STIRRING DEEP INTO THE VOID

MY ENCOUNTER WITH MY NEXT-DOOR NEIGHBOUR

Seven months after my wife had left me; the trauma of being alone started making me fall sick and affecting me psychologically. I will be walking and a vehicle will be coming, even when I am directly facing it, I will not see it. The vehicle had to stop for me to pass before they proceed. I was lucky to have most of the drivers driving the vehicle understanding that something was wrong and they stopped and allow me to pass before continuing. What if they did not know and run into me? The situation was indeed frustrating.

When I called my wife’s line to find out how she is doing, how my kids are doing, she will not pick or return my calls, and if I call her parent, they are always not giving me a straightforward answer. I was beginning to regret my decision to get married to hers, but this thought spurs out of negative emotions. I wish there was something I could do to bring my wife back immediately.

One fateful night, around 11:30 pm, I was enraged, after I had woken up from a nightmare, of a woman trying to seduce me and I had my paint wet. I stood up in the middle of my parlour and started declaring, “Rayfield, wherever you are until you return to me, you will know no peace.” It was as if something came out of me and I could see it going out, like a tongue of fire, after which I sat down and wept. I had already gotten used to weeping every night. Suddenly, I heard a knock on my door and I asked, “Who is that?”

“Daddy, Enninad, I am the one, Sandra” and I answered her, “Sandra, this one you are knocking at my door this late, I hope there is no problem?”

“There is no problem; I just want to greet you, since I have not seen you for a while.”

I opened the door and she entered and sat down. She was wearing a very skimpy sleeveless dress and bomb short pants. When I saw her, I felt a strange sensation and she started talking.

“Daddy, Enninad, sorry, I understand what you are going through, forgive me, I have not been coming to you because I don’t want gossips and that is why I have come this late.”

She was sitting very close to me, and I could sense her aura from the perfume she wore. While she was talking to me with encouraging words, she started touching me. From the frequent touch, I got aroused and did not even know when I started reciprocating the touch. I could feel the electricity, everywhere charged up. There was no light, but I could the sparks from the static electricity generated from our body contacts. The atmosphere was tense and somehow, I felt lost in the passion of Sandra’s heat. I almost port into the Honeywell to start licking the combs, but I realize, I was not supposed to be doing that. I could feel her heartbeat and I know she wants me in. I realized she was at her peak and wanted me to stick in to do some click and licked her c**t, because she was horny. I thought what was happening was in my imagination, because it is now 12:30 am.

Immediately, the thought of my wife awakens me, I pushed her off.

“Get off me your serpent! Why are you doing this when you are killing me Daddy, Enninad? Therefore, you know I am married and you want me to have intercourse with 1you. You are cursed!

I told her to get out of my house and she shamelessly wore back her pant and went out through the back door, so that people will not observe her coming out of my house that early hour of the morning when it was all dark. I narrowly escaped, not because I did not want it, but because I had the thought of my wife. Therefore, the thought of my wife was my redeeming feature of not having intercourse with Sandra. One of the things that repel me from her was her bad breath.

The temptations were coming very frequent after I had experienced that nightmare resulting in my pant getting wet and Sandra was not helping issues at all. As she was beginning to give me very keen attention, wanted to know how I am doing every day. She would even sometimes come into my house and take some beverages, prepare tea and wants us to eat together. I did not want to get used to her to avoid emotional attachment, because it seems that is what is now happening. The frequent appearance of Sandra was creating in me the desire, like a dog wooed with bone.

There was a day Sandra told me, that if I was not leaving in this compound, she would have to be free to even come and pass the night in my house. I was amazed when she told me she loves me and wishes that I were not married. I had to start avoiding Sandra because I saw that her intention was not helping matters.

(Tata was the girl I invited to my house when things got worse and I need someone to express my emotion to find a way to relieve the pains in my heart. Nevertheless, this changed the game of my decision to move on with my life without my wife who left me for a reason not reasonable enough).

Due to the trauma of my wife leaving me, I stopped eating normally the way I should have and this affected my health. I had a very tormenting chronic ulcer and it was affecting me, since I could even go to work every day due to pain, not just from the thought of my wife leaving, but also the ulcer that is now attacking me.

Somehow, I started learning how to live without the thought of my wife, however, the thought of my children still bring back memories of her and I could not just stop thinking of her. I had to invite to my house a girl I met and we became friends. I started having feelings for her, but could not place it if it is love or I was just obsessed with my situation and needed a companion. I invited her to come over to my house to help me do some cleanup and cook for me. She was supposed to come over around 4:00 pm. Nevertheless, at exactly 3:59 pm, I heard a knock on my door, while I was taking my bath. I responded from the bath because I was not close to the parlour and had the leather of soap on my body. I have not started pouring water yet. I asked the person knocking on the door to hold on that I am coming. My thought was, “This must be the girl I invited to my house”. I rushed out of the bathroom with my towel, still having the leather of the soap on my body. When I approached my door and asked, “Who is on the door?” the person did not respond. I assumed it must be my expected visitor. Nevertheless, I opened to door, whom did I see? Surprisingly, I saw my wife standing right in front of me with my both kids. She was holding Enninad in her right hand and had Enivid backed. Immediately my first daughter saw me, she was very excited. She screamed, Daddy! And jumped on me, as I picked her up and hold her close to my embrace. The first thing she did was to kiss me on my cheek and say, “Daddy, I must you!” My wife did not say a word, she just walked straight into the room and sat on the bed and was sobbing. I locked the door and went straight to meet her in the room. It was like dreaming, as I held her and welcome her. She looked straight into my eyes and I could see tears dripping from her eyes. When I opened my mouth to say, “I am sorry”, she stopped me halfway and told me not to apologize to her.

My wife said to me, “Sweetie, you do not need to apologize to me, I owe you apology because I have done you wrong.”

When I heard this, I was sober and she went on…

“I am sorry, I am very sorry, forgive me for judging you for the very thing I am guilty of… I will not have used your past against you, but I did as if I had no pass and as if mine was not terrible. I have also kept many secrets from you and my secrets are not even as clean as yours are. The truth is I did not leave you because of what I read from your diary. I left you because I was promised better life by another man, but I realize he was not what he presents himself to be. I am sorry, my parent who was supposed to stand for my marriage, gave me their support and I am now disappointed in them. Nevertheless, I told myself, I have nowhere to go other than to return to you. I know you will not want to accept me back but consider your kids. I have hurt you, but they have not. They are innocent of my excess and lusts. I know I deserved to be stoned to death and I think you are the only one worthy to do that to me after what I have done to you. I have learnt the hard way and I have realized the mistake of my selfishness. You did not do anything wrong to me. I left because I thought life will be better for me out there. Therefore, I had to use the records of your past as the bait. Nevertheless, I have realized that you are the best and I cannot find a man like you, because the one I found is a fraud. I took your love for me for granted. Forgive me, please forgive me.”

When my wife was saying this, a thought drops into my heart and the thought says, “Remember you are expecting a female visitor.” Immediately, I reacted out of impulse, as the thought continued, “It is either you act fast and let her know now, else, you will get yourself into another mess and the will be concrete evidence.”

I quickly told my wife, “I need to talk to you now about something” and she permitted me to go ahead.

I started by appreciating her for returning and commended her courage to come back to me. I told her what I have been through and made her realized that since she left me, my life has to be in shamble. I told her, “I was about picking my shattered life and start all over again.” and explained to her that this is what I mean. I mean I had wanted to start all over again. To cut the long story short, I invited a girl to come and help me clean the house and cook for me”. I thought when she hears this, she will be mad at me, but she was as calm as a dove. I went on, “Since you left, no one has visited or entered this house. I was amazed to see you. I was expecting to see the girl I invited. Your coming is unexpected and unannounced. Therefore, please, if the girl comes, do not take things personally. Allow me to handle the issue. Did you hear me?” and she answered me, “yes, I heard you loud and clear and will do whatever you want me to do. I perfectly understand with you and I am ready to take whatever.”

While she was still talking, I heard a knock on the door and asked, “Who is that?” and the person responded, “It is me, Tata”. I took permission from my wife and went straight to open the door. When I opened the door, the visitor walked on and her first reaction was an attempt to kiss me. I dodged her, because I not expecting that, since we have never discussed any romantic stuff or had any plan that we are going to have a romance. I was shocked to my bone and was cautious since my wife was inside the room. My wife was still in the inner room and I ask Tata to seat and make herself comfortable. She was wearing very revealing clothes and I could see the linen of her inner pant, which was very clear. When she walked in, before she sat down, she that she was ready for me, dressed to kill.

I went back into the room and when I arrived, I saw my wife weeping bitterly, while my kids were sleeping, I guess because of the stress of the journey. I held my wife’s hand and stood her up. I asked her to follow me to the parlour and she obediently did without hesitation. I cleaned her tears, held her romantically and we walked into the parlour. When Tata saw us walking into the parlour, she was shocked. I could see the jealous rage in her eyes, such that she could not even hide it. She thought I have brought in another girl into my house. I was calm and confident, having discussed and explained to my wife that I am expecting a visitor. My wife and I sat facing each Tata, who was now uncomfortable, because the skirt she wore was very skimpy, revealing her spotless labs, very enticing indeed. I started speaking to Tata, “Hi, Tata, how are you?” and she answered, “I am fine sir.”

And I said to Tata, “Meet my wife, Rayfield”, and turned to my wife, and said, “Meet my friend “Tata”.

I could see it in Tata’s eyes, the shock and surprise and I went on to explain to my wife in the presence of Tata, saying to my wife, “Tata is a friend I recently met and we became close. Therefore, I invited her over to help me out at home, before you came in unexpectedly. Nevertheless, I am so happy having you back home.”

Tata was shock and speechless and I could now see the initial jealous rage converted to fear, having heard that the woman I introduced to her is my wife. When I was still talking, Tata interfered and said to my wife, “Ma, I am very sorry, I did not mean any harm and today is my first day coming here because your husband invited me. I only came to help and nothing more. I think I should be taking my leave now.”

My wife immediately told her, “It is fine, you do not have to feel bad young lady, just be free. My husband had told me everything and I was aware that you are coming. You are very welcome. So what do I offer our high esteemed visitor?”

“Ma, you do not have to bother yourself, I am fine. I think I need to go now, please, permit me.”

Even while she was still talking, she stood up, opened the door and ran out of the house. Immediately she left, my wife took a deep breath and said to me, “So if I had not come, this lady would have taken my husband? Thank God, this did not happen.”

My heart filled with joy, I held my wife, kissed her deep, and we had fun in the parlour after which we renewed our marriage vow. It was a dawning of a new day for me. I was exceedingly glad that I had my family back.

Truly, life is full of ups and downs and you need to embrace life with courage, no matter what happens. Whatever happens to you in life, it is life schooling you with experience as the teacher. Do not miss the lesson that life has in store for you. It is for a purpose.

My wife left me, to learn what she needs to learn because there was no way she would have if she had not... what If I had failed by starting all over again? Do not end what has just started, no matter the pressure you go through. Marriage involves a lot of sacrifices and we must be deliberate in our decisions not to throw away the towel when the storm rages.