Later, while he was replacing tiles in the sunroom, she came and sat on the low sofa with a pitcher of mint water and a story in her eyes.
“Can I tell you something?” he said, not looking up.
“Always.”
“I don’t know what I’m doing with my life.”
She raised a brow.
“I mean, architecture is fine. It’s what I picked at seventeen when I thought I needed to have a plan. But I don’t love it. Not really. I keep waiting for something to make sense, you know? Some lightning bolt.”
She swirled the mint in her glass.
“Lightning is loud,” she said. “But it doesn’t last. You want passion? Try fire. Slow, steady, unstoppable.”
He looked at her. “How did you figure it out?”
She smiled, far away.
“I didn’t. I just said yes more than I said no. I modeled because someone told me I had legs that made women cry. I wrote because I had thoughts that wouldn’t sit still. I did a film in Rome because the director begged and I was drunk on Italian wine.”
She turned to him, serious now.
“Live loudly, Julian. You’re not meant to be a whisper. Your life isn’t a maze you need to solve. It’s a lover you need to seduce.”
He swallowed hard.
She leaned closer.
“Do what excites you. Even if it’s foolish. Especially if it’s foolish. The best things I ever did were mistakes I kissed with my whole mouth.”