ELIAS
Yesterday I lost everything I ever wanted
He looked at me with crystal blurry eyes and stretched out his hands, but for the first time in my entire life, I couldn’t reach him, I couldn’t grab what I wanted even though he was begging me to hold me
This was the kind of life I was forced to live, but trust me when I said I never wanted this
I never wanted to f*****g see him cry…
“f**k!”
I scattered the bedside table of my room, I was f*****g losing my mind
I couldn’t think straight, couldn’t breathe well, couldn’t believe I could let a group of f*****g bastards threaten me to expose to only guy I could ever love, or else they would tell the school that I was gay instead
So I was selfish, so maybe i don’t really love him, or maybe it was this f*****g fear that twisted my mind
