
I nodded, I was trying to keep a level head, but it was not going over well. Because inside me, was the need to have him too. I was a panting and whimpering mess. And my mate was enjoying every second of it.
(Submit, mate.) His voice growled into my ears.
I whined again, causing Sterling’s whole body to shake. “I want Sterling back.”
The wolf snorted. (He’s being too gentle with you. This Heat was meant for us. Submit.)
My center pooled into my panties, and I was sure my body was getting ready to give itself over. “I…want Sterling in control.”
The wolf growled and pushed me over. (Submit, mate!)
My muscles trembled, unsure of what he was going to do next. “Sterling. Now!”
(Afraid of me, mate?) he said teasingly before nudging my leg away from the other.
I whimpered when his head went between them. “Sterling, please.”
His tongue ran over my c**t, but my underwear was still between us. (I’ve been waiting to taste you since the day we found you in the forest.)
I let out a moan, unable to stop it. “…I’m a virgin.”
His growl was low and dangerous. (Good, we will be the only c**k you know then.)
“Don’t submit me in this form. You’ll hurt me.” I whimpered out, running my hand through the fur on his head. “Let Sterling do it.”
He licked me a few more times before taking a step back with my panties in his mouth, ripping them away from me before dropping them to the forest floor. His eyes closed, and when they opened they were that venomous green again.
I was panting, whimpering, on the ground with my legs wide open when Sterling was given control back. His growl was different than his wolf’s, that I could recognize now. He licked his lips seeing me displayed for him as he turned back to his human form.
“Sterling?” I asked, but it came out a lot more desperate sounding than I hoped.
He nodded, coming over to me. “Yeah.”
I felt my whole body relax at his presence. “I can’t stop myself…”
Sterling watched as I turned my head to expose his mark to him, wrapping my arms above my head as I rose to my knees with my legs apart. This was the human position for submission, and right now it was the only thing I was thinking about.
Something off in the distance caught his attention. Another large male in Dire form came over and let out a possessive growl seeing me in the submissive position. I couldn’t stop myself. It was like everything I was doing now was purely…instinctual. All I knew was there was a male in the area and I wanted it inside me.
The offending Dire let out a low bark, getting me to lean my head the other way and show my neck to him. Sterling’s growl was deadly though. If the Dire took one more step closer to his mate, he was going to rip the wolf apart with his bare hands.
“Back off!” He roared out with full Alpha authority.
The wolf turned reluctantly around, giving me one more once over before retreating.
I whimpered for Sterling, and he obliged. Within a moment he was in front of me with his lips on mine. I moaned into him as his hand easily ripped my top off, exposing my bare chest to him. One hand kneaded a breast while the other moved lower. When his fingers touched my center, I let out another whimper.
Sterling’s low husky voice sounded just as breathless as mine, and I was positive it wasn’t just Sterling right there on the edge. “Your Slick is already covering you for me.”
“Alpha…” I let out a slight moan as his finger rubbed circles on my c**t.
His chest let out a deep growl again. “f**k, little one.”
Without warning he slipped a finger inside me, gaining a cry from my throat.
“Sterling…I’m…” I tried to say, but the haze was making it impossible.
He nodded, slipping his hand behind my neck. “A virgin. I know, but…I don’t know if I’ll be able to be gentle. I’m not able to think too clearly.”
I let out a moan when he slipped a second finger in, stretching my canal more than it has ever been before. “I’m not…going to be able to take it.”
“You will.” His voice was dark, and my mind was just about gone.
With the last bit of my mind I had left, I turned to try and crawl away. I didn’t get anywhere. His hands gripped my hips roughly, and before I had a chance to do anything I felt the intrusion of his head inside my center. I screamed out from the pain as he sank himself in deep from behind. Tears slipped from my eyes as my hands gripped the dirt tightly in my hands, debris stabbing into my knees wasn’t even a needle poke compared to the searing pain from his shaft. He was too massive, too thick. I was going to rip apart.
“Sterling! St-top! It hurts!” I screamed out, trying to move away, but his hands held me in place.
In the distance, we could hear pained howls coming from the pack. Pained because their Luna was hurting, but they knew better than to challenge the claiming happening by their Alpha.
He growled at me trying to get away, but his voice was a little softer. “Breathe, little one. You’re not a human. Only your body could handle a Dire Alpha’s length, your body was made for me. Breathe, and relax my little mate. I can’t stop, but I don’t want to hurt you.”
With each slow thrust though, the pain began to dim, and instead was replaced with pure pleasure. I let out a carnal moan as he quickened his pace. Holy stars, I didn’t know it would feel like this. My back arched and I laid my chest to the ground to allow Sterling to sink in deeper. He let out a groan, feeling the new depth, he had.
“f**k, little one. Your squeezing me.” Sterling growled.
His hands roamed over my rear before squeezing roughly, and then his hand slapped my cheek hard enough to leave a solid red hand print. I let out a whimper, this was more than I thought it was going to be. I want him. And now I wasn’t sure if it was the Heat. Feeling him connected with me felt right, felt whole.
“Ah! Big daddy! I think I’m going to c*m!” I cried out, feeling my whole-body building. The tightening in my stomach made me tremble.
Sterling rubbed my back. “Good girl, c*m for me, little one.”
I was a mess, panting, moaning and now I was pouring juices all over the place. I shouted out from my orgasm as Sterling rode it out in me. When I was done he pulled out, and I nearly began to cry. Neither my Heat nor my body was done. But I guess neither was he.
I suddenly felt his tongue moving across my c**t and slit. My hands dug into the dirt as he cleaned my c*m with his mouth, and when he was done I was up and against a near tree with his excessive c**k inside me again.
My legs wrapped around him while he buried himself deep. I bit my lip and let me head fall back. Sterling was relentless. His pace never slowed, and his thrusts only got harder and harder. I was nearly shouting my moans as my back scrapped against the tree.
It felt like we were out there forever, and I loved every minute of it. When Sterling started getting closer I could feel his whole member begin to swell, and that alone nearly made me orgasm again.
“Big daddy…” I moaned out.
“Do you like it, little one?” He asked pushing in and hitting my cervix.
I nodded. “Yeah.”
“Tell your Alpha what you like.”
I whimpered and swallowed, trying to keep from climaxing again before him. “I like your c**k in me, Alpha. It feels…so good…”
His husky voice chuckled. “Virgin no more.”
My eyes widened a little, but only for a second before I felt that eruption coming to claim me again. “I’m going to c*m again, big daddy.”
Sterling leaned forward to kiss my lips before positioning himself to drill into me. “That’s it, little one. c*m with me.”
Like I was tipped over the edge, his shaft slamming in hard had me crying out and cuming all over his c**k. At the same time, I felt his shaft swell to an ungodly size, nearly locking it in as he drug it through me spilling his own seed deep. The pleasure from that alone had me cuming a third time back to back. He then stopped with his head at the buried in my canal, looked at me with shock in his eyes, and pulled out.
My cheeks I know were red, beads of sweat and slightly smeared mascara on my face that I wiped away. “Why are you looking at me like that, Sterling?”
“Nevaeh, we’re fully Mated now. You know that right?”
I nodded. “I told you it was what I wanted, but you never answered me.”
Sterling set me down on my feet, but still held a significant amount of my weight. Then he leaned in to give me a slow kiss. “I can’t show weakness. Not to anyone, Nevaeh.”
“So, loving me would be a weakness?” I asked trying to pull away.
“Stop.” He commanded. “Stop trying to leave me.”
I looked up to him. “You still think I’m going to leave you, Sterling? You think I can?”
He looked away. This is what he meant. Weakness. I made him weak with the way things have been going, when I should be making him stronger.
“It’s all I think about when I can’t see you. Or if another has taken you since we hadn’t Mated yet. Do you think I like feeling like this?” He asked, and I saw it for the first time. Vulnerability.
I smiled up at him and touched his cheek with my hand. “I thought…I was a burden to you. A useless mate. I was going to leave to give you a chance to find someone better suited.”
A low growl escaped his chest again. “No, your perfect. Just…perfect.”
“Sterling?”
He looked up to me. “Yeah?”
“Is my Heat gone?” I asked.
He shook his head. “Four days.”
‘Your Heat is not even close to being over, and it gets stronger with each day. Also, your release is not going to sedate your needs unless you receive a seed. The effects of Sterling mating with you will last about four-eight hours, but then you’ll be back to burning up and needing someone to mate with you. Sterling’s wolf is ecstatic, and we’ve been able to bond now. He says to accept as many of his Knotted seeds as you can. Knotted seeds, are that feeling when Sterling swelled and then came.’ My spirit told me with happiness in her voice.
Then I realized something. We’re really fully mated now. The bond is going to intensify and I won’t be able to leave him. Did I want to anymore? No. Not at all. I was actually enjoying this feeling inside, it was like I was whole and so happy.
Sterling took a step back and let go of me. My whole body recoiled from the sudden loss of contact form my mate. I gasped and went forward, hugging onto his arm while red spread across my face and chest. I regret not having control right then.
“What was that about, a chroí?” He asked moving to wrap me back up in his arms.
I was still blushing a deep shade of red. “I…didn’t like you not…touching me.”
Sterling smirked, and I think that was the first time I saw him smiling at something I said. “Greedy, little one.”
“Only for you then, big daddy.” I said teasingly.
He rolled his eyes. “Good to see you back to your sassy self already.”
I smiled. “Sterling?”
“Yeah?” He asked as he began leading us to the Sanctuary house.
I didn’t know how to start this. “What does this mean for us now?”
Sterling snaked his arm around my shoulder, growling over my head at someone or something. “You move into the Sanctuary house with me for starters. The pack will want to have a feast or celebration in honor of you becoming their official Luna.”
I let out a deep breath. “That’s not what I meant, Sterling.”
He leaned down and inhaled our scents mixed together. “I’m not sure. I want you to feel like you had a choice. I didn’t want to force you into having me.”
“Sterling.”
He looked down at me and I tapped the side of his face. He raised an eyebrow at me before spinning me and pinning me against his chest.
“I came tonight to tell you to mark me. I was going to tell you the reason was so you didn’t look weak to the King and Queen and to the pack. But that would have been only a half truth. I’ve been wanting you for a few days. Whether it was the bond getting stronger, or whatever. I…want to try to be with you. If you still want me.”
Sterling sighed, and for a second I was sure he was going to reject me. I felt my heart nearly fall out of my chest, and I watched him make a pained expression. “Don’t feel like that, little one. What I was going to say wasn’t bad.”
I looked up to meet his toxic colored green eyes. “You could feel my emotions?”
“We’re Mated now, completely.” He said and my face turned red. “It usually doesn’t happen until about a year into the bond, but I guess we’re fast learners.”
I giggled. “Yeah, sure we are.”
“To answer you though, I do want you, Nevaeh. It’s the only reason I forced you back here with me. I didn’t want to let you go. I won’t let you go.” He said making goosebumps break out over my skin.
“Possessive much?” I said rolling my eyes.
Sterling leaned in to give a deep passionate kiss to my still swollen lips. “Of what’s mine, always. I still want to know which mutt kissed you.”
I huffed. “You can’t go around killing our pack members.”
“If any more of them attempt to mate what is mine? I will.” Sterling said with conviction.
My whole body flushed. I was sure I was going to have to be naked under him before four hours.