Her Trail

20

We fell into the seemingly eternal abyss of silence. For a few minutes, we remain looking at each other with only nothing in our eyes but indifference and mixed emotions. I was so indifferent to him while his eyes showered me with mixed emotions I could not name.

And suddenly he tried to open his mouth to say something but he ended up not doing it.

A loud opening of the door caught our attention, and one healer walked in, she seemed shocked to see both of us here so she bow over and over again saying her sorry's.

"I am really sorry, did I disturb something? Please pardon me, your lordship, and Lady Elora, as well."

She bows down again.

"You do not need to worry, the Crown Prince is also about to go out and we're already finished talking."

I felt Donovan's protests and glares directed at me but I did not mind him. I just smiled at the Healer and through that, making her comfortable to come in.

Walking out there, I felt Donovan walking behind me, following.

When we reach the outside of the building, I saw some Knights standing still and very alert by their surroundings. Although we aren't at the war point, still, they are wary.

I jump in shock when a loud explosion breaks the silence. Why can not I get used to that! Every time there are explosions I tend to worry about my family and the White Dragon's Knights a lot. I hope they are safe...

"Lady Elora," a deep yet seemingly mad voice called my name.

I faced Donovan who look really unpleasant.

"Did I do something wrong? Why are you suddenly treating me like how you used to treat me? I do not even understand why are you so indifferent to me."

I revert my gazes away from him as I gulp, and suddenly there are the happenings in my past life again.

"I-I am sorry," all I could say.

Because how will I reason out? Tell him that he was my boyfriend in my past life and he break my heart by going out with my enemy, living me with our child who... who have fallen.

Oh, right. He had the decency to break up with me after hooking up with another girl. But why so soon? Does that mean he is already seeing her while we are together that is why they happen so fast?

He left me questioning if he was ever loyal while we were together, and while we were at it, was I that not enough for him to look at other girl and develop feelings for her, that the moment he broke up with me, he already have the feeling and he only needs to tell her to make them happen?

But then, I knew that Donovan then was not the Donovan now. I knew it, I knows it, but I just can not get myself to trust this man, not in this lifetime where I still have the memory of the past. I could never be in that state where I doubt my worth, and asking myself was I ever enough to make someone stay again.

Donovan bit his lower lip, when I look at him again, I do not want to assume anything but his expression says he is hurt.

"Fine..." he started, "If I am bothering you, please excuse me, and I shall take my leave."

I was left staring at nowhere when he rashly left to where are we standing. He walks out carrying hurt showing on his face, and I am left here questioning my actions and mindset again.

I am so confused, what is the right thing? Does that even exist? Because sometimes the right thing for me is not what is right for others, and the right thing for others looks so wrong to me. So does that thing even exists?

And so how am I going to decide? Just estimating things or weighing them?

I am just confused and puzzled about how am I going to decide from now on. It's just that, even though I am mentally older but I am still continuously learning about a lot of things, it can be morals, life lessons, or values.

A loud sound of carriages suddenly caught my attention. It seems like something happened, they are all in a rush, and I noticed that some Knights who are riding a horse have minor bruises on them. What shock me is when they open the carriages when they reach in front of the building. There are nearly dying knights, some are soaked in blood and some have major injuries!

"Quickly! Call the Healers, we need them saved!"

One who seemed like the Leader went to the Knights on guard, and they did what was told in urgent.

Those who are not injured that bad carried their comrades inside and I who was stunned break out from the rock that bind me. I run towards one of the nearly dying knights and I accompany him using the wheeled chair I get from the inside. I rush towards him to let him sit, and I use it to fasten our arrival. This is one of the things I told the craftsmen to do, and since they already know how to do it, like how they put wheels on chariots, it was not that hard for them.

They even praised me for the nice idea, never did they know that I was not the one who invented it. I just use someone's idea for the betterment of their medicine approach.

Many eyes were on me, or us, when I passed them as I push the wheelchair, a wooden wheelchair.

It was hard to push him through the stairs but good thing someone helped me.

When we reach the second floor, I saw Healers rushing to see the state of the patients while I goes to the side where I put the things I brought here.

The first thing I did is to cut the patient's uniform to see his wounds, and it shocked me to see a wound like a cut from a knife... no, even larger than that... was that sword? Must be it.

It with tools I have here made by the known craftsmen, after checking the wound I made sure everything is sanitized, and will the help of these things, I performed the surgery.

Many gasped as they look and observe what I do, some Knights wanted to stop me but Healer Halo was there to stop them. There was a huge commotion, especially that some healers do not trust me yet.

"Calm down, she knows what she is doing," I heard Halo, but I am too focused now on what I am doing.

Another gasped was heard when blood suddenly gashed but I use the white fabrics, to stop inside, this is the only thing available. But the blood was normal, they must think I am killing my patient now but in my past life, everything is normal and in process.

It took me hours to complete the surgery and in the end, I stitch up the wounds. The man was stable now and a little minute by the healers will eventually heal him completely without a scratch, unlike the others that needed almost our for a healer to heal because they have to heal it all. As for my patient, they don't have to perform that long because I already made him stable.

I almost collapse on the floor when suddenly all the nervousness, the fear of being condemned surfaced after everything. I just felt it now and it made my knees felt like jelly. That was one nerve-wracking surgery because I did with the presence of everyone here, with them judging me with their very own eyes.

Halo walk towards me to finally heal the patient thoroughly, and just like how I estimate it, the patient was healed completely in a minute. I saw how his stitches became sealed, and I am sure the stitches on the inside as well.

That made the audience look at me with both confusions and they were probably wondering what did I do. I can not also explain to them because I am sure they will think I am crazy.

Halo noticed that I seem weak so he assisted me to sit on the nearby bed.

Everything is in chaos, when I look around, the healers look exhausted, although there were a lot of them in this specific room on the floor, they are not still enough to aid everyone that fast. In this whole building, there were like hundreds of healers, half of them were here on this floor, half is on the upper floor. And to fastly heal someone, they have to join forces, but they are humans, they still need rest, and I can see that their energy is nearly depleted.

Some of the healers are already panting and sweating hard even though it's nearly winter. We can already feel the welcoming cold breeze of it and yet exhaustion is evident on their faces.

After a minute of resting, I went up from my seat and started assisting some of the healers, when I went upstairs to see what's happening, I saw some patient that was neglected due to the overloading injured Knights, they were also some patients who came time to time adding to the turmoil.

I performed another surgery on a patient, like the first one, I am grateful, it all ended well, and finally, at midnight we all are able to take our rest.