CHAPTER 44
A MONTH LATER, and little pieces were slowly slotting together, except there was still one great big piece missing from the middle of the jigsaw. Tabby. Instinct told me to put everything on hold and spend every waking moment searching for her, but reason said I had to make some effort at normality, as much for Sam’s sake as my own.
We weren’t quite back to where we’d been as Sam Jessop and Zhen, but at least I no longer had to worry about going off-script, or Sam overhearing a conversation he shouldn’t, or him finding one of my many weapons stashes. No, our first joint purchase for Sam’s apartment had been a larger gun safe to share, and for the first time in my life, I was free to be myself. The trouble was, I barely understood my own personality, seeing as I’d spent my whol
