TO HURT AND TO LOVE YOU

CHAPTER 3 REALIZATION

The day passed by easily and with a heavy heart for me. It's been a week since that incident happened. I don’t know how to approach Aly. I don’t even know how to say Hi, Hello, I don’t even know how to ask what she want for dinner or if she has a plan for our weekend escapade. All I know now is I’m not at ease, uncomfortable if she’s around. But since we are living under one roof we can see each other. 

“Hey Miles are you ok? Tell me if you are not feeling ok, do you want to visit a doctor? You are not your usual, Tell me do you have a problem? Come on tell me.” 

I bet I need to let her know and to make everything clear it also bother me. With a deep heavy sigh. 

“Aly we promise to each other that we are not going to keep a secret right?”

“Yeah and I‘m not that old to forget that and why’d you ask?” with a creasing eyebrow.

“And when I ask you? can you promise me that you’ll answer it with full of honesty?” I ask with doubt if she’s going, to be honest, but still, I need to do this. 

“Can you tell me what is with you and Uncle Dave?” And with the reaction, I can see and how her eye gets bigger and how she got a trembled. I think I know the answer.

“What? He is our Uncle and the only Family we have” and why you are asking that and where is that coming from? I can feel how she panic.

“I saw you and Uncle Dave last week at the public market -- 

“And what’s wrong if you saw us, is there a rule that we cannot go to a public market already,” And really she cuts me off. 

“You kiss him at he kiss you back and even hold your waist, touch each other like you were lover” with that tears fell from her eyes, and kneel down, her voice becomes hoarse, and her shoulder start to shake.

“Miles…. Miles please let me explain” I just look at her, I don’t have the heart to judge her. 

“Do you love him? Is he making you happy?” she just gave a nod. Well, I guess that’s what's most important. “You know I love you right?” Once again she just nod her head. I kneel down and hug her. “I love you Aly if he can make you happy and take care of you then I don’t have any reason to be the reason to be in between, I don’t want to be a hindrance. But how can you explain this to Christof? You know how he feels for you”.

“He's old enough and I think he can understand, maybe he’ll be mad but he will thru with it. Thank you, Miles” I push her a bit when I remember I wanted to ask her a question.

“And until when you are planning to keep this from me? How many days, months, or even years are you in relation to him? I don’t know how to react to her reaction it looks like she was fascinated with my question.

“HAHAHAHA and you’re interested” I just roll my eye. “To answer your questions we’ve been almost a year.” and now she is smiling from ear to ear and for whole the night we are just talking about her relationship how it all started who says I Love You first how she sneaked out every night to have their late-night date and their plan to tell it to Christof. We are talking and discussed that topic until 3 or 4 am then I slept with my sister’s arm and we fell asleep peacefully. And when I feel Mr. Sun kissing my cheek realization hits me now that she found her happiness I hse going to leave me to and to be with him. I know still not this year and not even the next year or next year but sooner or later I need to live for myself, and I’ll be on my own. Her happiness is my happiness. What I am worried about is Christof his father and his beloved Aly. I am praying that he will be taking this easily and accept it how I accept it, but I know he will not., but still praying for it.