Kissing the Fae

Chapter 44

I don’t know if it ended well. But my father assured me it did yet I don’t believe him. The anger in his eyes and the way his jaw clenched told me otherwise. I came back in the tower and waited for them until they went back. My mother was trying to calm him down and like him, she looked worried, I guess everyone else. Even the Little Fairies and the guys shared the same expression and I am here — confused, clueless of why.

Why can’t they just tell me about it, right? I will eventually know it and it’s disappointing if I hear it from other people.

There is a secret, my mind tell me that. I can feel they’re hiding and I fear it... The consequences, the thoughts and feelings I’d feel once it revealed... How do I possibly react? How do I behave? Is it something that would totally break me into pieces?

Thinking about it worries me.

“Is everything really alright, mum?”

She nodded as she continued to caress my hair.

“It’s alright, princess. Don’t mind the counselor. We know about his grudge towards women and this is something your father can handle so, don’t worry, okay?”

“I can’t help it...”

I looked away. Mum requested for me to stay with her while my father fixed the issue. I’ve been asking her what it was all about if it’s already fixed but she said it’s other... things. She’s lying, of course. Everyone is lying and I don’t know who to trust anymore because they are all not telling me truth which is super frustrating. Why can’t they?! I deserve to know! I know it’s a big thing, a big lie that would definitely change everything, my life... Everything!

And because it’s big, it’s so hard for them to tell me about it. To let me know that lies they weaved for me...

“The Queen Mother also told me something about lies, la Reina. She told me it might break me, she told me it was alright it that lie would make me angry, if it would make me distance myself from everyone else. The Queen Mother... she told me there is something I need to find out and I felt like what happened in the hall is what she talked about, la Reina. I wanted to know... I wanted to know, la Reina. I wanted to know.”

I remember the look in the Queen Mother’s face. Just like the la Reine and everyone else, she looked worried. She looked scared... I don’t know why. But I guess, it is that big and now, I am nervous. Something inside me is telling me to just snap it out, that I don’t need to know because I am afraid. I fear the truth... Because it felt like it really has a big impact.

I just want them to bury it. To forget it, to not tell me about it. To just keep it to themselves and never tell me a thing about it.

I am afraid. And guess what? I am a coward. For instead of knowing it, I can’t because maybe, accepting it would be so hard on my part.

But I know someday, it will be revealed. At the end of the day, I will still find out. Eventually, I will still break. I will not be ready for that but I need to.

I have to accept it. No matter what happens, I know I have to accept it. It might take a long time but that’s something I have to do to also, forgive myself, to forgive them.

She hushed me. I sighed deeply and just savor the moment. My head lying on the Queen’s lap as she caressed my hair with gentleness. She wanted me here... And I agreed because it has been a long time since we bonded. I miss her... I miss the King. Us.

We have so much responsibilities that we can’t even bond now. It saddened me but I understand. We all understand...

“The Queen Mother must be mistaken, Rani Letisha. Everything is okay and you should not believe them, it’s all rumors, okay? Believe no one but us.”

“But I felt like you’re not telling me something, la Reina. I don’t believe the counselor either but something is urging inside me to believe him... I felt like it was true. That I am not born as Fae... I am different, mum... Now that I think of it, he must be right. The only reason why I’m different maybe because I am not a true blooded Fairy.”

“Rani Letisha, the counselor hated us. Of course, he pulled something to provoke us. To make us think we are not worth but that’s a lie. Nothing is true with what he said.”

Again, I sighed. “You all looked worried and scared when he told me I’m not a true Fae...”

Silence... “I wish that was all lies, la Reina. I don’t know what to do if it happens to be true. I can’t promise I won’t be angry but if ever, please remember that if it’s proven as true, I’d be angry because I’ll definitely be in pain. I might distant myself because I know I’m not belong, I might cry and worse, I might go back where I’m supposed to be, la Reina. That’s the thing I’d do if ever...”

That’s something I would do. Because I know someone out there deserves to be on my spot if I am not born as Faye. That also means, the La Roi and the La Reine might not be my parents.

My heart breaks just the thought of it. I grew up believing they are my parents and now, it’s so sad that I started to have doubts. What if the counselor was telling the truth? The way they reacted made me suspicious. Their actions spoke loud. And it’s frustrating and the same time, it makes me so angry because why...

Why am I here?

“You won’t be angry, child. For nothing is true,” she smiled at me assuringly. “Don’t listen to them, okay? You are a true fae. You deserved what you have right now. You are a Fae... You are our daughter and nothing can change that.”

That night, I urged myself to believe in her. She is my mother, the La Reina of Acres Kingdom, she’s the one whom I should trust. I love her and their love for me is also overflowing. They won’t spend that much time and effort if they don’t, right?

They are my parents. I chose to believe in that before I sleep beside her that night.

When morning came, I was greeted by no one. I fixed myself and found them in the hall, silence was dominating the whole room. The Little Fairies are there, too. My forehead knotted.

“Good morning. What’s the early meeting for?” I assumed and walked near them.

“The missing portal showed up,” the La Reina uttered. “This time, it brought two human. The one landed on Alistair’s place, the other one... We can’t feel him or her so, we can’t find the other human the missing portal brought here.”

“Why?” I was confused. “I mean...”

I shook my head and sat on the chair. “There’s two human... How is that? The missing portal usually drop one human...”

“That’s something we are also confused about, Rani Letisha,” it was Ria who talked now.

“The other one landed to Alistair’s place... Then, he’s the one in charge for whoever that is. Then, the other one...”

My shoulders dropped. Of course, I am the one who will look after that missing human. The La Reina gave me that order and I must comply. Something I hate but I have to.

“You are in charge to look for the missing human until his or her last day, Rani Letisha,” it was my father.

I pouted. I guess they both agreed on it, then. I nodded and uttered nothing.

“I will visit the Queen Mother to ask her to go back here so she can train you well about the Power of Glamour. She’s the one who can help you the most as the previous owner—“

“Wait... You know she has it?”

As far as I remember, I didn’t mention that I got the Power of Glamour from the Queen Mother. I looked at my father suspiciously who welcomed my sight with all his seriousness. I gulped but didn’t back down.

“Yes,” he answered with all honesty. “I know about the Power of Glamour and who has it. I didn’t tell you because I wanted you to have your way.”

My lips pouted more. I haven’t told him how I hated him at those times that I was suffering trying to look for the said power. Because deep inside me, my mind and heart was telling me the La Roi intently gave me that challenge to kick me out of my position.

At least, that’s what I thought. But I guess he really wanted me out, right?

I didn’t talk... Then, it was me who looked away first.

“So, wait for her... She will train you here and remember, your position is still at stake for you don’t have your wings yet.

I sighed deeply and nodded. Besides, I don’t have a choice but to follow him anyway. So when the talk was done, the Little Fairies and I went to search for that missing human. I hated it! Why can’t they just directly land on Alistair’s so I won’t have a problem anymore looking for that one human!

“The missing portal was too much,” said Ria as we continued to look. “Bringing two humans at the same time seems like a torture. They will both die here, Rani Letisha. And no one can even stop that from happening and it’s just so sad... I feel so sad for those victims of the missing portal.”

“We can’t do something about it,” I said, giving up the idea of trying to do something to make a change because we all know it won’t work.

It is cursed. The missing portal is the curse of the Acres Kingdom and now, every ten years, we suffer, we feel guilty for just standing there because we can’t do anything to save those lives brought in here.

They are just destined to... die. They will witness our world, they’d be surprised that such thing existed and then, they will die.

They even wanted to explore our world first but sadly, no one made it yet.

“Well, that’s just so sad...” said Tia. “Now we have two humans here in our world and that would be more sad seeing them die here. One in Prince Alistair, and one in your sight, Rani Letisha...”

I fell into silence. That’s true... The reason why I hate to look after a human because where they land, it’s where they die, too. And I don’t want a human to die in my region, in my sight... That’s too heartbreaking to see knowing I was there to help them make a memory before they wither.

“We’ll have to bury him or her, too...” said Zah this time.

“That’s what we need to do,” I told them and just went on searching again.

We went back to the Faye. If the missing human isn’t there, then he could have landed on the other regions, that means I don’t have to babysit. But if it’s otherwise, then I guess I’ll just have to accept it. To embrace and welcome the human in my humble abode.

“We should check the forest,” Ria uttered and I grimaced.

“There’s no way that human would be there...”

But I was wrong...