Looking for you

Chapter 10 (edited)

Alex

I woke up analysing my surroundings. For a moment I forgot where I was until a delicious smell, coffee to be specific, reached my nostrils. I admired the grey sofa, that was below me, and the green blanket covering me, it held a scent I liked but couldn't decipher what it was.

I swung my legs from the coach and noticed I had slept with my shorts and a sleeveless shirt. My shoes where by the corner of the living room along with other of my stuff. Recalling what had brought me to Evelyn's apartment I got up slowly. As soon as the blanket fell from my shoulders, cold reached my bare skin and gave me chills. It refreshed me but also unpleased my left arm; struggling a bit, I managed to get the fabric around me as I made my way to the kitchen. When I was one step away from it, I froze realizing what had happened the night before.

I kissed her. I kissed Evelyn...

Happiness was the first thing I felt before fear kicked in, until I realized that she had kissed me back. I took a deep breath in as I evoked the moment in my mind again, it was as if I could feel the soft touch of her lips against mine, and exhaled with a shiver running through my body. In a brief instant my heart went into a frenzy by just the memory of it.

I was standing by the kitchen's door when Evelyn appeared walking with a pan towards the stove.

"Hey, you're awake!" She greeted.

"Hi, yes I am" I could say my cheeks where feeling as a tomato, and I was half smiling, not knowing what I should say.

"I cooked some scramble eggs, there's fruit at the table and, since you don't drink hot coffee, I kind of invented my own cold version of it"

"Wow, haha, that’s amazing, thanks you. It's great. Forgive me for stealing your food"

"What? Don't be ridiculous. I'm glad I can share it with you, besides, you played yesterday, you need it..."

For some strange reason I felt as if I'd seem sick due to my appearance when she made me remember that.

"...I couldn't let my brilliant student to starve,” she teased “well I couldn't let you starve” she corrected.

I smiled shyly. I knew she was not lying, she truly cared for me.

We seated at the table and ate. I enjoyed every single thing she had cooked and was very careful not to engulf my food as my friends used to say I did. Everything was delicious but even when we both talked as normal as we possibly could, we both knew we wanted to talk about what had happened last night, and it was as if we were trying to avoid it...

After a while, we sat at her sofa and I started to talk the best way I could.

"Evelyn, I...I wanted to talk to you about what happened yesterday." I cursed the way I talked, my voice i a low tune as if I feared something. I do fear. I kissed her because I love her, but I don't know if she'll reje… this can go two ways, either she accepts me and make me the happiest person in the world… or she rejects me…

"I thought I'd have to start it, but I see you already have" She said. I cleared my throat trying to think what to say but after her words, I didn't know anymore. I continued going for something not so 'serious' but also related to our subject.

"You...uhm, why did...agh! Why is this so difficult?" I breathe and briefly closed my eyes. I just opened them when I felt her hand pressed gently on my good one. Looking at her in the eye I felt ashamed, I lowered my gaze before speaking.

"I have some questions and I'm sorry for making it this way but it's what's working right now. Please do not think that by the 'cold' tone in it, it means I care not for you..." I said, thinking I would hyperventilate any second now. She smiled before saying “I won't.”

"Yesterday..." I gulped "I said that I was sure I've fallen for you...I love you. I know there's not much I can offer to you besides the feelings I have, and I understand if you want nothing to do with it. I just wanted to ask you... why did you kissed me back?"

I was trembling a bit and only noticed it when I finished.

The answer she gave me made my heart skip, not one, but several beats just to take a frantic speed after that.

“Because I like you...I love you” she said.

I blinked and tried to breath as if turned into a fish out of the water. I tattooed those words in my heart for eternity, before asking her what I really wanted.

"Is this true?" she nodded. I came close to her and used my good hand to caress her cheek.

"I know you won't be able to be with me the entire time. I know I don't have much to offer... and I know it will be hard but... Would you like to be my 'girlfriend'?"

"I... I think there's something we're forgetting" she said. I nodded to her comment. I didn't want to pay attention to it, cuz I know it could mean trouble, but unfortunately it was important.

"Alex. I'm your teacher, you're my student...we’re not supposed to have other relationship further than that between both of us. You could be expelled and I could lose my job..." I wanted to object already “besides... I'm older than you"

Evelyn

I could hardly believe this was happening. She had kissed me the night before AND confessed to have the same feelings I do. It was all marvellous. I hated to be realistic and pointed the fact that this beautiful feeling could be 'difficult', if not a dangerous, thing to take.

I thought she'd stop the same moment I pointed out that fact. But the choice she took, I couldn't have expected it.

"I know all of that, Evelyn” She started, talking with patience and care in her eyes. She knew what was at risk.

"I know it's dangerous and we'll be judged, criticized but... Look, you know me. You know I'm not used to break rules at all but, I've realized that, I can’t fight this feelings anymore. Thought the only way I could avoid them is only if you asked me to, not by any other reason. Soon, I won't be your student very soon. I know you're older than me but, I believe I don't really have a trouble with that...it’s not a big difference. I still love you. I'm willing to take the risk if that means I can be with you. Only if you let me" She explained.

I knew what my answer was. Gently, I took her face between my hands and smiled.

"I do. I agree on this. I want to be with you if you allow me to"

She gave me a full smile and laughed, I hugged her and we kissed. My mind was surprised and my heart beating at 1000mph.

Few hours later we decided it was time for Alex to go back home. I asked to see check on her tomorrow and she agreed. Even though she remained lone for the great of the day. I walked her back home. Well, we kind of crossed the entire city cuz we lived opposite sides from each other. When we reached her door I made sure she had the painkillers and made her vow to me she'd call in case she'll need anything.

"Be sure to take some days off from school to let your head and arm heal, all right?" I asked her.

"I'll do my best. But honestly, I don't think I can stand a day away from school now, especially now" she smiled. I laughed knowing what she was referring to and smiled.

"That's special homework I give to you. And as far as I know, you've never skip it so, I hope you won’t let me down"

I teased before leaning to kiss her goodbye and walked away after she crossed the door.