Always You

The Truth

She smiled as she rode over to the clubhouse, passing all her favorite little shops and places she'd sneak off to with Jay. As she pulled into the parking lot, the baby started kicking. Cara smiled, "I'm nervous too." she talked down to her belly.

Parking the car, she jumped out and looked around. John Evans was looking at her first, with a surprised but pleased look, he smiled at her from the garage. The rest of guys smiled and waved at her, easing her nerves a bit. The next pair of eyes she saw on her belonged to Jay's best friend, Rhino, who was like a big brother to her.

He brisk walked over to her and pulled her into his arms, as far as the baby bump would allow her to go anyway. "Jesus Christ, where have you been?" he pulled back and his eyes went to her stomach, "And what have you been up to?"

"Don't give me that look Winston, it's Jay's." she shot him a look to which he smirked at. "Glad to hear. We'll be talking later but I gotta get back to work." He kissed her forehead, knocking off the glasses and exposing her bruises, "Cara?" his face went cold and hard.

She didn't need this, not right now, she needed to talk to Jay first. "Later Rhino, I promise."

She sighed to herself as she walked towards the clubhouse, stopping dead in her tracks when she looked up and saw Jayson Evans gaping at her. He looked better than she remembered, he was shirtless and sweaty. A look she loved.

"Cara? Cara, is that you?"

There was no going back now, this was going to happen.

Even though she was nervous, she was also relieved. She finally felt safe again just being near him. They stood there a while, looking at each other, drinking each other in. Jay made the first move, he grabbed her by the neck and pulled her lips to his. Both pouring everything they had been feeling into the kiss, the pain, the love, the lust.

This is where she belonged, in his arms. When he finally pulled back to look at her she smiled, she had tears in her eyes but they were hidden away by the sunglasses.

"Hey Jay."

What..How..Are you really back?" His face was hopeful but confused as his eyes traveled further down her body. "What the f**k?" his eyes ballooned and shot back up to meet hers, Jay arched his eyebrow at her.

"Can we go somewhere more private? I don't exactly want to discuss this in front of everyone" She sighed. From the look in his eyes, he was pissed whether it was directly at her or the situation itself she didn't know. Either way she didn't want him going off in front of everyone.

He nodded and grabbed her hand, she took that as a somewhat of a good sign, as he pulled her through the clubhouse and into one of the back rooms. Opening it, he motioned for her to walk in, closing the door behind them and turning to face her.

"What the hell happened Cara? where do you go? I've been losing my mind these past months wondering where you went, why you just up and disappeared, did I do something?" she was surprised he didn't bring up her bulging stomach right away.

Taking a breath she looked at him and then to her stomach, "I umm I...I." her throat was choking back tears, "I didn't know what else to do Jay. You just got patched in the last thing you wanted or needed was a baby. I didn't want you thinking I was trapping you." she turned away from him letting the tears freely fall down her cheeks.

That's when the reality of the situation hit me hard. I had slept with my brother's girlfriend and now, she was pregnant with my baby, a baby I wasn't supposed to have. I looked at Cara and sat in front of her. She looked at me, still crying, and I felt horrible like I always did when she was upset. I pulled her into my arms and rubbed her back in a circular motion, trying to calm her down. "It's going to be okay," I whispered over and over. I didn't believe my own words. I had no idea if it was going to be okay.

she left because she thought she was doing what was best for him, for them, he couldn't be mad at her for that. He was pissed that she didn't even try telling him, that she just up and left, he had a right to know about his baby, but he wouldn't be mad at her for something she thought was right.

He put a finger under her chin and lifted it so he could look her in the eyes, but the glasses were in the way. He reached for them but she grabbed his hand just before he could take them off.

"Cara, I want to see you and I can't do that with these things on your face. Let me take them off..please." There was a pleading in his voice that had her nodding slowly. She heard the sharp intake of breath as he got them off and lifted her eyes to see his face.

I was genuinely scared for what was going to happen next.

Anger. That's what she saw in his eyes, anger mixed with pain.

Cupping her jaw, Jay looked her directly in the eyes, "What. Happened.?" He was barely containing his anger from exploding and doing something he'd regret. He needed to know what happened, and what fucker would be paying for doing this to his girl. She may have left but she never stopped being his, she was his from the day they got together, to the day she got his crow, to the day she left without as much as a goodbye.

The tears formed in her eyes as she looked at him, this is why she didn't want to come back. She didn't want Jay burdened with this s**t, which she blamed herself for happening, no matter what her aunt or anyone else said. Now here she was causing him anger and pain all over again, maybe it would've just been easier to stay In San Diego she thought to herself.

She was snapped out of her rather depressing thoughts when she felt Jay move the hair out of her face. "Cara. I need you tell me what happened, babe. I'm not letting anything else hurt you." The look in his eyes soothed her, it was a look she knew well and a look only she's ever seen.

"Your Brother happened" I said

Taking a few shaky breaths she sat down on the bed and started, "It was fine in the beginning. He was sweet, nothing took my mind off you but I thought he was someone who understood, as much as I'd let anyone understand about me." Jay sat down beside her and listened to her reciting the story, getting up and pacing the room as she got deeper into it about what he did and said to her. But he never interrupted her, letting her say everything she needed to and he was just there listening.

"That's how I ended up back here. I've been back for a couple days but couldn't find the courage to come see you. I knew you'd hate me for leaving, probably even have a new crow eater on your side." She looked up to see his face, it had softened.

"I never hated you. I was f****d up and spiraling, I hated that, but I never hated you." He moved to sit back down by her. "I didn't let anyone in my bed. It was too personal, didn't even use this bed."

Cara had moved so she was sitting on her knees and facing him, he turned towards her, "I never stopped loving you either."

"Oh, Jay. I'm so sorry." She threw her arms around his neck and clung to him. He caught her and shifted so she was straddling him, his arms wrapped around her waist holding her tightly, as he could considering her bump, as if she'd blow away again. He wouldn't let that happen though, not again.

Pulling back he looked at her puffy face and red rimmed eyes. Using his thumb he wiped her tears away, "No more crying baby. You're back, you're safe, you're mine, both of you. Nothing is happening to you. Ever. Again." Putting one hand around her neck while the other stayed on her expanded waist he pulled her face down to his, their lips just inches apart, "I love you, Cara." with that, he sealed his lips over hers.

Pouring all the heartache she's felt these past months, she kissed him liked she'd never do it again. Scraping her nails along his neck as she grabbed it, "I love you too, so much."

it wasn't just s*x. It never was with them. It was a connection they shared that always put their insecurities to the side and reassured them of everything.

She pushed him down on the bed, straddling him, she pushed up his shirt and ran her fingers up and down his torso. While his hands roamed up and down her sides, stopping at her bump he rubbed it. "You should've told me." His voice was soothing but a hint of anger came out. "I love you, you weren't trapping me. We always talked about kids, just with each other and not so soon but that doesn't change a thing."

"I'm sorry, I am. No more secrets, I promise." she meant it too, nothing else would come in the way of this again. She wasn't going to let troll bitches get in her head about her and Jay. He was hers and she was his. Whoever didn't like it can take it up with someone who cared.

You look amazing." he rested his hands on it, smiling at her. "Are we ready for this?"

Cara laughed at that one, "No. But we don't exactly have a choice now." she pulled his face down to her and kissed him deeply, "Love me."

And he did. Getting her undressed he flipped them over again, it'd be easier with Cara on top. Hovering over him, she grabbed him in her hand and stroked him for a while before slowly sinking onto him. Moaning as she went down, there was no better place than in his arms or having him in her. Cara needed to feel him let go inside her, have that connection again. She started riding him, fast and relentlessly.

Moving his hand from her belly to her c**t, Jay started massaging it. He was close and needed her over the cliff before he let go, increasing pressure he kept circling her c**t with his thumb as he inserted two fingers in her.

"Oh my God. Jay!" she moaned, as she felt her release coming she dug her nails in his chest and she let her orgasm take over her. Jay was right behind her, grabbing her by the hips And thrusting, hard, a few more times before coming undone while groaning her name.

They laid there for a couple hours after, Cara's head on his chest, Jay's arms around her. Eventually they both got dressed and headed back out to the rest of the club.

Her hand was around his waist and his arm was thrown over her shoulder. It was like nothing ever even happened.