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After walking Crystal home, I couldn't sleep. I kept thinking about how she didn't say she loved me before I walked away. I went and sat on the back porch until the sun came up. I have been up all night trying to figure out what caused her to slip back into this state of mind. I can't think of anything I did unless it was the house and what happened there. I don't think anything is going to happen. I'm pretty sure nothing came out until I pulled out. Damnit. I am always careful. Why didn't I think to put one on this time? F*CK! I said out loud. Yesterday was supposed to be a happy day for me and for her but I f*cked that up. I always do. I went inside and got dressed. I told Jonah I was going out for the day and I wouldn't be back until later tonight. He asked where I was going and
