STIRRING DEEP INTO THE VOID

I TIED THE KNOT ON THE D-Day

It didn't occur to me this day will come in a moment and now I am face to face with what I have envisioned as dreamt.

It was on this very day, a very memorable Easter Sunday, been 16th April 2017 my status changed in the presence of many witnesses in the church. I was very happy and somehow sad because my immediate family members were not present. It was a mixed feeling for me because people who were supposed to be with me were nowhere to be found, none of my brothers, only one of my sisters, was present on this very day, but I saw the hand of the benevolent one. At the dying minute somehow the benevolent one raised men who stood with me, despite I was afraid that I will be disappointed because the majority of the things I needed did not come as at when due. However, at the very moment when it seems as if all hope was lost, I got everything supplied.

After I had left the first bank along Opkuto road Idrukam, took bike straight to my friend’s house, rushed in, dressed up sharply and dashed out, looking for a bike, while my wife’s calls kept increasing my adrenaline, because when she called, she will start shouting, “Where are you? You are supposed to be in the church before me, and now we are here in the church waiting and you are not yet here”. I could not even explain myself, because explaining myself plunges me into more excuses and it was not helping things at all. I got down to the church, we were already called to march in and instantly started marching in and it was not an experience I have never had, I have not even done best man or had ever been part of the groom’s men, so it was like I am a stranger, with all eyes on me. The atmosphere was tense with an irresistible ambience and dazzling beauty. I could feel glory, even as the moment ushers me into a dimension of changed status from single, to a married man.

This D-day was Easter Sunday after I was joined with my wife in the church, I could not believe that not just one of my uncles and aunties from my paternal family was present, I only had my aunties from my maternal family who stood with me throughout the process. God did not disappoint me and the good news is that He allowed all that happened to happen so that no man will take the glory. My uncle’s wife rejected my wedding invitation for the reason that will shock your imagination, but God did not reject my faith, because of His faithfulness, He did not fail in any of His promises concerning me. My God is simply amazing and He is truly a miracle worker, way maker, life changer and my light in the darkness to instil hope when all hope seems to be lost. God’s grace is the hope at the end of the tunnel when we throw not the towel, going through the dark tormenting moments of situations that could sometimes leave us with an option to say God is not been fair. Have you ever thought God is not been fair? Then, despair is your hope if you do not desist from such thoughts. God is never late, but we are so impatient to wait to see God do that which He has promised, so we run out because of doubts and end up regretting not being patient. God is always on time, even when men delay you because of unnecessary hate, they are helping you to reach faster the place of abundance, and you seriously need to learn from Joseph’s experiences.

Your unwavering faith is a key, which will open the floodgate of cloud nine to release abundant rain of the contents of your need even when there is scarcity.

My life may seem not to have a form to men, but the benevolent one does not form a life with a form, He forms a life that is deformed and this process is what I call reformation. He forms a life that is deformed and transforms such life to become the desire of His heart. I am a man after the heart of the benevolent one because He has transformed me into His very doppelgänger in accordance to His rendering, what men see does not matter, what matters is what He is seeing in me as I am in Him I am AM’s.

From the cradle, my life has been a miracle, because of the conditions I went through, doctors would not have been able to remedy them, but the benevolent one was using that to build me, but when men think in their myopic thoughts, that it was a predicament, He was working something they could not at all see. I am a miracle child with an Enivid seal who has seen the ups and downs of life, trying moments of pains, hurts, insults, abuse and curses, but because the one I rely on despite not being seen is not dead, His joy became my strength, because, in my life, He became overall. The benevolent one would always answer me instantly when I have come to a point of giving up that is when He would always step in to the equation to cause things to work, even when things are not working. Miracles are real, very, very real. You can never escape a miracle when you do not act the contrary of being positive. When your reliance is sure amid uncertainties, you will be ignited to wait, not in worries, but in high expectation and optimism in the one who will never fail you. Even when you can fail yourself, He will not and when in lack, He will supply all of your needs according to His riches in glory and your fear will become a story of the past. Sometimes, the heart of men will be hardened toward helping you, so that they will not take the glory that is due Him when help finally comes from Him.

It happened on 13 April 2017 in Idrukam town, a literal miracle of abundant rain. My wife and I got down to Idrukam on 12 April 2017 from Soj, which was Wednesday, while I went to my friend’s place to put up. On this very day, which was the 13th, I rushed down to my wife’s family house to see how things were going and discovered, they had no water at all, but they have this very big GP tank, which is over 5000 l****s in capacity. My wife’s younger brother started arranging to fetch water into the big tank, which will take a very long time to even go halfway, talk more about filling it. Therefore, my brother-in-law had to use about three kegs to go a very long distance to buy the water with a chartered tricycle. When he came the first round, turned the water he brought into the tank, I felt bad, considering how tedious it will be for him since the water is been bought and how can he even fill that big tank? I do not even have enough money to get a tanker. I had a leading to do something, which seems very crazy, because nobody understands what I was doing, despite everybody felt the instant response. I reminded myself knowing there is one who controls the entire universe; therefore, if I can rightly make my request by placing a demand, I will get my heart desires granted and I have had this conviction that all I needed for the success of my wedding is supplied, even when there is nothing on ground for me. This kind of mindset is crazy and delusive to think, but it works for me.

Immediately, I closed my eyes to remind this thought that always speaks into my heart in quiet prayers in the presence of my father-in-law, I said, “Father, you will not put me to shame, show forth and help me”. Instantly, before I could mention it, the condition of the atmosphere was changed and I opened open my eyes to see a literal miracle. Right in front of my naked eyes, the weather that was normal, with no sign of rain, got instantly cloudy and it started raining cats and dogs. It was as if I was daydreaming because the intensity of the rain was heavy and in less than ten minutes, the tank to the brim was full and was pouring out such that there was no container left to put water because all the containers already have been filled. My father-in-law was standing outside with me, while I was lost in wonder amazed and he made this statement, “This is a miracle and it can only be God”. I was caught and overwhelmed with surprise, trying to wake up from the wonder. I could not even express my joy for what has done for me, to make a supply for me at the dying minute when I thought all hope was lost.

From my experience in the course of my wedding, I have to discover God can never fail provided He has committed Himself with His Word to you. It shall happen even as He (God) has promised you, despite it may not come the way you have programmed your mind to receive it. Every bit of His promises concerning our lives will happen, if we will not give up on Him, He will not give up on us, because He is able. If you stay on course and do not go the way of self, even if it will not be easy, the trial of your faith will work out patience and in the end, you will know it is worth waiting to see the mind of the one you trust happen for you. I was given water by the one I cannot see when there was not, that water was more than enough for the occasion, and it even served us throughout the period until we left Idrukam on 23 April 2017. Today being the 26th of April 2017, they are still using the miracle water.

The miracle did not stop at the provision of water but also extended to providing as needed for the wedding. The supplies were abundant and in excess, such that, in the course of the reception for my white wedding, we had no difficulties. My maternal aunties were afraid for me, but I kept assuring them that all needed for the success of my wedding would be supplied even when I do not know-how. I was confidently confident in all the promises that kept me confident, but it will surprise you to know that I had not even a dime on that Saturday and the only day I have left for me.

There shall come phases in life that we need to face life’s situations in faith having confidence in whatever we trust, even when all we see as reality creates nothing but fears.

If you do not face the phase of life in faith having confidence in the one who cannot fail, you will break down and feel your back is actually against the wall.

When it looks as if it is over, it cannot be over when it is with the one that cannot fail, but will when you have lost your grip (trusting… in all situations). Therefore, your focus should be the one you trust who would surely make away because He is the way maker and situation changer.

There cannot be away when your fears are for the situations and circumstances, but will only be a way when your fear is in fear that there will not be away. This is what defines total dependency upon the sure and never failing one, even when the chance of your hope is at the tail end, trusting the never-failing one to take you through the stormy situations of life which are adverse against you.