Looking for you

Chapter 7

Alex

Evelyn managed to get me out of home trice during vacation. Once for lunch at a russian restaurant, we had talked before about how she was getting tired of eating almost the same everyday by the nearest place around school and sticking to the same menu even during vacations, so I remembered the russian place relatively near from our homes and told her we should try it, it was amazing, I had never had a better Bestroganoff than the one that day, and we both loved the honey cake. Next time she convinced me to avoid my training ‘session’, arguing that because it was a training for myself, it had no total validation; third time, however, she tried to join me by jogging… she lasted two laps before preferring to watch me pass by and count the laps outload.

Two weeks before returning to school I had all my books ready, and I knew my main enthusiasm was because I was going to see her again. The relationship with my mother hadn't change, it didn't mattered that my average at school was the highest in my group, remembering she'd seed the president for being the best student in the country many years ago, my achievement was not relevant for her...still it made me happy, which was the important thing. I had free time right now and my feet begged for something to play with. I threw a jacket over my shoulders before grabbing the ball and my keys, less than 20 minutes later I arrived at the park and walked to the bars. After ending warming up, my eyes landed on my ball, I walked towards it with half a smile. Sky got shattered by a thunder and I took a deep breath.

This is going to be fun.

After two weeks at school I still twitch seeing my schedule, four days a week all first hours are Math class, the only thing that makes it better and would make me handle it, is Physics also four days a week. Someone screams my name behind me and before I can turn around she'd jumped over me.

"Kaisha... you know I love you but please get off my back, my bag is heavy enough"

She obeys, smiling and hugging, better say strangling me, by the neck.

"Alex, I missed you a lot. Couldn't wait to see my sister back at school..." I smile knowing she suffers a bit.

"Mate, you have my number, why didn't you call?"

"Cuz I couldn't, I was out of town with my father and you know there's no phone signal..."

For second hour the next day, we had Physics, and as soon as professor Wright came in my heart started a furious race. She went straight to the point of the new lesson and I took notes as fast as I could. By the end she gave us a special reminder.

“Remember that just because I know you that doesn't mean I'll make this easier for you. I'll explain and answer all of your doubts but that's all I'll be able to do. Please, don't try to say math is not your forte because even when we'll need math, it’s not everything we'll use here.

I chose the front place since the beginning of class, I didn’t wanna miss a thing at class, still I started to feel nervous because, I suffered with maths, it was horrible for me, I didn’t want it to be similar with physics.

When the room emptied because everyone went out for sports class, approached her desk.

"Professor, may I have a word?"

"Sure. What is it, Alex?"

"How similar will this be to math?" Got the first time in a while, I had a knot in my throat, my mouth was dry. She seemed to notice it.

"You'd need some basic operations for the procedures...What’s the matter?” she asked, after I remained quiet she wondered “You don't like maths? “she searched for my sight and finally I looked at her.

"It's not that I don't like them… I have never been able to really understand them, I struggle a lot.” I ended with a sigh.

"Hey,” she squeezed my arm “relax. You'll do fine, I'm sure of it" I smiled.

“...If you say so.”

“Say it? I bet you will” she winked…

Evelyn

As time passed by I saw how Alex became more and more fascinated by the subject, she started reading scientific books on physical research just because she enjoyed it, or come to the teachers room almost every evening to talk and learn more, of course we didn't talk only about that. There was a time when the subject about relationships jumped in, when I mentioned it she tensed a bit, perhaps believing I would tease het about it. Then I realized, after all the time Alex and I spend together, after the laughs, messages and conversations, I didn't know if she preferred women or men, so I decided to ask.

“I’ve never been interested in guys, my eyes have been caught by women since I can remember.” She admitted. It seemed as if she expected an answer from me, but I didn't had a trouble with it. On the contrary, perhaps my heart accelerated its rate…

“Is there someone special in your life?” I wondered. She chuckled before clearing her throat.

“I...I’m used to be alone, perhaps it's not jet the time to be with someone, I don't know...There's someone who always stays in my mind but, I'm not sure she feels the same way…” I realise she wouldn’t finish the sentence and only nodded slowly, understanding her feeling.

“What about you?” she asked, as if being just snapped out of deep thought.

“Well, I know what I like. I just don't know if this person would like to be with me…”

It was strange for me to think about it, my exgirlfriend at college broke my heart and I hadn't thought about anyone since then. Though, I could recognize some signals of my feelings when being near Alex.