Love Unexpectedly

Chapter 5 - Cassandra

I immediately turn around when I heard a voice.

"Aaahhhh!!" Oh my God. He just saw me with only my underwear!

"What are you doing here?" Don't you know how to knock?" I quickly covered myself with my robe from the couch. My face is so red, I might probably look like a ripe tomato. Looking at him I thought I saw lust in his eyes but was quickly gone or maybe I was seeing it wrongly. It's so difficult to read him sometimes.

"Well..uhmm..uhmm.." Pointing his finger towards my main door. Did he stutter?

"The door was open and I decided to come in. And I did knock by the way, twice, and I called your name as well." He finished his dialogue hastily. Huh, would you look at that the great Alexander Hartford just stuttered and looking so uncomfortable? I have never seen him so rattled in my life.

I cross my arms trying to look cool but inside I'm a jumbled mess. "You should have called louder maybe I could've heard you."

God, I feel like vomiting. My anxiety would attack me any minute if I don't tell him to leave. He just saw me almost naked and not long ago I asked him to have s*x with me. I feel so pathetic right now.

"Look, Cassy, I don't want this thing *pointing to me and him* to get any bigger. Let me just apologize for the way I acted earlier. I'm sorry if I ruined your dress."  He looks at me blankly.

You think I'm upset because you spat on me? And what is this thing not getting bigger? I thought to myself irritatedly.

Sighing, "It's fine you didn't ruin anything." I told him. 

For a minute we were both silent and standing uncomfortably, looking everywhere but each other. Should I open up about it again? He seems to be trying to forget it like he didn't hear it just a few minutes ago or is it hours now? Gosh, I want to tell him again so I can explain why I asked him to take my virginity. We need to clear this uncomfortable tension between us or else it will forever be there. And I see him almost every day. It would be awkward and our parents will surely notice it. 

"Ahem" I coughed a little to make a sound. Still no reaction from him.

"I, I want to talk to you about what happened earlier, err...of what I said earlier." Oh my god, I feel like I'm in shambles right now. Put yourself together Cassandra. 

"Cassandra we..." His reprimanding voice echoes in the room. 

"I want to explain myself." I stop him before he says anything else. I look at him in the eye bravely, well just for a few seconds. He's looking at me intensely and if I stare longer I might get lost in those eyes.

He just sighs and nods. Okay great, he agreed now what? I point him to my lounge area indicating that we can talk there. The room itself is already intimate and I want us to be in a relaxing ambiance not create more tension. 

I was going to follow him but he stop and turn back towards me, eyeing me up and down. "Uhh, you should change first Cassy *cough* I will wait in the other room."

Right, I totally forgot I'm still in my robe. "Oh uhmm *smiling demurely* just give me few minutes." I gesture for him to go so I can change.

I close the door right after he steps out of my walk-in closet. Once I closed the door securely I slide down and sit on the floor.

OH..MY..GOD! I'm screaming loudly inside my head.

Why is this happening to me? I thought to myself.

Well, it's your fault you could have said no to your friends. They're always up to no good anyway. 

"But I'll lose their respect then they'll kick me out of the group and worst they might bully me or make something to embarrass me. I'll lose my good reputation at school. I'll be ruined." Now I'm crazy talking to myself.

I stand up and pace the room. I might hyperventilate if I don't relax.

"I can do this! I can do this! Sigh, I can't do this!"

 Gosh, I feel like crying. Maybe I can transfer to another school or better yet live in another country so that I won't be able to see Alexander too. I'm so embarrassed I just want to hide forever. 

Keep yourself calm Cassandra. Just go change with your most innocent-look dress and go face him. It's better to end this conversation quickly. And then tonight you can wallow and cry your heart out. 

Breathing deeply, I prepared myself and went out.

When I reach the lounge area, I see him sitting in one of the single couch. "Hi." I told him while sitting on the farthest chair from him. I'm not scared of him, I'm scared of what I'll do to him. 

"Hi" He said blankly. Well, I can see I'm not the only one who's prepared in this talk. Maybe he did a little pep talk when I was in the room. He seems rather relax now, back to his self-righteous look.

"So, Cassy what do you say about yourself?" He said simply.

I look at him perplexed. What does he mean by that? 

"Pardon?" I asked.

"Ahem..Well, you just gave me a proposition earlier. Shouldn't you feel reprimanding right now?"

Oh, you bull... "Why would I feel that? I didn't do anything wrong."  I gave him my best haughty look.

"Well, what you asked me earlier, no not even asked what you demanded is worth reprimanding. I should be berating you right now. You can't say those things, Cassandra." He looks irritated now.

Huffing, I stand up and face him. "And why is that? Why can't I ask you that or anyone for the matter."

"First of all, you are still too young to be engaging in those...those things. And secondly, you can't and will not ask that from anyone else." Now he's standing up as well looking ready to murder someone.

Is he angry? And what did he say? Young? I'm young? I thought to myself.

"Excuse me Alexander but as you can see I'm no longer a child. I'll be 18 in a few months. And by the way, why do you care if I ask someone else? I can do whatever I want and you can't stop me. You're not even in the position to tell me what to do or not to do. You're not my father nor my brother." I told him smugly. 

Oh boy, I think I said the wrong words. He's so furious like anytime now I'll see smoke coming out of his nose and ears. His face is so red it might explode. My smugness slowly fades and replaced with nervousness.

"Really Cassandra?" He's coming towards me slowly like he's the predator and I'm his prey. Oh, I hate this!

"What? You think you're ready just because you feel like you're an adult now? Do you think you can handle it?" He is so close now. He's moving forward while I'm backing away from him. He's looking at me like I'm his last meal. 

"Do you think you're ready to be f****d, Cassandra?" Why do I find him so hot when he said those crude words? I'm not sure if I'll be scared or be turned on.

I stumble on the couch trying to move away from him because he's already too close. His breathing is too fast and I can hear his heart beating so loudly or is it mine?

He crouched down to my eye level and holds both my arms on the side to steady me then whispered huskily in my ear. "I have to warn you though, I can be rough Cassandra. I can f**k your brains out that you'll forget your own name.

Then he looks at me directly in the eyes and I just notice how dark his eyes now. Unfortunately, love, I don't think your little body can handle me."

And then I slap him. I slap him so hard my palm hurt so bad. 

"Don't you ever say those crude words to me again." I pushed him out of my way and stand up. I step as far away from him as possible to put distance between us. My nerves are in jumbled chaos now. My face is so red and I feel so hot and bothered. My breathing is still rapidly fast like I ran a marathon and sweats' trickling down my back. Thank God I got out of that trance. I thought I was hypnotized or something.

"What? For a minute, I thought you like me saying those words to you." He taunted. I look at him directly and can see red forming on his left cheek. I can't believe he looks so calm right now while I'm still rattled inside. Like he didn't say or do anything bad a while ago.

"Get out." I point him out of my room. 

"I thought you said you're an adult. Now you're upset that I said those things to you? How can we even have s*x if you're so prudent?" He looks angry again. God, I just want him out of my room. 

"I said get out! Now!" I shouted. I really feel like crying.

We are standing there saying nothing for a few seconds and then he sighs.

"I don't why you want to this Cassandra. Whatever that reason or if there is someone pushing you to do this, it's wrong. You can't force something like this. It will happen to you but not like this." He said it with deep resignation like he doesn't care if I'll still do it or not. 

I didn't say a word to him so he decided to leave but before he fully closes the door.

"Oh, and by the way, nice underwear Cassy?" 

He closed the door at the same time I whip my head to look his way.

"You son-of-a-dog!!!" I yell at him. 

"You can't even say the word 'b***h' Cassy!!" He shouts back while laughing. After giving me that serious talk he still has the time to find ways to annoy me.

"Ugghhhh!!!" I said frustratedly. He's such a bipolar.

That night I cried myself to sleep. 

I felt so humiliated. Why did I even wear that ruffled white underwear with strawberry prints if I planned to seduce him?